It's Like I Had One Job... I Had One Job... And I Screwed It Up. I Blew It. And For That, I'm Sorry.

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Mutuals who I don't know very personally yet I am holding a sugarcube out in my hand in the hopes that you will approach me like the noble horse

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guys i love alexsandr kallus

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Ou i was just talking to someone about this so the thoughts r fresh

(Also ignore any typos, if u see something spelled wrong NO YOU DIDNT)

I think that, for me personally (not dogging on any HCs that arent this, headcannon whatever floats your boat!!), their relationship would be healthiest if it kind of happened on accident

And im not talking the "heat of the moment, we just stumbled into bed together and woah now we're in love" type of thing, I'm talking the kind of slowburn in which they very slowly over the course of Yavin to Hoth, end up falling into this cycle of domesticity without even realizing it

I think that they would be, understandably, weird and akward around each other on Yavin. They are both well aware of their history, and they dont know how to approach it now that they're working on the same side.

But if Kallus just KEEPS getting assigned to the Ghost Crew for missions, Zeb would be forced to see all the ways in which Kallus is changing as he slowly breaks down his Imp persona. From that point I think that it would be a lot easier for them to become friends.

But even after they become friends, i dont think there would be feeling there yet, because heres the thing: it would take TIME for Zeb to truly process in order to forgive and befriend Kallus, and it would take even more time for Kallus to transform into a person that Zeb could fall in LOVE with. And on the Kallus side of things, he is working through deconstructing every aspect of who he has been for the past 18 years whilst doing his darndest to contribute to the Rebellion. I personally think that he's be both far too busy and far too emotionally immature to even foster those feelings for Zeb in the first place.

Either way, post Lothal Liberation, I think they'd become closer as Kallus helps out around the Ghost in the ways he can while Sabine, Hera, and Zeb struggle through their grief. I think that this era would be a time when Zeb would have to be a real rock and place of comfort for Sabine and Hera, and even though he knows that they are equally there for him, Sabine is still young and shouldnt have to deal with more grief than she already is, and Hera? She just lost her psudo-husband and is now finding how that shes PREGNANT WITH KANANS CHILD???? WHIKST LEADING A REBELLION??? Thats emotionally DEVASTATING, Zebs not going to cry on her shoulder, she has enough going on. And I mean, theres Rex, but he's kind of removed from it all-- he's seen so many of his brothers die in combat that Kanan and Ezra (although he's not dead, just lost) were not the first and he knows that they will not be the last.

So that leaves Kallus, who, at this point in their friendship, I think would be very willing to be a shoulder for Zeb to cry on. And I think that this emotional vulnerability would kind of cement their friendship as something very real and very close.

After the destruction of the Death Star, the Rebellion moves to Mako-Ta docking station, and as far as housing recruits goes, theyre somewhat limited to the large transports that they have in their possesion, which-- compared to the empire-- is not a lot. Also, atp, the Rebellion is getting a MASSIIVEEEEE surge of new recruits, the Destruction of the Death Star let the people of the galaxy know that the Rebellion had a chance, and that probably inspired a lot of people to join.

All this to say, freeing up space on those cruisers by bunking people together in groups of 3-4 OR on ships with crews, would be of utmost priority.

So... if Kallus is already working closely with the Ghost Crew... he LITERALLY helped LIBERATE LOTHAL.... He and Sabine get along, but WAY MORE IMPORTANTLY, he and ZEB arent just friends, theyre BEST friends............. why would Hera not offer him a spot on the Ghost if those cruisers NEED THE SPACE.....????

So begins-- in my brain-- the start of the "Kallus is apart of the Ghost Crew" agenda, and its during this era that Kallus and Zeb begin the slow slide into domesticity.

Because heres the thing, they are both VERY smart, and if they really thought about it at this point in time, they would probably both agree that a relationship between them would have A LOT of potential for getting messy quick and taking a nose dive south.

But if they dont really think about it.... and if they end up idk... spending their evenings together plahing holochess, or making a cup of caf for one another in the morning, or if they end up kind of just falling asleep on one another during family movie night-- not because they WANT a relationship, but just because they care so deeply about one another, even if they dont have a label for what that caring means, or what it even is, or WHY it even is, yk?

And I think that, eventually, they'd reach a point (probably during the Hoth era or shortly after) where Hera would tell them that they need to really think about what was happening in between them. Hera made the mistake of not saying anything because she thought that she and Kanan would have more time. She thought that being in a war was a reason NOT to acknowledge things for what they were. She wouldn't want these two to make that same mistake.

And from there I think that they'd talk about it. And it would be kinda awkard, and theyre sort of worried about the whole thing, but if they're already in a dynamic where theyre basically already ACCIDENTALLY together???? Its kind of like... "well, fuck it, we're already in it, lets see what happens ig. If we ended up in a relationship accidentally, idk maybe we could do it on purpose"

Anyways thats just a whole lot of yapping all to say that I think that they end up accidentally being the Kanera of Hoth and that their relationship is far more realistic, and healthy, if its more of a slowburn yk?

Actually, I'm so feral over the fact that Zeb and Kallus are very much implied to be slow burn. Through S4 we don't get a lot of implication of them being particularly close 'till the epilogue and in the one comic with Kallus that takes place post defection Zeb isn't mentioned. They don't leave for Lira San 'til the war ended - approximately five years after the liberation of Lothal. This, to me at least, implies that while Zeb and Kallus built a sense of common ground and respect, it wasn't an instant attraction that immediately developed into more. It most likely took years for them to develop the groundwork for a friendship and it's possible that they hadn't even gotten together yet by the time they made it to Lira San. Honestly I think it's kind of cute to think that they worked hard to establish a friendship and even so it didn't happen 'til Zeb initiated it quite a while after Kallus defected, only doing so after seeing how much Kallus had changed and made an effort to do better and help people.

I honestly think feelings might've developed between them earlier than either of them were ready for. Kallus definitely wouldn't want to push those feelings onto Zeb unprompted and only admit to them if Zeb was to bring it up, but I think initially Kallus would definitely feel uncomfortable with the idea and I definitely think Zeb would agree with him on those feelings and they'd agree to just remain friends for the time being.

I could definitely imagine Lira San being the turning point in their relationship. While Kallus has obviously grown to be a better person there was definitely still a subconscious part of Zeb that didn't entirely trust him to be truly accepting of all Lasats - what if Zeb was just an exception? Seeing Kallus show respect, repentance and love towards the people and culture of Lira San might be the piece of closure Zeb didn't realize he needed. Likewise, Kallus needed to face the people and culture he almost destroyed. He needed to truly understand the extent of the damage he had caused, but not just to feel guilt, but to learn to have a greater appreciation and love for the people he once hated.

I think the implication of the epilogue is that Zeb didn't really tell Kallus about Lira San 'til the war was over. Which implicates that it took them a long while to built up that level of trust - understandably so

And idk, it kinda makes me love them more? Like their love didn't just happen outside of their control. It was a conscious choice and required huge efforts from both of them

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