100 Days Of Productivity | 2020

09.10.21

im back after 4 or so months... hi

i don't really have much to post and im going to be spending the weekend and next week revising for the first exams of the academic year, as well as the first exams of a-levels. looking forward to posting again so i'll see you all soon :)

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top surgery fund

hey there everyone, i’ve been pretty radio silent since my a levels ended because i am not really working. i am a trans guy who has been on testosterone for five months now and really want to start getting myself to a position to be able to get top surgery. i have been binding since i was about 14 (i’m 18 now) and with asthma and hypermobility mean that the several intercostal muscle sprains because of both of those things, bindings a pain in my ass i can’t be bothered with and also, i don’t want to bind, want to yeet my tit.

as of right now i am looking at surgeons and speaking to my GIC about a referral to a surgeon (which will be about £300) and then a consultation which will likely be no more than £200 as far as I have seen and then hopefully no more than £7k for the actual surgery + all of that jazz.

i’m working on getting some money from various places but would really appreciate it if people were able to chip in just a lil bit via my paypal (paypal.me/jusafn). i’d really appreciate anything people are able to do, be that a small contribution or just reblogging.

tldr; gay, trans, nd, mentally ill, asthmatic  guy w/ hypermobility n semi fucked up ribs wants top surgery bus has no money pls help :”) link is paypal.me/jusafn

(Summer Study Challenge) 8/22/2020: Imagine that you could fill a swimming pool with anything except water and swim in it. What would your pool be filled with? 

This is giving me too many flashbacks from competitive swimming, so I’ll stay away from the pool if it’s cool with you. ;) 

Nineteen credits and two honors seminars sure do hit you kinda fast, don’t they? I’ve started blocking out my days schedule wise and I’m loving it so far. It feels so much better than the pomodoro method for me. I’m usually allotting an hour and a half to each subject and an hour to do these posts should I have the time to do them. As you can see, I don’t post every day on here, and probably won’t. This semester is busy, busy! 

The first two days of classes went pretty well, and my internship is off to a great start. I’m enjoying my classes so far, but I still have two more that haven’t met yet. Also catch me trying to learn Latin myself - the textbook went straight to verb conjugation and I respect that but I have no idea if I’m doing any of this right. 

Hope you’re all doing well. Steady on! 

🎶 : Das Wandern (from Die Schöne Müllerin - performed by Ian Bostridge and Mitsuko Uchida) from my Favorite Repertoire for Tenor playlist

19 March 2020 | I’ve been rather quiet lately, but here is a little glimpse into what “social distancing” looks like for me. It just so happened that this was the first semester of my program that I was doing almost entirely by distance anyway so remarkably little has changed for me in how I do my coursework. I’m thankful for how little the present pandemic has disrupted my education and know that very few can say the same. My husband, who was until a couple of days ago in the midst of his clinical rotations for medical school in a nearby emergency department, has been much more directly affected and involved in combating the current outbreak. Join me in praying for our entire world—as no one is unaffected by this virus—for when one suffers we all suffer together, recognizing the value and dignity of every human being be they near or far. 

O Master and Lord, our Savior, Healer of all, stay by our side in this time of uncertainty and sorrow. 

hi luv!! I notice you do a lot of pilates with blogilates! I love her sm lol she’s amazing but I was wondering,, do you have any fav videos of hers that you do regularly/more often than others? I love the 100 challenges that she does and a couple of other videos but I wanted to know which ones you like the most !!

hi angel!! eee i’m so glad so many of you seem to love cassey too, she’s great ✨ here are the videos i always go back to:

thighs

i really really like you squat challenge

plie squat challenge

shape of you(r thighs) squat challenge

call me maybe squat challenge

20 minute inner thigh isolation workout

5 moves to target inner thighs

obliques

extreme obliques workout

quick burn obliques workout

candle stick dippers workout

another quick burn obliques workout

back

backless bride workout

ultimate back workout

3 minute quick back workout

backless dress workout

arms

20 minute arm isolate

quick burn tricep workout

quick burn arm workout

bridal bootcamp arm workout

6 minute arm workout

pop pilates arm workout for beginners

abs (for abs, i typically just make up my own routine vs following videos, but i like these ones!!)

pop pilates ab workout for beginners

lower ab isolation exercises

abs and obliques workout

for cardio, i tend to just do piit workouts!! i typically only do this one but i’ve done this one a few times as well and i liked/hated it (hated bc it was painful and i felt like dying the entire time lmao)

How to Escape a Hair Grab or a Neck Grab ? Look at them, carefully.

