Tbh Everytime I See A Post Here Or On Your Personal Blog, I Breath A Little Sigh Of Relief. Please Take

Just in case you don't see me posting any art for awhile...or anything for that matter...

Everything in my life has been going to utter shit, I used to think things were bad before... Anyways, I was barely out of a mental hospital and almost right away sent to jail, I have a restraining order against me right now, so I am freaked the heck out, I got bonded out and I might end up in jail for 3-6 months if I mess up by accident. I'm scared and stressed and my dad isn't helping any at all with his remarks, the police, and everything. Apparently as long as me and my husband are 100 feet apart and don't communicate in ANY way, it should be fine, but I'm still worried since I was the one the police pressed charges against, we live in the same home but he said he would leave apparently...SO I HOPE I am safe, jail where I am is horrible. the cell was disgusting, the toilet had poop on the seat, nothing was sanitary, I was sick in multiple ways, body in pain, wearing a suit that would injure me, not allowed underwear even though it was "that time of the month" I'm allergic to gluten and ALL they would feed me was bread, and gluten filled things and nasty bologna, I wasn't even allowed a pencil, skin conditions acting up, very cold, I felt like shit. All because of an involuntary impulse of these stupid tics I can't control. As well as my husband never meant for any of this to happen....at that shitty timing. I feel horrible, I can finally sleep but, I can't, I can't draw, I can't watch videos, I can't do anything because I feel everything I am doing is wrong. Things keep getting worse, I want it all to stop, then my dad keeps provoking me, threatening me, I can't stop crying...I hate my life and I have every right to, and every right to complain.

Dear Tumblr,

All those posts you see of young artists charging $3, $6, $10 for a drawing because they need help? That’s fucking exploitation, and fuck you if you think it’s reasonable or a “good deal" to pay nickels and dimes to squeeze a full-color original drawing out of some talented, hardworking kid because things are tight, and they can’t afford their textbooks. Or food. They sure as hell can’t afford to make you art for $6.

Instead, stop. And ask them where you can donate. If you can afford a $6 drawing, then you can afford to spend $6 simply to help someone. You don’t need internal organs as payment.

Don’t allow young artists to be exploited.

I really want to possibly make charms or one of those stands. I just can't think of a design, I want to implement a lot. They are going to be Final Fantasy XV and Steven Universe. Maybe not all at once though. I want to make a Xenoblade X one as well...but I dunno. Something dynamic, more static, I'm not sure.

While painting Sans I painted in this reference doodle of the gaster blaster.

Winners Cards

Im so sad right now, my art isnt showing up in any tags...i kept trying to fix it through the day but nothing. So much work put into things for no reason as usual. Well, also my laptop is nearly dead, well maybe not dead, just close to being wiped clean and losing all my stuff.

I probably won't be uploading many drawings at all, or any in general (unless it's from a Sketchbook and/or has to do with sculpture concepts.) I'm not satisfied with my art, not with my speed mainly, or with how I go about things. I'm just going to be doing sculpts and stuff for awhile as it has been the past few months c: I won't lie, I feel highly discouraged when it comes to drawing, for many reasons. Oh, also my computer isn't doing so well (it's internal fan doesn't work as well as our USB fans died so I can't be on the computer longer than five minutes without heating up badly and freezing badly.)

Vent blog link.....

I haven’t done this in a few years but I finally have a sort of price list together, I’m just doing bust-shots for now, but If you are looking for anything else, please ask, I don’t mind discussing it. c:

(this is just where you get the digital files, no physical copy.)

I will draw: people, armor, robo/mechs, anthro, creatures. Payment required before I start, through paypal, (I send invoice first) any questions, just ask.

I won’t draw: ask for now.

I desperately need money, I can’t afford food (I have celiac disease), barely bills and rent as well as financial abuse from our roommate(my dad), I cannot work, I also cannot get ssi and such so stuck in an awkward place. My husband and I are forced to move in a month and a half but have no money saved and am going to lose most of my things and my cats, my husband is so stressed because of my dad and my lack of work that he is threatening to break the lease because we have no food or money for food, he doesn’t get paid until next thursday, I am unable to leave the house by myself without having severe breakdowns and he always gets off too late to do anything else himself. (I am literally stuck in this situation with no other options I’M capable of doing. But I have always planned on selling my art, I just need to do what I can right now) I’ll make a better price list eventually that is more than jist bustshots, I just want to be able to do as much as I can in a timely matter for both sides while testing the waters after all these years If that makes sense.

Thank you so much if you read this.

(Posting so much later then intended)