When I'm Done With Sans, I DO Want To Make More Characters But The Whole Thing Is Time Consuming And

I am going to attempt to sculpt Max and Chloe from Life is Strange. c8 I am posting this because I know if I never put it down in text I won't do it or something.

It bothers me that other random people think you are a failure for choosing not to go to college. Especially when you yourself KNOW you don't need to go. Especially when tons of teachers have told you privately that "college is for those who need to learn or just to get the 'official' title to something, especially when it comes to being an artist" They told me it was a waste of MY time and money.

Why must I be so slow when it comes to drawing :c

Just in case you don't see me posting any art for awhile...or anything for that matter...

Everything in my life has been going to utter shit, I used to think things were bad before... Anyways, I was barely out of a mental hospital and almost right away sent to jail, I have a restraining order against me right now, so I am freaked the heck out, I got bonded out and I might end up in jail for 3-6 months if I mess up by accident. I'm scared and stressed and my dad isn't helping any at all with his remarks, the police, and everything. Apparently as long as me and my husband are 100 feet apart and don't communicate in ANY way, it should be fine, but I'm still worried since I was the one the police pressed charges against, we live in the same home but he said he would leave apparently...SO I HOPE I am safe, jail where I am is horrible. the cell was disgusting, the toilet had poop on the seat, nothing was sanitary, I was sick in multiple ways, body in pain, wearing a suit that would injure me, not allowed underwear even though it was "that time of the month" I'm allergic to gluten and ALL they would feed me was bread, and gluten filled things and nasty bologna, I wasn't even allowed a pencil, skin conditions acting up, very cold, I felt like shit. All because of an involuntary impulse of these stupid tics I can't control. As well as my husband never meant for any of this to happen....at that shitty timing. I feel horrible, I can finally sleep but, I can't, I can't draw, I can't watch videos, I can't do anything because I feel everything I am doing is wrong. Things keep getting worse, I want it all to stop, then my dad keeps provoking me, threatening me, I can't stop crying...I hate my life and I have every right to, and every right to complain.

Other older progress pics of the Xenoblade X pic I'm working on, last one prob. until it is finished c: Let me just say Elma has such a complicated outfit but I love it. I would say this was at the 30% mark of being made?

Design sketch thing of virus!cry ._.  this is a reference thingy for another thing being worked on~

I hate when my mind/hands keep wanting to draw a certain way, a certain style and I am just like "efff no, stop it. why, I don't like that style" so I keep trying to force myself to not draw that way, still ends up happening, maybe I should just give in to it ;_;

Still in an art block, so that kinda sucks. Nothing I wanna draw anymore~ Ended up playing Borderlands for the first time with my person, finished the game but it glitches so we can't play co-op anymore so we deleted the game and gonna start all over after installing again.

Finally uploading *something*... I love Xenoblade X, it has everything I can possibly love in it. I have been working on this picture far too long. Few months? (started to actually save progress pics since I realized it may be beneficial for many reasons, such as files corrupting, haha.) I am way farther ahead than this but realized that It takes me so long to get noticeable progress so I will show things closer to when I am actually semi complete. (it looks nothing like these so far, if you seen all the wips it is such a weird mess) I will most definitely be drawing more of this game 83

SO.....I’m homeless now, well our landlord just kicked us out today, we have no way to pack anything, nowhere to go, three cats, no money I’m super sick right now and can’t even walk around the house without wanting to fall over...