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“He destroyed everything. Everything I am, everything I was, everything I ever could be. I hate him. I hate myself.”

His dad tormented him. He was bullied and abused by the man he was supposed to look up to. The man who was meant to take on the role of his sons hero, was just a low life who presented no love or respect for his child. Billy only had himself. Himself to blame. Himself to thank. Himself to trust. Maybe I’m a horrible son, he thought. Maybe I pissed him off, he yelled. Maybe it’s because I’m me, he whispered. Billy was destroyed; and it was all because of him.

     **this quote is not from billy, or anyone. just a random thing i made up.**                                                         x     x     x

The Queens successor: part 1

Hey there, so the last few days I’ve been hella into the movie Epic from 2013 and so I ofc came up with a reader Oc idea that I’m going to write. It’s going to be 3 parts. Tbh I can’t really see Ronin with anyone other than Tara but I love the sunshine x grumpy trope. I ofc wanted it to be in the Epic universe so this is what I’ve come up with. Hope you enjoy ❣️

*authors note: hey there I just wanted to apologize in the case I’m not using the correct tags to post this. I saw a post of someone ranting saying it makes the person super angry when the post should be y/n but it’s not. If I knew that I wouldn’t have started writing it the way I did. Now on that note I am going to continue writing at least the rest of this story the way it’s already being written especially because it’s an Oc, but yea, I hope y’all enjoy it as much as possible especially if you’re someone who gets angry when things aren’t written as y/n. Thanks for your understanding.

Word count for pt 1: 3k+

Reader: Oc named Elizabeth but everyone calls her Liz, Poppy, Princess or Princess Poppy

She is Queen Tara’s successor. Queen Tara and Ronin have looked after her since she was a baby.

Love interest: a leaf man named Michael. He is the reader’s personal guard as well as her best friend. He is 2nd in command. Though he is a few years older than Poppy, they grew up together.

Reader and Michael have a relationship very similar to Tara and Ronin (sunshine x grumpy).

This is just a cute fic in the universe of Epic and how Tara and Ronin helped bring the couple together.

There will be quite a bit of parallels in this story compared to Tara and Ronin

17 years prior: Queen Tara’s POV

Today had been a long day. Boggins had become relentless leading to lots and lots of meetings with officials trying to come up with a plan to keep them from crossing into Moonhaven territory. Of course there was also dealing with my feelings for a certain leafman I’ve known for years. I want to be more than friends with him, but I don’t want to ruin the friendship we have. He can be so hard to read sometimes. It made nights like these feel lonely, gloomy; which fit right in with the way the weather was tonight. I was getting ready for bed, listening to the rain as it was really coming down out there.

Thunder began to rumble in when I heard it, clear as day; a baby in distress. I took a second to look out my window where I saw it. There on the palace steps was what looked to be a basket. I extended some vines to bring the basket to me, wanting to get it out of the rain. The sounds of a baby crying became louder as the basket became closer. I pulled the basket up in through the window where I saw the most beautiful baby. She didn’t look to be wearing regular clothes but had an English poppy flower covering her almost like a blanket. I picked the baby up to console her and dry her off a bit when I saw there was a note in the basket. It seemed almost like a cryptic, prophetic message, written in beautiful calligraphy. “She is the secret to future peace; when the time comes and you are deceased.” There was no sign as to who had wrote this. As I went to turn the paper over to look for any answers to who this little girl was, I gave myself a paper cut, hissing out in pain. As I was holding the infant who was now quiet in my arms, she reached out to hold my pointer finger (the finger that was cut). I was going to try to give her a different finger when a soft, warm light shined bright from the palm of her hand. Within seconds, the cut and any evidence there was a cut there before was gone, all healed up. It seemed clear as day this was my sign from Mother Nature. This baby girl was to be the next Queen of Moonhaven. As I was admiring her little features (a tiny button nose, beautiful blue eyes, fiery red hair) she started to whine and cry. I held her close as I rubbed her back speaking sweetly to her. “Alright my little princess; you’re safe with me. What’s the matter hmm? Are you cold?”.

A knock was heard on my door a guard calling out to me; “Your majesty is everything alright in there? I hear crying.” I opened the door to speak with the soldier, holding my little girl close trying to get her to calm down. I told the soldier “everything is alright. I need one of you to go get commander Ronin and bring him back here. Tell him it’s urgent and I need another one of you to find some baby clothes and blankets as well as any other supplies you can find at this hour of night. We will get the rest tomorrow.” The guard was quick to follow orders and go get Ronin. Another guard was quick to come back maybe 10 minutes later with a few baby onsies, diapers and a nice warm blanket. As she handed over the supplies she explained she had had a baby about 2 years ago and these were all extra supplies she had that I could have. I thanked her for her generosity and told her she would be rewarded greatly in the near future. She told me it was not problem but I insisted. She thanked me and then was dismissed to head back home to her own little one.

