Oh To Be Skin And Bones

#45 - how

Ed meme dump

I can feel myself getting stronger. Most of these exercises are so easy to do now. I'm so excited to see how the end of the 30 days looks!

Have you started any challenges? How are you doing with them? It's okay if you've missed. Just jump in where you left off or start over!

Today has been weird. I've done alright with eating. Eh.... just kind of in the slumps about my appearance. But when am I not.

Imma post some TikTok’s that I can relate too

Okay so I just binged on kfc and a donut, it was 546 cals for the tenders and 300 cals for the donut. I’m literally so dead and want to kms. I purged it but still feel like absolute shit with a total of 1107 calories in total today.

I need to die, I am sick of this cycle.

Reblog if you genuinely feel fat. Not just once in a while "oh I look fat today" but a deep hatred for your body image every day.

waking up to stars on the ceiling and bruises on pale skin and battered feet on & off the scale and almonds in ziploc baggies and bite marks on fingers and hair down the drain and measuring crunches by the spots left on the spine and enough water to drown organs and eating an apple with a knife and fork and battered feet on & off the scale and desperate hands clutching ribs and standing up & the world goes dark and carrying an emergency rice cake in your purse for weak spells and enough green tea to drown organs and how many calories are in toothpaste and whatever nail polish color covers yellow and battered feet on & off the scale and is today the day my heart gives out and how many calories do you burn when you sneeze and pillows squeezed between thighs and waking up in a new body everyday and fingers clasped around wrists and notebooks filled with numbers and purple crescents below the eyes and accidentally knocking your elbow on your hip bone and being afraid of your own reflection and i’m not hungry or i already ate or i’ll eat later or i don’t feel well and oxygen that tastes like splenda and battered feet on & off the scale