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Egh I’ve hit a plateau and keep jumping around the 72kg mark and it’s making me want to kms

Any tips of getting out??

Been trying to follow this recently I will update if I have seen any changes :/

65 Things to do to avoid a binge

After going on a trek with a mate of mine this weekend and having to forcibly eat, my purging habits came back pretty bad. I hate binging and purging, so I decided to make a list of a bunch of things you can do to avoid a binge! I made this not only for myself, but for every one of you that may be struggling with a binging problem too. 

Drink a cup of tea

Paint a picture

Write a story

Write a song

Play your instrument

Go on a walk

Go on s run

Take your dog to the park

Ride your bike around the neighborhood

Read a book

Look at thinspo/fitspo

Research something

Learn about the Universe

Walk to the library

Go to the mall

Do your makeup

Dress up in your favorite outfit and take pictures

Go to the gym

Play a video game

Take pictures of nature

Sketch

Create a diary

Do your homework

Pick up shifts at work

Make a collage

Snuggle with your dog, cat, or pet

Watch a movie

Make a list of things to do 

Write out meal plans

Watch funny internet videos

Drink a cup of coffee

Call a relative you haven’t spoken to in a while

Go to the movies

Listen to music

Do 100 jumping jacks

Paint your nails

Do a facemask

Go bowling

Take a bath

Nap

Dance in your bedroom

Go adventure in you nearest town/city

Go on a hike

Go to the recreational center for a swim

Take a babysitting job

Go for a long drive

Go on a walk on the beach

Go to an art museum

Write a letter to someone

Do an internet workout video

Hangout with your mates

Drink lots of water

Come up with an ANA/MIA recipe

learn how to count to ten in a different language

Take a shower

Sing a long to your current favorite song

Do the dishes

Browse the library

Join an online support group

Clean your house

Go gardening

Learn how to knit

Water your plants

Discover new bands

Plan your week out

WE HIT 70kg

After a month at being stuck at 72kg I’ve finally hit 70kg weighing in at 70.45kg (155lbs) this morning

Starting the ABC Diet today. Trying to get out of my binge cycle, and hoping I can stay away from them. Wish me luck!

CW:104.6lbs. GW:95lbs.

binge eating is awful. it’s stressful, extremely upsetting, and it can make you feel out of control. but overcoming binge eating is possible. there was a time when i thought i would never beat the binge cycle that i was trapped in, but with hard work and dedication i was able to fully recover. i’ve grown so much through my experience, and i picked up a lot of useful tips and tricks along the way. so i put together a bunch of resources that will hopefully help you get through this too. it’s a long post, so buckle up. let’s get into it…

beat cravings:

drink water

or peppermint tea

chew mint gum

gargle mouthwash

suck on ice cubes

brush your teeth

find healthier alternatives to the foods that you crave. fruit instead of candy, miracle noodles instead of pasta, frozen yogurt instead of ice cream, dark chocolate instead of milk chocolate, popcorn instead of chips… etc.

distract yourself:

study or do homework

meditate

exercise!

clean your room

paint your nails

do your makeup

take a shower or long bath

shave your legs

do a face mask

write a story or in your journal

work on an art project

read a book

make cute diy gifts for your loved ones

organize your closet

go for a walk or run

try on/plan outfits

take a nap

go shopping

run errands

just get out of the house and away from the kitchen

call up a friend

volunteer

binge prevention tips:

tell someone! having a support system can do wonders for your recovery. they can hold you accountable and encourage you.

get rid of all trigger foods. seriously, go through your kitchen and throw out everything you have the tendency to binge on. i used to binge on ice cream every single day until i tossed it out. chocolate, cereal, peanut butter, whatever your vice is… say goodbye. “if it’s there, you’ll eat it.”

tip #1 can be tough if you don’t live alone. opening up to your roommates about your problem can really help them understand the seriousness of it. one thing you can do is keep all of your food in a separate area, and train yourself to eat only from your own stash. in binge eating disorder recovery, i kept my food in an entirely different room from the kitchen (thanks, minifridge) and it helped me so much!

also, don’t buy food products you’ve binged on before. never go to the grocery store hungry, because you’ll be more likely to fill your cart with things that aren’t great for you (or your binging).