Less than 30 minutes from my order, Ronin came running to my room looking panicked. He always worries too much. “Your highness I came as soon as I could. What seems to be the problem” He crouched at my side holding my waist lightly inspecting me to check for any wounds and to analyze my face for any giveaways from my mood. I blushed slightly but tried not to say anything about him holding me otherwise he would stop and make distance between us. I told him jokingly “Ronin how many times have I told you just to call me Tara. Everything’s fine, but I wanted you to be the first to know about this. Come sit.” I said making room on the bed next to me. Since it was just the two of us he seemed to have let his guard down sitting next to me holding my hand rubbing his thumb on the back for comfort. “Sorry, what is it you need to tell me” he asked giving me all his attention. He barely even acknowledged that there was a basket sitting near me on the bed as well. “Well,” I started, “I was getting ready for bed when I heard a baby crying from outside.” I pulled the basket towards us showing him there was a baby sleeping sound in that basket. Ronin being the overthinker he is started asking every and any question making sure the baby was not a set up from the Boggins. I stopped him quickly and told him “she’s a sign of the next Queen. Look” I said handing him the note written. He analyzed it quietly before saying “I’ve never seen writing or paper like this before. What do you wish to do with her?” I ran my finger softly over babygirl’s face smiling telling him “it looks like I’ve finally gotten my wish to become a mom in this lifetime.”

I could feel him looking at me and when I went to look back at him, I could feel it. There were no words that needed to be said to feel his love for me. He brought his hand up to my cheek to hold my face lovingly. I could feel the pull we had towards each other, the space between us becoming smaller and smaller when my sweet girl started to whine, wanting to be held. We both pulled away slightly blush and giggling a little. I loved seeing him smile. It was one of the most beautiful things to see/experience. I went to pick her up when Ronin asked if he could hold her instead. I nodded smiling. He picked her up holding her like he was afraid she was gonna break. She looked at him curiously before wrapping her hand around his finger, yawning and curling in closer to him, getting comfy in his arms. She looked so small in his arms. If I could fall even more in love with this man, in that moment, I did. “She’s so small” he said, holding her close. “Do you know what you want to name her?” He asked. I rubbed her nose to her forehead lightly trying to put her back to sleep while she was in his arms and nodded. “I think I am going to name her Elizabeth, but Liz for short or Poppy for a nickname since she came with a big poppy flower.” He smiled looking down at her. “Hello then Poppy. It’s nice to meet you. I promise to always protect you and your mother no matter what it takes.”

He gave her a kiss on the forehead before we put her back in her basket making her comfy. He stood up to go after that and told me “I should get going since it seems we’ll have a busy day tomorrow.” Before he could leave I quickly grabbed his hand. “Stay, please.” My confidence seemed to dwindle a bit so I added “she seems to like you, just in case I need help with her in the night”. He nodded and agreed taking off his shoes before getting under the covers as Liz was put on the ground in her basket next to his side of the bed. I got under the covers and turned off the light. Right before sleep over took me, I felt an arm curl around my waist and bring me closer. I fell asleep, smiling, content with being in the arms of the one I love.

A few months later:

Elizabeth was secretly a blessing for Ronin and i’s relationship. Over the last few months, we had fallen into a routine of taking care of her, him staying over most nights. The kingdom was very happy to hear of the new successor and although many didn’t say anything, I could see and feel they were happy for whatever was going on between Ronin and I.

Things however almost took a turn for the worst about a week ago. We were sitting having tea after a meeting about new procedures for Boggins at the border and how many leafmen had said they felt something big was about to happen. Ronin was holding Liz making faces at her trying to get her to smile and giggle. I looked at him smiling and without even thinking I told him quietly but confidently “I love you”. He stopped what he was doing and asked me “what did you say?” I was scared to tell him but I figured it was now or never. I took a deep breath and started “ I said I love you. I knew I loved you before, I’ve known for years, but seeing you with Poppy, seeing how good you are with her, the closer we’ve gotten since she came into our lives, I can’t avoid my feelings for you anymore. I love you Ronin. I want to wake up next to you every morning and go to sleep next to you every night. I want to work alongside you until my last breath, I want to make you smile as much as I possibly can because to see you smile is to see one of the most beautiful things on earth.”