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When I was 13 years old and curious about sex and love, I asked my mom if she had had sex before marrying my father (of whom she is still married to, and has been since before I was born). She said that that wasn’t really a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question. I said ‘sure it is, you’ve either had sex before him, or you haven’t’. She brought me onto the couch and sat me down and told me about the boy she liked when she was young and how one night she snuck into his house while his parents were gone and they were kissing and he said they should have sex and she said that she wanted to save sex for marriage and he laughed and basically took all her clothes off and he raped her and as my mom was telling the story she cried and this was the second time I had ever seen my mom cry. She was 12 when it happened.

In grade 8 I got a call from my friend in the middle of the night and she was drunk in the park crying and told me that she went out that night with some other friends and they drank a little and her guy “friend” starting flirting and yes she laughed at first but then he tried to pull her shirt over her head and she pulled away and he ripped her shirt and it was her favourite shirt and then he pushed her to her knees and HIS BEST FRIEND HELD HER JAW OPEN WHILE HE FACE FUCKED HER. And so I went to the park and picked her up and took her home and slept in her bed with her except we didn’t sleep because she just cried and her mouth bled and this was four years ago but I still have to be the one to bring her items to the till it the cashier is a man, and she still has anxiety attacks and she’ll get a rash all over her body and I just want to kill those boys but instead they are still walking around. And I’m in the bathroom with her, dabbing at her skin with a warm cloth until it returns to its regular colour.

And in grade 9 one of my closest friends was kinda seeing this boy and so they hung out one night and then she said that she really had to be getting back home and he said that she wasn’t going anywhere until she gave him what he wanted and he parked the car and took off her clothes and she said no and he ignored her and so she laid in the backseat totally limp and just cried and it wasn’t even sex, he just masterbated by using her body instead of his hand and she came to school the next day with vodka in her water bottle and she drank all day and I had to fight her to get the alcohol away from her and she just cried and threw up and I skipped class while I held her hair back and that same boy texted me a month later, asking if I ever wanted to hangout sometime.

And in that same year my very best friend who has never even kissed a boy, confessed to me that when she was 9 years old, her 12 year old cousin made her give him a hand job and he told her that was what cousins do and he gave her a chocolate bar afterwards and she told me that he probably doesn’t even remember it but that it’s something that she’ll never have the luxury of forgetting.

And in grade 10 I knew a girl who invited her best friend over to watch Disney movies and then he started to put his hands down her pants and she said no but she is 130lbs and he is 220lbs and he called her a tease while she tried to fight him but he used one hand to hold her down, and the other to put inside of her and i was the one to push her inside of a classroom and stand in front of her while calling the police when he showed up at our school looking for her and she was so damn scared.

And a few months later I skipped class and was in the car with a guy who i had had unprotected sex with in the past while under the influence of cocaine but this time I was sober and I insisted we use a condom but he told me he couldn’t feel anything while the condom was on so he ripped it off and I said I refused to have unprotected sex again and so he just grabbed me and forced himself into my mouth and I was crying and he pulled me onto him and I just came saying “stop” over and over like a broken record but he must’ve heard something different because he went until he came and I just sat naked in the backseat while he drove me back to the school and said “we should do this again sometime”. And I had five showers that night and I scratched at my skin so hard to try and rip his fingerprints off of me, I still have the scars.

And I found out soon afterwards that that same guy had raped a classmate of mine, 5 months earlier and she told me about how he brought her McDonald’s first, and how he said they could take things slow and she told me about how he didn’t listen to her either. And he goes to our school and so after she told me about her incident and I told her about mine, we decided to report it to the police and the trial is currently still going on and he told people about it, except in his version we are just “asking for attention” and all his friends talk about how bad they feel for him. As if HE is the one that still wakes up screaming. As if HE felt like his skin no longer was beautiful, no longer belonged to him. And I held her in my arms as she bawled after giving the police her statement. And she did the same for me.

And I met a woman a year ago in a paint store and she had a service dog and I asked what the dog was for and it turns out that she had been so brutally raped and abused in her life, that the dog is literally trained to keep men away from her.

And I’m so FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS WORLD WE ARE LIVING IN. How many rape victims eyes have I already looked into? How many more will I? And how many more friends will I hold while they shake? Because I don’t know how many more I can take. And who the fuck still has the nerve to make rape jokes? And… Something just has to change. Please, someone just start being that change.

-16 year old girl

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some maths notes! i was inspired by one of my friend’s minimalistic Cornell notes so i decided to try this style out :)

personally, maths notes have to be very minimalistic otherwise it gets way too confusing 😓 i only need the bare bones of what to remember! i have fun with brush pens and colours in subjects like bio and geo ;)