crash dieting often results in the development of binge eating. don’t restrict your calories too much if your goal is sustainable fat loss. furthermore, you’re gonna need energy to get through your workouts!

if the urge to eat is strong, make food that requires cooking/baking. i usually toss a sweet potato or some into the oven because it’ll take an hour or so to be ready to eat. by then, the urge to binge has often subsided.

always stock up on high volume foods, like vegetables. one of my favorite binge prevention techniques is to buy giant bags of veggies that i can just throw in the microwave. they’re huge- for a very small amount of calories, so if i eat a lot, it’s totally okay. (i like the ones from greengiant.)

meal prep meal prep meal prep! make your meals beforehand (in cute lil containers if you like) and this can help you stay on track. if you want to take it a step further, you can even buy the ingredients you need day-by-day to completely eliminate any chance of binging. (although this means going to the grocery store every day.)

set alarms for when you eat your meals. i just use an app on my phone for this. it helps because when i get a craving i am able to tell myself, just a little while longer until the next alarm and then i can eat.

include plenty of protein and fiber in your diet. they help keep you full! but it’s also important that your diet includes carbs and fats as well. a lack of any nutrient can cause your brain to send signals to your body that you need to eat. besides, you need all of these things to function!

don’t completely deprive yourself of any food you love. moderation is key.

get proper sleep! you should aim for around 9 hours of sleep per night. not getting enough sleep is linked to overeating, a slowed metabolism, and an increase in appetite.

never skip breakfast! every time i skip breakfast i always end up eating way too much later in the day.

and of course… stay hydrated. 💧

how to make an anti-binge box:

it’s a good idea to keep a stash of helpful items somewhere in the house. i keep mine in my room because i tend to binge at night. here’s some ideas for what to put in your anti-binge box.

gum/mints

bottled water

flavored sparkling water (good for soda cravings).

tea bags

jump rope, dumbbells, or other exercise equipment that you can grab and go

motivational quotes/pictures

journal

low calorie snacks like rice cakes, applesauce, jello, etc. (sometimes the act of chewing/eating will help ease the urge to binge.)

books

important phone numbers in case you need to call someone to help

intermittent fasting for binge prevention:

ah, intermittent fasting… it’s all the rage these days. normally i would roll my eyes at such diet trends, but this is what finally helped me get over my binge cycle!

i use the 16:8 fasting method, which in my opinion is the most effective for binge prevention. you have an 8-hour eating window in which you have all of your meals, and then you don’t eat for 16 hours.

my eating window is from 8am to 4pm, because i am more likely to binge in the evenings. even if i start to compulsively overeat during the day, i am able to stop at 4pm because it’s become a habit to do so.

your personal eating window can be whenever you want it to be, but i highly recommend the majority of your fasting to be during sleep.

intermittent fasting has several other benefits, but it can also cause health issues for some individuals. you should do your own research before determining whether or not intermittent fasting is for you.

what to do after a binge:

don’t panic. it takes 3500 calories over your basal metabolic rate to gain one pound. most people burn around 2000 each day, so if you binged on 4000 calories today, you won’t gain even half a pound! remember this if you step on the scale and it says you’ve gained several pounds overnight. i promise that you have not- the weight gain comes from water retention, food, and waste.

step away from the kitchen. go to a room where you can calm down and recuperate. your bedroom, a cozy den perhaps. just get away from the source of your distress.

find some way to relax. take a shower or soothing bath, watch an episode of your favorite tv show, curl up with a good book, exercise if you feel up to it.

if you are having a panic attack, move to a space where you will be less likely to hurt yourself. make sure there are no sharp things around. then just float along with the panic attack until it subsides; recognize that you are not dying and that this panic attack cannot hurt you, and just roll with it. ride the wave until it’s over instead of fighting it. (and call someone to be with you if you can.)

don’t try to starve yourself the next day, as this will likely only lead to another binge. trust me when i say that binge-starve cycles are the worst. besides, one single binge will barely impact your weight. just accept that it happened and move on.