He looked shocked at my confession with a little bit of fear as well. He didn’t say anything just put Liz back in her stroller and told me “sorry, I forgot I have to go. Meeting with the other leafmen about a possible ambush.” He couldn’t even look me in the eyes. Had I been reading the situation all wrong? A few tears rolled down my cheeks as I was left with my daughter alone.

It’s been about a week and I’ve had very little interaction with Ronin and it’s not from lack of trying. Any chance he gets to avoid me or not talk about what happened a week ago he does. It’s taking a toll on Elizabeth. She’s been extra fussy. In the night sometimes it takes hours to get her to sleep because I know she just wants him to hold her. I may be her mother, but along the way, Ronin became her father and she’s 100% a daddy’s girl. After another night of little to no sleep because of not being able to calm Poppy, I finally snapped.

It was late morning when Ronin came in to debrief with me on the training they were going to be doing today closer to the border, which would leave the village and palace heavily under protected but I figured it was alright. There had been no attacks in months, today hopefully would be no different. I had been nodding off a little towards the end when Ronin tried to get my attention. “Is everything alright Queen Tara? You seem really tired.” Wonder what gave it away. Maybe the eyebags I had from multiple sleepless nights, or the constant yawning. “No everything is not alright” I said with a deep sigh, trying not to explode. I continued on “I know you are upset with me about last week but that doesn’t give you the right to take it out on Elizabeth. Whether you like it or not she has become attached to you these last few months. I have stayed up the last week every single night because she won’t stop crying. She cries until she’s exhausted and then falls asleep for maybe 30 minutes and then cries some more. She wants you. She wants her father.” “Queen Tara-“ he went to speak when Poppy started to cry from the other room. With tears about to overflow from my eyes I took a deep breath and told him “have a good training, stay safe” and then headed to find my princess. I picked her up holding her close to me. “Shh, I know honey, I know, mama’s here. I know I’m not the one you want but please try to calm down for me” I said while rubbing circles on her back walking around the room a bit. What I didn’t see was Ronin standing in the doorway, with guilt taking over his facial features before he left for training.

Ronin’s POV:

Hearing Tara tell me she loves me just made me panic. I was so happy to hear what I feel is reciprocated, but I just had so many other things running through my mind. What if because I am a high ranking officer she is used as collateral damage. What if Princess Poppy was taken to get to me, to torture me? What if I’m a bad father, a bad husband? What if my serious nature weighs on Tara’s happiness? “You okay there Commander? You seem really in your head lately.” My best friend says to me as we start off the training. He was the only one who knew what happened last week and the only one I really talked to about my love for our Queen and childhood friend. “Yea, just got into it a bit with Tara about the princess before we left.” I said sadly looking down at the forces already working on their maneuvers and training. My friend nodded, putting a hand on my shoulder and just told me “dude you gotta apologize and tell her how you feel. You’ve wanted to be with her for forever, now’s your chance.”

Before I could respond, our forces were attacked by Boggins, a good amount of them but not nearly enough for this to be it after months of no attacks. Before killing one of the last ones that came to attack us I held my sword to his throat and said “where are the rest of you?” He smirked spitting out some blood before saying really arrogantly, “We heard there’s a new princess of Moonhaven. We just want to come and introduce ourselves to her. Btw, you’ll never make it back in time to protect her.” Before he could say anything else I killed him and yelled out to my 2nd in command. “The Queen and Princess are in danger. Keep 1/2 of the soldiers here in case this is a ploy and the other half come with me. Move like your life depends on it.” I called for my bird and took off before anyone else was even following behind. I had to get there before either of them got hurt. If I cant tell Tara how I feel, if I never get to hold Liz again, I will never forgive myself.

When we got back to the village, many were in lockdown as Boggins were wreaking havoc. I killed a few as I flew towards the palace. When I got to the palace, I saw dead leafmen on the ground. I hurried in, sword at the ready. A few more leafmen had finally arrived for backup. There were so many Boggins. I started killing on a frenzy once I heard my princess crying. I followed the crying to a room upstairs. It was coming from a room we created to be a safe room years ago, we just never thought we’d have to use it. “Tara” I called out frantically. “Are you in there?” “Yes we’re okay. Is it safe to come out yet?” She asked. It was so relieving to hear her voice. “Not yet” I told her. “I want to make sure theres no Boggins hiding anywhere” I added. Once we did a perimeter sweep and everything was cleared I knocked on the door telling her it was all clear. Tara opened the door and before she could say anything, I pulled her in by her waist with one hand and cupped her cheek gently with the other and kissed her. I put every emotion I had been feeling over the last week into that kiss. I pulled back when I needed air and put our foreheads together. “I love you too” I told her quietly.

