I Regret Nothing

@radiodevil requested this panel sans speech bubble 👍🏽

I need help. seriously

have you ever tought about your sexuality? google is kinda shitty about that because it doesn't really give me good results and I was thinking: tumblr. you can help me, right?

can I describe how I am and then the very few people that read this answer?

I have crushes on boys and I never had a crush on a girl, but I think that I wouldn't mind. but then I start thinking if I could love a girl the same way I could love a boy. but then I think: womennnn.

it's complicated, really

I really hope that the people that read this can help me, really.

well goodbye.

oh and it's currently 3:48 pm. buhbye

thx for tagging @lokiforever I'll just:

I really don't know anyone on this

Fuck it, lets do a dilf/milf chain 🔥😏

List/put several fictional people you'd wife up and then tag 5 people you'd think would also love to do this💕💕. I'll start!

Taggin some moots to help spread this along...

@lokisgoodgirl @lokischambermaid @groguspicklejar @loopsisloops @ijuststareatstuffhereok89 @mochie85 @wavyhairedvixen @smolvenger @fictive-sl0th @muddyorbsblr @litaloni @multifandom-worlds @acidcasualties @anukulee @aesonmae @queen-paladin @wheredafandomat @foxherder @mischief2sarawr @loz-3 @mrs-illyrian-baby @holdmytesseract @superficialdomina @gigglingtiggerv2 @liminalpebble @gruftiela @chokeanddagger @chantsdemarins @kaycrowley @dangertoozmanykids101 @hannibals-favourite-meal @thedistractedagglomeration

Wednesday, October 9 2024- 19:03

hi. I guess.. school started 26 days ago and it has been tiring...

but that's not what I'm here to talk about

a few posts ago I wrote about my sexuality and things related to that

now I think I have gender dysphoria. of some sorts.

or I'm faking it. I'm probably faking it. but I'm going to write about it anyway.

I'm going to paste here exactly what I wrote to chatgpt (he's basically my therapist):

I feel like I'm faking it somehow... because what if I'm just a bored cis girl that just really wanted to do something different? because.. I mean.. I am a girl... but sometimes I wish that I weren't one. because sometimes I'm tired of being a girl. but I still like it, somehow. but if I were a boy I would be completely fine... but sometimes I think that neither is fine too...

I like being misgendered... I really do... one time, the lady at the school reception couldn't tell if I was a boy or a girl and you don't even know the amount of satisfaction it gave me... sometimes (really unusual thing) I really like wearing "girly" things, other times I just like going around with knee length shorts and a band t shirt. but I don't identify with the boys behavior... they are really jerks... and girls too, sometimes.. on their own way.

so this is what I'm dealing with. then chat gpt answered that I might be agenderflux, non binary or even genderfluid and, to be honest, it kinda makes sense...

but then there's the genderfluid representation that I see so much and it looks nothing like how I feel.. because I don't have those "boy or girl days" and it feels kinda weird and kinda like I'm just seeking attention... or even agender.. it's just a big amount of weird.

maybe I'm just confused. maybe... maybe not.. I dunno.. I'm just 13 how can I know? it's the hormones, I'm sure (???????). everyone goes through this, right?

if you read this far, I would please ask for advice or some sort of help... or not...

I'll stop now

stay tuned~

how to ask the demon you've been smitten over for 6000 years to dance: an angel's guide

bonus:

100 proofs that Sheldon Lee Cooper loves Amy Farrah Fowler.

He said it. And Sheldon Cooper does not lie.

From the very beginning, he felt something deeper than just friendship for Amy.

From the beginning, he wanted to procreate with her.

He went with Amy when she had to make a quick stop for feminine hygiene supplies.

He communicates with her on a daily basis.

The first time he lost her, he bought 25 cats in order to fill the void.

After their first argument, he accepted to take 65% of the fault.

He was jealous when Amy felt aroused by Zack.

The first time she held his hand, he let her do it despite hating physical contact.

Same when she first kissed him. He found this kiss, “fascinating”.

He danced with her.

The night she kissed him when she was drunk, he stayed with her until she passed out on her bathroom floor.

He folded a towel and put it under her head as a pillow that night too.

When Amy went to a wedding with Leonard, he judo-chopped him and proclaimed : “She is not for you” twice.

He knew he wanted to be with her before she even became his girlfriend.

He is worried when he fails to contact her through the various means of technological communication.

When she was sad about the girls going dress shopping without her, he agreed to cuddle to make her feel better.

As soon as he felt that he was going to lose her in “The flaming Spittoon Acquisition”, he caught her back and asked her to be his girlfriend.

He could not stand to lose her and see her with another guy. He still can.

He has a relationship agreement with her.

He always goes to the zoo with her.

