Of Course It’s “all In My Head”, Have You Ever Seen Anyone Having Depression On Their Leg?

Was feeling really hungry today to I waited for dinner and had some squid + veggies with long grain rice (picked most of it off) + beetroot (max of 400 cals)

Also had some fruit salad which was max of (150 cals)

So I’m total I had 550 cals

Not a good day today not a good day at all!

And to top that off I relapsed on self harm after being 3 weeks clean

Dying really sounds like an option.

Some things to think about whenever you next feel like giving up or binging

Stay safe ♡

"My child is completely fine" your child would do anything to lose 30lbs in a week

Ed meme dump

1 hour workout update!!

Hi! Again with my updates, I complited my workout before the time was up! I also stuck to my calorie limit and I will maybe lose a pound so maybe I will be 45,9 kg! (I’m tooo lazy for math rn so look it up if you’re from US of UK or idk) And with my diet maybe just maybe I will be 45 kg or even 44 kg! (wich is my UGW) My legs are still sooo fat! I would’ve shown you a picture of them but I don’t have a phone .-. Also with new diet for a week I down graded my workout to 30 min or 45 min, because I have school and I can’t be so exausted I can’t stand on my own, wich happens after my workout.  .  .I will try to do it for an hour but no promises.  .  .OH! And for peeps who are curious what I do for my workout here it is, maybe it’s not so weird and exausting at first, but it helps.  .  .

Of course remember to stay safe xoxo! 🖤🖤🖤

I’m not usually scared of liquid calories but today I had 2 McDonald’s coffee frappe (no whipped cream and no chocolate drizzle) but I’m still fuxking scared of how many calories I had today even tho I only ate 200 calories.

I’m not usually this scared of liquid cals, I avoid them where I can but I’ve got my safe drinks which is caramel latte (120 cals wit milk) and McDonald’s coffee frappe (no cream or chocolate) (400 cals) which usually make me happy and not give me a panic attack like they did today. I’ve had so many calories today it’s not funny and I’m positive I’m gonna gain weight!

I just want to throw myself of a bridge for letting myself have this many calories, it’s like I want to stay fat at this point.

I’m so over myself and I just want this to end

oh to be skin and bones <3

waking up to stars on the ceiling and bruises on pale skin and battered feet on & off the scale and almonds in ziploc baggies and bite marks on fingers and hair down the drain and measuring crunches by the spots left on the spine and enough water to drown organs and eating an apple with a knife and fork and battered feet on & off the scale and desperate hands clutching ribs and standing up & the world goes dark and carrying an emergency rice cake in your purse for weak spells and enough green tea to drown organs and how many calories are in toothpaste and whatever nail polish color covers yellow and battered feet on & off the scale and is today the day my heart gives out and how many calories do you burn when you sneeze and pillows squeezed between thighs and waking up in a new body everyday and fingers clasped around wrists and notebooks filled with numbers and purple crescents below the eyes and accidentally knocking your elbow on your hip bone and being afraid of your own reflection and i’m not hungry or i already ate or i’ll eat later or i don’t feel well and oxygen that tastes like splenda and battered feet on & off the scale

Okay so I just binged on kfc and a donut, it was 546 cals for the tenders and 300 cals for the donut. I’m literally so dead and want to kms. I purged it but still feel like absolute shit with a total of 1107 calories in total today.

I need to die, I am sick of this cycle.