“I thought I was never going to be able to say that to you.” I was wrapped up in some vines and lifted off my feet as she said to me “im not completely helpless yknow” which made Poppy giggle from her place on Tara’s hip. “I am aware” I said unamused. “You’re the life of the forest, looking after you is my duty. And Poppy my little princess must carry on your legacy when the time comes. She’s already full of life herself.” I felt the vines loosen and put me back down on the ground but one tickling the side of my face. “Say it again” she whispered, almost as if she were afraid this was all a dream. “I love you” I told her again as she got closer and kissed me again, this kiss full of passion and love. We broke the kiss when I started to hear whining coming from Liz who did not like not having our attention it seems. She was getting ready to start crying again when I picked her up and brought her into my arms.

Almost immediately the whining ceased as I brought her to my chest patting and rubbing circles on her back. “Aww, did someone miss me. I’m so sorry my baby, I’m right here. Daddy’s not going anywhere.” She was cradled in my arms and within minutes, she was knocked out. As I looked down at her lovingly Tara said sadly “she’s missed you so much” I held her closer telling her “I’m not going anywhere this time. I’m sorry I ran the last time. I just didn’t want to put you in danger and didn’t know if I was enough to be with an absolute queen both metaphorically and literally.” The rest of the day was spent together, just holding my princess in my arms and spending time with the love of my life. Things really had changed so much these last few months but I wouldn’t have it any other way. Poppy truly is a blessing.

Authors note: hey there I hope you enjoyed the first part! I wanted to add drawing I created of the oc characters Poppy and Michael 🙂 I’m also gonna add the edit of epic that has just had its claws dug into me these last few days. I want a love like this 😩

Boys get sad too.

I’m falling apart and no one notices

Me to ALL Cades. ALL Cades to Me.

I’m broken and no one hears my cry for help

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PAUL LAHOTE  | Forbidden Imprint PT2.

‘’ On another love, another love, all my tears have been used up.  ‘’

PT1 LINK (READ FIRST)  :  PT1.

Paul was visibly frustrated with everyone. He spent more time as a wolf than a human for the past week, and avoided direct conversation with anyone if he could, and of course that was easy, especially with a lot of people fearing to get on his bad side and to set him off, more so in a situation like this, where Paul seemingly no longer cared whom he went against. Your perspective like such was proven by when Paul faced off with Jared, who insisted that Paul should be happy about finding his imprint, no matter the inconvenience of the time it had come.

Of course, he was shortly provoked by Paul mockingly suggesting he’d exchange the appearance of his imprint, with the disappearance of Kim, Jared’s imprint. Jared, taking this as a direct threat, had nearly lunged at the eager Paul had it not been for Sam’s alpha commands that kept them at bay. 

You no longer felt in control of the situation; Paul ignored your previous attempts of convincing him to leave you blatantly, he only talked to you if he had to, and seeing as you were no longer in a relationship, you felt relieved.

You loved him more than anything, but you had to release him off the leash you held onto him, he wasn’t yours anymore; his imprintee was here. Even so, you couldn’t look at Paul anymore without feeling a thickness in your throat, and a throbbing in your heart that you knew earned for him. You hated how this all happened.

No matter how many times you whispered to yourself that it was okay, that you shouldn’t be feeling these feelings of jealousy and envy, there was a thought in the back of your mind that wished that the new girl, Paul’s soulmate, had not moved to Forks, that she wouldn’t have destroyed the bliss you felt here. But, you couldn’t let such negative thoughts overwhelm you, as long as you could be nearby Paul to some extent, you would be fine.

You drove up to the pack house slowly, parking your car on the pavement as you stepped out, noting that Laura’s car was already there. Of course. She must be worried about Paul, after all, she understands she’s his imprintee. You thought. Sam must have explained everything to her, and the situation you were all in. In the end, the pack went along doing what they usually did. 

The weather was growing increasingly colder and worse, ice surfacing the pavement roads and solid surfaces, freezing the vibrant green grass into coloured, unmoved ice. As a human, you felt the bitter cold bite at your naked skin and cause shivers to run down your back, your warm breath only a puff of mist in the low temperature.

