If You Read This You Have A Crush On Me

i still remember how our first conversation started

The thought of him loving someone else. The thought of him falling in love, of finding a fortress in some other person. The thought of that person getting everything I ever wanted. Loving the only person I ever wanted to love. Getting the chances I’ll never be able to take. Every time I think of him I think of these. And I think of him everyday. I just get this sinking feeling now. And life seems like it’s going nowhere, it seems like it’ll be nothing without him. Like I’ll live the rest of my life wondering, looking for him, feeling like I’m missing something. Like I’ll never be fully, truly happy. Every time I think of him these thoughts kill me, and a part of me dies along with them.

c / how many times can you die inside?

“It’s okay if I’m not your favorite chapter you have written, but I hope you sometimes smile when you flip back to the pages I was still apart of.”

— Unknown

I never lost someone worth keeping

“I wait every year for summer, and it is usually good, but it is never as good as that summer I am always waiting for.”

— Martha Gellhorn, Selected Letters of Martha Gellhorn; in a letter to Hortense Flexner and Wyncie King

“I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for.”

— Alice Hoffman, Practical Magic

“At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.”

— Unknown