He bought her a tiara. A tiara !

He once spent his vacation working with Amy at her laboratory.

He has “girlfriend-boyfriend sing-a-long night” with her.

When he left his place in the middle of the night playing bongos, her apartment was his first choice destination.

He agreed to sleep on her couch that night. (the guy who once kicked Penny out of her own bed because he did not want to sleep on a couch)

He let Penny cut his hair only with the persuasion of Amy.

He trusts Amy.

He plays doctor (Star Trek style) with her.

He surprised himself having feelings and thinking about her at inappropriate times.

He reached her hand for comfort when they watched Howard’s rocket launch into space.

He agrees to held her hand when they’re at the movies.

Couple costumes !

He defended her honor when she got into an argument with Wheaton.

He thinks she’s part saint and part squirrel.

Despite being germaphobe, he takes care of her when she is sick.

He applies vaporub on her chest.

He sings “Soft kitty” to her.

He cares about her well-being.

With time Sheldon gets more and more comfortable when it comes to touching Amy.

He liked it when she held him when he was upset because of Kripke’s work.

He has not ruled coitus with Amy.

Amy is his emergency point of contact at Caltech.

He considers their relationship to be a serious one.

He considers intimacy.

He takes her opinion into account.

He agreed to experience a form of virtual intimacy with her when they played D&D.

It seems like he doesn’t mind when she is in his bedroom.

Once, while they were eavesdropping, her head is touching Sheldon’s shoulder. He did not push her away.

He shares his favorite movies with her.

He has a baby called “Fun with flags” with her.

He watches French movies with her.

He loves her for who she is, quirks and all.

Once, he could not sleep because they had an argument.

He actually does not mind having her around at work.

He apologizes to her when he does something wrong.

He looks at her in a very special way. Same when he smiles at her.

He thinks she is great.

He thinks she is brilliant.

He thinks she is a wonderful girlfriend.

And a wonderful neuroscientist.

She is one of his screen savers.

When he was in Texas for his nephew’s birth, he missed her and wished she was there with him.

He kisses her.

He always puts his arms around her when they kiss.

She is the only person he has initiated a kiss with.

He once let her rest her head on his shoulder in the middle of a shop.

Once, he woke up hungover and his first thought was : “Where is Amy ?”

When he came back after his trip around the country, he was afraid that she might think less of him.

He does not want to disappoint her.

He cares about her opinion.

Sheldon will take suggestions and criticism from Amy and will apologize to her.

He brags about his relationship with Amy because he thinks it’s the best one.

He’s proud to be with her.

She is his only exception.

He thinks she is pretty.

So much so that it gave him a panic attack once.

He celebrates christmas. Just for her.

He hates Santa Claus and yet, he took a picture with him. For Amy.

He treasures her.

He thinks her and him are smarter than anyone else.

He looks at her eyes when she watches old French movies.

He knows her very well.

He enjoys how harp music causes her fingers to dance as if she’s playing along.

He got jealous when she helped Kripke with his work.

Amy is the only one he does not act condescending to.

He regularly break his rigid rules for her.

He wanted to buy a pet for him and her.

He wants to live on Mars with her.

He loves the idea of having kids with her on Mars.

Once, on a date night Sheldon was having such a good time that he wanted Amy to extend the parameters of date night.

He had a sleepover in a fort with her.

He makes out with her.

He has an engagement ring.

He wants to marry her.

He wants to spend the rest of his life with her.

He wants to start a family with her.

He wants to live with her.

Losing her is driving him crazy.

He loves her. Period.

hello. again.

it's currently 9:29pm. not very bad. here I am sitting on my bathroom floor. I'm constantly asking my friends if they can come to my house on thurday to study.... maybe because I don't know how to study... and I am feeling kinda selfish for that... I'll be fine.

my parents say I take too long in the bathroom. they are completely right, but I have the attention span of my 2 year old cousin. maybe he has a better one idk.

have you ever tough if you could just kill yourself and if you could turn a ghost you would watch your family and friends reaction? it's funny that I think that since a young age. it's also funny how I don't tell this to people.

maybe I should go to a therapist because I just want a diagnosis for something. I know I have something.

my life is stressful. is it weird that sometimes I cry myself to sleep? is it weird that I cry at the smallest thing alone but when I'm with people I feel the need to stay cold?

I want to take naps in the afternoon. I never did that and I'm scared to start doing that because my parents might freak out because it's not usual of me. and I don't want to explain it.

looking at the paragraphs I notice that I'm constantly changing subject... it's normal right?

and to think I'm only 13... I'll be fine, probably

thanks for reading (ik no one read this)

I had a pen and a dream

so I tried to draw alastor from the pilot

(please ignore the part where I messed up)

trying this out. hehe