‘’ Y/N, i’m here! ‘’ You heard Laura yell out to you, as you saw her standing by the large house, waving her hand to more visibly attract your attention. She had said she wanted to talk to you, to resolve the clear tension between the two of you. Despite this conversation being inevitable, you hoped you could have prolonged it further, because you didn’t feel ready to hear whatever she had to say. ‘’ Sorry for taking so long, the road was too icy to drive on quickly and i forgot to change my tires this morning. ‘’ You apologised quickly, wrapping your coat only tighter around yourself as you gazed at the quiet female.

It was true, she was pretty, with flowing brown hair that cascaded over her shoulders in waves, and shimmering emerald hued eyes, she was compatible to stand against Paul as someone worthy of him, a soulmate. You weren’t. 

‘’ It’s fine, don’t worry, i was with the pack and Paul for most of the day anyway. He refuses to talk to me, but i managed to get a few words out of him today. What i wanted to talk to you about - i’m sorry, really, for this and that i know that you already understand what you have to do but, ‘’ Laura breathed in momentarily, as if preparing for what she was going to say. ‘’ You don’t have to worry about him anymore. ‘’

Your heart dropped in the slightest, like a crack unveiled and shattered a part of you. You expected this, these words, you knew you were going to hear them; you had to get a hold of yourself and realise your place in this.

‘’ In a few weeks, we’ll be talking normally, i’m sure. I’ll do my best to treat him as well as you have, i won’t hurt him or take advantage of the fact that he’ll only ever love me. ‘’ They stung. More than anything she said, or anyone else had, the sentence was like a slap in the face. She’s right. You told yourself assuringly, dismissing the mass in your throat as an effect from the freezing cold that engulfed your body further than it ever had before.

‘’ I just want to make sure me and you don’t have any harsh feelings towards each other, i’m so sorry for the heartbreak you’ve been caused, but we both want him to be happy, and he won’t be if he’s not with me. It’s a small town, this is, please stay a close friend. ‘’ She smiled warmly as she spoke to you in a light-hearted manner. You only nodded, your throat felt far too dry to mutter a single word, let alone an audible and distinguishable response. 

‘’ Tonight, Sam invited me to go along with Paul and everyone else to the beach. I suggested you come, but Sam said it’d be better for you not to be there. I want to tell you beforehand so nothing troublesome comes out of it.’’ She finished with a light, comforting smile. 

‘’ I understand. I hope everything goes well. I just want him to be happy. ‘’ You replied softly, giving in, finally, to her words. ‘’ I’ll be leaving now, and taking one of Jacob’s motorcycles. He told me he’d change the tire’s on my car to ones that can deal with the ice, so i can use the motorcycle for the while. I’ll be back later. ‘’ You dismissed yourself fairly quickly, waving your hand briefly with a brief smile, earning an ‘’ okay ‘’ from Laura, who seemed to smile as you turned around, and walk back into the house. 

You felt frustrated for the the variety of different feelings that grasped at you, attempting to organise your frantic thoughts as you brought the motorcycle out of the garage. A part of you wanted to fight for Paul, to tell her matter of factly you loved him more than anything, and that Paul was still picking you over her, so why force him into something he hadn’t entirely accepted? And yet, another part of you constantly reminded you that what he felt now probably wouldn’t be what he felt later, once his emotions calmed down and he sorted his priorities out, he’d accept his soul mate rightfully as he should have already. It was the adrenaline rush, the rush of feelings that kept him attached to you.

If Sam, the alpha of the pack, couldn’t restrain himself from his soul mate over Leah, whom he still felt feelings for even now, how could Paul?

You arrived home quickly, eager to step into the warmth of the house instead of remaining in the blistering cold, that made your cheeks flush with scarlet and your fingers go numb with lack of sensation. 

‘’ Is everything alright, honey? ‘’ Your mother questioned from the living room, her voice loud and worried, to which you replied as you stepped upstairs towards your bedroom. ‘’ Everything is fine. ‘’ You reassured her with a pleasantly fake tone, a wave of relief washing over you at the fact that your voice hadn’t cracked and revealed any bit of distress. You didn’t need to get your mother involved in this, in fact, all you wanted now was to finish off whatever homework you had to complete, and simply go to sleep for a few hours; that felt like the most distracting activity of all. 

