I Drew Diverse SDV Mod Emily Cuz I Really Like Her Redesign,,,,,,,, Though I Think I Fucked Up Her Hair

So, Unus and Annus are reaching the last hour of existence, and they said that if we want, we could write our last words to them and our aspirations, and.... I wanna do it

I'm taking this stupidly seriously but this, this channel became important to me, it made me expand my thoughts on what I thought death was to me and what my life is to me

But here we go

I haven't been here for the beginning, I didnt watch every video and I never bought merch, but regardless this channel and these videos worked there way into my thoughts, and this livestream made me stupid sentimental. My internet currently is shitting itself and I might not see the end properly, but that's ok.

Death to me, is the end

That's it, I dont know if there is an after and I dont care, I dont fear the emotions and pain I might feel facing my demise but I do fear one thing. I fear of what my death will do to the world i leave behind.

Will it change? Will it mourn? Will it rejoice??? Or will absolutely nothing happen, and time keeps moving forward as it does. More importantly however, how would the people I love remember me? After death I will be gone and over, there wont be anything left of me besides the legacy I have left and the memory people hold of me, so I cant help but think of the only thing I CAN think of involving my demise. But this is egotistical of me is it not? Death is normal, and I am not special for thinking this way, I am going to die and so will you guys. But in all honesty I cannot think of any other way to perceive my death, I cannot for the life of me think of anything else to say about it.

That's also ok, I'm alive

I'll never understand my death as long as I live.

But I obsess so much, about what will happen after I die, but I try not to think about what will happen as I continue to live.

I am young, and I am childish, I am naive and I am hopeful.

I only really truly desire one thing in my life more than anything, even if it may change over time.

I want to make a story I love, and characters whom can share my thoughts and feelings, in their own unique experiences, and become their own people from them as well. I want to create art that would do them justice and I want to love it so, so, so much

I know I dont draw as much as want, I should not force myself to per say, but I find it difficult to find motive to.

At this moment that is my only goal in my life, I just want to love what I create

I will one day

Even if I may die before I create such a story, I will love my art, I do love it now

I love it because I CREATED it

I made it, I birthed something simply because I wanted to, because its fun

And I really, really wish I could see that everyday.

But I do not, and that's ok, that's ok

Its ok

This channel taught me to, learn what it is that I value about my life and my death, and because I overthink MANY things this was not always a good thing lol

It will die soon, and that's ok

But that does not mean I will not feel, grief

No matter how much or little that grief may be.

So what shall I do? When it does? When it dies 20 minutes from now as I'm writing this?

Well I'll cry

I'll cry, and cry and cry

Because it is what I can do

.

I don't know what my life will be like, I cant find the words to describe what I think of it as, as of writing this at least.

But

But I

I want to live

I AM living

I AM ALIVE

and I'm so glad that I am, I used to think living was a burden, I used to hate that fact

But I'm still here, I'm still breathing and I'm so

I'm so relieved, that I chose to stay alive.

And I hope that those who are reading this feel that too, maybe not today or tomorrow, but soon.

Soon.

Because it is, such an amazing thing to be here, with you, and with my family and friends, and with strangers I'll never meet

..

This has gone in a while

This is clearly important to me so I wanted to be transparent in my feelings. I dont know how u all will react to this and I dont know if you will care.

But that's okay, you dont need to take anything from this.

Well

Except for one thing.

Momento Mori, Remember Death

Remember Life

Unus Annus

Thank you so much for reading my rambles about my existence, thank you so much

I'm glad you are alive reading this as well

I'm glad we exist :)

N,,, nonbinary byleth

An attempt at least

HOLY SHIT UR A GENIUS

the long forgotten and ancient fourth gender.........

Yall have heard of the two genders known as Pegoryu and Shukita,,,, but what if I told you there was a third?????

The forbidden third gender Ryukita

Woahhhhhhh new Mordred just dropped let’s go

I may or may not redraw Malinda tho, havnt quite pinned down how I wanna approach dragons, anywho obligatory @llamagirl28 mention for Bastard of Camelot, thanks for the blorbo to torture <3

Haha oh boy I can't wait to flesh out my character's backstory man I love Elder Scrolls lore-

3 hours of lore deep diving later after discovery major timeline inconsistencies in backstory:

I made it :-] enjoy

Ann and Shiho are coming back soon yall

I've noticed their a bit of a favorite

😔✊🏽

Ann is a furry its canon now Shiho said so

OKAY, I FINALLY FUCKING MADE SOMETHING, I apologize for the waitttttrrr

This is Ganymede! Hes one of my Persona Ocs, and I figured I'd start with the 'mascot' character as an introduction to my little persona world thingy.

He has a pretty deep voice, and he talks like a Shakespearean actor or something, he lives by a 'code' very similar to a knights (obviously) and his tarot card is the Hierophant!

If yall are interested in this thing just lemme know and I'll I do dump yall, again! Sorry for taking so long to post something!

*sweating* g ggg g girls

I love this ship so fucking much u have no ideA