DAY 25

It’s easier to hide it when you do weightlifting lmao People will just assume that you got l3@ner by working out to see your muscles and it’s more conventionally acceptable than having an 3d.. I got the perfect excuse now hehe

OMG I was ⭐ing so I made a huge meal (bigger than the one of today episode) and I couldn’t even start it! I stopped myself, listening to what my body was telling me instead of the craving! I’m really proud because if I haven’t listened I think I would have felt so sick

TW: fck3d up 3d thoughs

Every single month, when the cramps hit, I dream about the early menopause I can create with 4n4 and I whisper “maybe next month I’ll be s!ck enough”

This is not very “mentally stable” of me

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🦎

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ Salmon wrap Snack~ 1 ice tea + 1 ice Americano + 2 lowc@l lychee candy Dinner~ Japanese Soba salad and 2 pcs of tofu filled with meat + 1 serving of shirataki + 2 apples and 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

Love the people around me, they gave those 2 pcs of tofu out of nowhere, it was delicious 🌺They are so nice <333

I almost fck up my day with a craving but I found apples and lowc@l ice cream so it’s okay I’m at my limit tho

Pleeeeeease

a nonchalant man is NOT for me

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🌱

Breakfast~ 2 ice Americano + Greek yogurt with corn and 1 egg + soya milk Snack~ spicy cheesy sausage + Egg salad wraps Lunch~ scrambled eggs with mushrooms sauce on focaccia and 1 chicken sausage + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ 1 gado-gado with kerupuk

Total:~ 1500-1600

The day I leave this app is the day I get better hahaha

..not gonna happen soon tho

I’m entering a weird mode when I need someone to 3@t with either way I would just skip it until dinner time

I basically forcing føød in my bødy right now just to keep it functional and I’m exhausted because it’s the finals and I’m really active + I don’t wanna g@!n all the w3!ght back so I have to be extra careful to 3@t “enough” from now on

I have mixed feelings about the stage that I’m in right now lmao

I feel bad about what I @te.. Not because I feel stuff or hate my bødy but just cause I @te

I feel light and comfortable but just the fact that I took the liberty of having slightly more than what I was supposed to does not feel good at all

Trying to convince my dumb brain right now that I did not eat more than usual, just not on the same time but it not willing to understand apparently

Løøs!ng w3!ght without løøs!ng muscle mass feels different