Khobnoom

moving far away to a sunny place.

you never loved me the way i do, and that hurts me

AN ILLUSION

A lover who wouldn' leave me crying,

who would treat me like a queen,

A lover who would never want to lose me,

A lover who would find beauty in my somber face,

A lover who would have my back at the end of a hard-pressed day,

A lover who would assure me that I'm enough and I'm worth it.

“There was a time this wasn’t toxic. There was a time you were my safe habour in a storm, the lighthouse leading me home. There was a time your arms kept me warm when my body was empty and cold. There was a time that your smile could dig me out of the grave I had dug for myself. Somewhere along the line you became the storm, you were cold and cruel and suddenly you were in the dirt digging with me. I don’t know where this went wrong, maybe there is only so much of my crazy that you could take, maybe you liked the idea of loving a sad girl but the reality never lived up to the expectation. As good as it was when you loved me, the feeling of an empty bed when you left was so gut-wrenching that I wish I never knew what it was to be loved by you.”

— Once upon a time…

How to Motivate Yourself

1. Visualize yourself succeeding. Imagine what you will be doing, how you will look, how others will be reacting or relating to you, how you will feel …

2. Break your main goal down into lots of smaller, more manageable pieces. Then, just do “the next thing”. Don’t get bogged down by everything you still have to do!

3. Remind yourself that every tiny bit of effort counts. It all adds up and makes a difference in the end.

4. Make a start – even if you’re just committing yourself to doing 10 minutes of something you don’t want to do. Often the hardest part is overcoming the initial feeling of dread or inertia.

5. Put on some of your favourite upbeat music. That can help to get your moving, and also change your mood.

6. Get a friend – who also wants to improve their motivation – to join in the commitment to see this project through. It’s easier when others are hanging in there with you – and you also keep each other more accountable.

Thinking about that moment you both gasp when it first goes in while staring into each others eyes

you deserve that perfect love that you think may not even exist ♡

“Even at your best you will never be right for the wrong person.”

— Unknown