dealing with the physical pain:

binge eating can be painful and very uncomfortable. it may feel like you’re about to burst. here are a few of my tips, researched and learned from experience, to help with the bloating and other physical symptoms that might occur after a binge.

drink tea. peppermint tea is excellent for soothing a bloated belly, but all teas have benefits. though i would suggest that you avoid caffeine right now, as it can make your anxiety worse.

try a heating pad. this can help with the pain.

sit still, close your eyes. lie down and allow your body to recover from the shock it has just received.

take a hot bath or a warm shower. relax, baby.

drink water. but don’t drink too much too quickly, or you might get nauseated.

do not force yourself to throw up (purge) because binging is already a shock to your body. vomiting is even more of a shock. you can do a lot of damage by purging, and it can be really hard to stop once you start. just don’t do it.

try to do some light yoga/stretching if you can, but don’t do strenuous exercise yet. allow your body to digest the food.

go to sleep. hit the reset button and start fresh tomorrow. sleeping is great for settling your stomach and healing your body. 

treatment options:

often times, binge eating is triggered by an emotion or stress. consider talking to a therapist who can give you strategies to combat this. therapy can help you get down to the root of the problem and find out what’s causing that stress. compulsive eating can also be helped with therapy.

work with a dietician or nutritionist. sometimes when another person plans out your foods and meals, it can help you stay on top of things. it can be good motivation too.

if things are really bad, consider seeing a psychiatrist who will prescribe you meds to help you stop binging. some meds can help with impulse control and appetite. it’s totally ok if you need prescriptions to help you out… there’s no shame in taking medicine!

list of international suicide hotlines

binge eating disorder association

national eating disorders association

eating disorder hope

national eating disorders hotline (1-800-931-2237)

national suicide prevention hotline (1-800-273-8255)

chat with a crisis counselor (Text 741-741)

ask me anything | my answered asks

if you’re in eating disorder recovery, you may find that you’ve started binging. relax, breathe, and go with the flow. i know that it’s not fun and it’s emotionally stressful, but your body is very smart and will do anything it takes to keep you alive. it needs nourishment. it needs fuel. and chances are, you need to gain some weight before you’re healthy. your body will know when it’s time to stop eating so much. right now it’s trying to get as much food as it can, because it doesn’t know when it’ll be starved again. when you reach a healthy weight/replenish nutrients you’ve been lacking, you will stop binging. trust me… i’ve been through it myself. it is not forever.

and if you’re in recovery, try to keep in mind how much your body is healing right now. (if you’re not recovering, you’re dying.) also, your metabolism is returning to normal- which is pretty cool!

binge eating is not your fault. it’s an actual disorder and that means that it’s an illness. you are not a failure or a loser, you are suffering and your pain is very real. what you’re going through is valid. you are such a badass for getting out of bed each day. 

i remember feeling so hopeless during the worst of my binge eating. i thought that it would never end and i would never stop gaining weight. i didn’t want to live anymore. fast forward six months later and i’ve never been happier. please stick around kiddo, cuz’ life really does get so much better. 

it doesn’t matter if you don’t think you’re sick enough. you deserve treatment, you deserve help and a beautiful life. you’ve got this! stay strong my lil warrior. ❤

The saddest moment is going to self harm and realising you have to look for clean skin to cut...

waking up to stars on the ceiling and bruises on pale skin and battered feet on & off the scale and almonds in ziploc baggies and bite marks on fingers and hair down the drain and measuring crunches by the spots left on the spine and enough water to drown organs and eating an apple with a knife and fork and battered feet on & off the scale and desperate hands clutching ribs and standing up & the world goes dark and carrying an emergency rice cake in your purse for weak spells and enough green tea to drown organs and how many calories are in toothpaste and whatever nail polish color covers yellow and battered feet on & off the scale and is today the day my heart gives out and how many calories do you burn when you sneeze and pillows squeezed between thighs and waking up in a new body everyday and fingers clasped around wrists and notebooks filled with numbers and purple crescents below the eyes and accidentally knocking your elbow on your hip bone and being afraid of your own reflection and i’m not hungry or i already ate or i’ll eat later or i don’t feel well and oxygen that tastes like splenda and battered feet on & off the scale