JUDE😭

I woke up in a cold sweat..,,,, gnod told me to make thjs

me because i was actually not able to breathe by the end 🩷

Me back to when I finished Dear comrade AND Lispenard street in ONE sitting

everything reminds me of him (jude st francis)

this quote haunts me

so i DID just have to stifle a scream whilst crying about willems last thoughts. i feel sick 😆

i will literally never shut up about Een Klein Leven but I'm doing a rewatch (again) and holy shit I will also never shut up about Ramsey Nasr's acting. The face he makes when Brother Puke tells him they're a couple now (yall know what i mean) is absolutely HEARTBREAKING

that is an EERILY childlike expression holy shit I'm about to throw something. he said 🥺

AND THEN THE FACE OF HEART SHATTERING ACCEPTANCE OF THE INEVITABLE

RAMSEY NASR WHEN I GET YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok what if i fucking exploded and died .

i lowkey missed it the first time because it’s in the background of willem and malcom’s conversation abt jude’s long sleeves but

can we please talk abt jb and jude coming back from a nice beach walk and deciding to and i quote ‘fling sand at each other’ before jb drunkenly collapses and jude decides, apparently without any warning or discussion, to bury him up to his waist in the sand while jb lies there singing

what could be better than this just guys being dudes!!!!

"I was raised Catholic," he began. "But you're not now?" the judge asked, frowning. "No," he said. He had worked for years to keep the apology out of his voice when he said this.

Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

it’s thanksgiving so i’m remembering how much jude loved it </3