I Made Opal A Long, Long Time Ago But Was Just Too Heavily Discouraged To Finish It Due To Breakage From

Finally uploading something after a million years. —– Another lapis Lazuli c: This was a commission. She is rather tiny compared to the others so far. (Four inches including base) I wanted do make the Chille Tid version of her. c: —– (I made this awhile ago but wanted to wait until this was in the owners hands but they gave me permission to post before that. 8D) ~Reblog if possible, it means a lot.~

more bad things happening 8D oh what a joy it is, my bank card is missing, I never lose it, just checked to see mail from it, see a negative balance...someone has my card....ALL BECAUSE OF THESE EVENTS....I hate it....why....

Help your invisible artists!

Liking and Rebloging stuff helps tons, but how can you do that if you aren’t seeing it in your searches? I don’t think a lot of people do this, so I thought I’d spread it around a little. Please signal boost! A lot of artists need your help to be seen, especially on the huge community of tumblr.

This might be random but I think I might just make Teepo from Tales of Xillia with the remainder of my sculpey. (I only have enough for something small with little detail sculpting wise.) I kinda wanna do it to see how much i've improved since my last one. I made him awhile back and his tail broke off, I was originally just going to replace his tail but realized "why not just make a new displayable one?

Sorry for all the text filled bad stuff lately, this is just another one of those.

So, I have a huge phobia of being around males in general. (past traumatic events, etc.) My husband has a thing for mocking me continuously in the future with past things I said to him in a serious manner...(like him saying “she was asking for it” when he was trying to do something bad to a friend of mine without either of our permission vocally, and while we were both drunk, no matter how much we’d try to argue his logic, he sticks to what he thinks...this is a different matter so it isn’t important in the context of what I am posting about, but it’s just to give where he was coming at from this.) I tell him that I don’t want people just walking into my private space without MY permission, that he should go out if someone wants him. He tells me I’m being rude and should stop being so...(well I forgot what he actually said but around the same lines of when he calls me mean, evil, etc.) I say “I don’t like being around guys..” husband says “that’s sexist” in a very condescending tone. I vocalize to him SO MUCH that I get a panic attack when there are other guys around, the more...the more panicky, or also depending on the personality could escalate it, sadly this person is a roommate who I though we would be gone from since we are out of a home but nope...but this guy is just like the person who helped put this fear upon me... So I don’t get why he says this when I tell him constantly whenever he would have friends around too that I can’t go in there, I can’t even say “hey i need you for a minute” or anything, that’s how bad it is, but nope....he just tells me to get over it or it’s irrational, etc. it’s worse that this guy talks badly about me (though husband denies it even though I know some of the acronyms the guys used in front of me and heard some of the things passing by his room) he keeps my husband from me, enables his drinking and everything, this guy buys tall cans of beer everyday (like 10 or so of them a day) I preferred our last roomate, he couldn’t pay for a second month but at least I knew the person decently and even if I was still uncomfortable when alone with the guy(like husband at work, so if he had to ask me for something I’d freak out knowing I’d have to communicate by myself) I could still talk and feel okay with their presence. just all this...just is too much.

I can’t wait to see what you create, the backgrounds I’ve seen from you so far I  think are really awesome :D  Thank you so much, that means a lot~ c:

krystami replied to your post “soo-da replied to your photoset “Who’s a lazy bag o’ bones who…”

Backgrounds get so fun to make, super relaxing to do compared to other things sometimes~

All right! That’s it! The final straw! I am determined to get better at backgrounds now, thanks to you guys, I hope ur happy (I am happy, at least, I want to be as amazing as all of you, you guys are definitely my #1 inspiration).

Also,  I don’t know if I’ve ever said this but your art is wonderful, and your sculptures are so amazing, I love them, keep on doing to cool stuff! <3

I feel so overwhelmed in many different ways right now ;-;  at that I was working on another sculpture but I think I made it way too big, it’s gonna use all my clay and I’m not sure it’s worth it, I mean, it will look good maybe but it’s just all my clay :( I even tried bulking it out as much as I can without it breaking but...idk

Tumblr glitched and somehow posted one photoset four times on mobile and kept saying it was having trouble? Weird but I deleted the other ones.

Gift for my person, though he told me to make it without boobs after I already done them, so I have another version with them covered (cause he wants to hang it on his locker at work.) This took on and off for maybe a year, due to problems actually getting me to be happy with anything about it. Well, now I can work on anything I want now =v= now if I could actually get an idea....urgh. other version is here -> http://krystami.deviantart.com/art/fem-kuja-513897429 (not sure if nsfw but still gonna put it as so...idk, unless someone tells me otherwise.)

What type of art do people want to see? (I guess from me) (Edit: this was not meant to be a rambling vent post but turned into one.) I just dont know how to get out there on any website. I feel like a ghost who talks to everyone but nobody hears or sees me. I want to just give up, give up on everything not just art anymore. Or maybe I have that backwards, I always wanted to give up on everything but art. I see no point, it is my only skill and positive trait yet it isnt good enough. I am literally a starving artist. I cant get work. I cant do anything. This isnt a tumblr thing, there is obviously something wrong with me if I have been trying for over a decade and still havent gotten anywhere. I swear i spend more time and have more time that 97%of people. But i waste it all on art that gets me nowhere, not financially or socially. And no art doesnt help me for me, not anymore,my goal since a child was to become a paid artist. Imagine a kid who spent their whole life, extracurricular activities, anything possible in anyway their whole life trying to become a doctor, cook, athlete...and just it getting ripped from under them. I fake reality you thought would come true but you dont qualify and instead of being on the team or something you end up being an unpaid volunteer as a waterboy or something like that, or expected to cater for free, for "exposure" it feels like shit and it is. I already given up, im just a zombie with no purpose who just goes off of what feels most natural and intuitive.