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After several hours of doing nothing even relatively interesting besides reading, finishing off homework and getting in touch with your friends, with intentions of plan making to distract yourself from the emotions that ate away at you, you imagined everyone would be home by now after the beach. After all, it was growing rather dark now, with a few, faint stars littering the darkening blue sky and even a thin layer of snow coating the swaying trees and grey roofs of houses. Your mother was asleep, you could tell by the silence coming from the house, and the lack of lights or electricity used at all.

Slipping your coat on, you left the house silently and drove to the pack house on Jacob’s motorcycle, aiming to get your car before tomorrow, seeing as you did have school then and knew the ice in the morning would only be worse than it was now. However, as you hopped off of the motorcycle, you noticed your tires were still the same as they were the last time you had been here.

Frowning slightly in confusion, you approached the pack house swiftly and knocked on the door. Maybe they had forgotten, or possibly weren’t even home yet, as you knew Jacob had went along with the pack to the beach. ‘’ Come in. ‘’ A deep, familiar voice spoke out, and you immediately knew who it was as you stepped inside.

‘’ Do you know where Jacob is? ‘’ You asked naturally, remaining composed, unreadable as you gazed down at Paul, whom was sitting at the table, his steel, cold eyes not once leaving yours the moment they settled on you. 

‘’ In the garage, preparing to change your tires. ‘’ The male replied in a monotone tone. Maybe this was progress, maybe he understood that there was no longer anything remotely romantic between the two of you. Quickly nodding, you turned around and stepped forward to unlock the door to leave, but the word’s that left Paul’s lips had frozen you.

‘’ Did this make you feel better? Has it done anything to prove to you how i feel? ‘’ His words weren’t warm, or affectionate, instead they were frustrated and accusing, impatient almost, as if the anger that tugged at him wanted out. Swivelling around, you stared at him, bewildered. 

‘’ Make me feel better? What, the fact that you refuse to even look at me, or maybe that you’re making this so much harder for everyone else when you’re denying your feelings? You know what’s going to happen, i’m so sick and tired of having to repeat myself with this, Paul. This annoyance with me, this rush of emotions and denial is what is keeping you from accepting who your soul mate truly is, you’ll be over me the moment you get back with me. ‘’ You stated, growing more distressed and irritated. He knew how you felt, how much this pained you, and yet he still pulled on the same heartstrings of yours. You thought that you could do this, you could go through this, but how could you when all he did was act persistent?

‘’ This rush of emotions, that you say keeps me from accepting my mate, is love. If you just fucking understood that, if you stopped trying to force someone onto me, if you just, for one damn second, listened to what i was saying - maybe you’d realise that these weeks, you’re the only one i want. But me accepting her will make you happy, right? Me leaving you to finally accept Laura, to finally give in to your wish, will make you feel better?’’ Paul questioned harshly, narrowing his eyes in a scolding manner and the familiar, animalistic snarl pulling agains this lips as he spoke more forcefully.

‘’ Yes. ‘’

You could tell from the briefly taken back expression on his face that he wasn’t expected what you just said. But, just as quickly, his cruel grimace returned. ‘’ Fine, then. Tomorrow, i’ll accept her, i’ll make her mine.’’ His words were quick and ruthless, and every little letter, every vowel and concept behind those words only stabbed you in the back. Your heart felt heavy, like it would fall and shatter like an untouched glass, released from the grip Paul held around it for all this time. All this time you loved him. ‘’ It physically hurts to stay away from her, that’s how much power an imprint has on you, but what surprised me for a bit was how much it hurt or me to stay away from you; you left me, Y/N, after all these months. I wanted you, i wanted you so bad and you pushed me away because you thought she was good enough. Now you can have what you want, you can leave and become happy with another human. Did you ever really hold feelings for me, Y/N? Or was it a trick, was i just a fucking puppet to be played with, and you were waiting for the right person to throw me away to? ‘’ His words spilled out powerfully, seeping into your mind bit by bit, every word was like a ton of bricks created to hurt you, to provoke you, to show you just how much you had hurt him. At your lack of response, Paul snarled, the finishing straw that would have drawn the line.

‘’ I hope you disappear. ‘’

That was all it took. All it took for you to release a sob, to finally realise you had tears streaming down your face, and to run out of the house not a second later. You hadn’t seen the instant flash of regret spread all over Paul’s face at the realisation what he had just said, because he meant none of it, and yet, caught up in the misery, in the untameable desire he held so horribly for you, his sorrowful words spilled out uncontrollably. This wasn’t what he wanted, no, he wanted to tell you how much he adored you, how he had plans to move away with you to prove that you meant more than anyone, and that he was ready to talk this out civilly as long as it made you happy.

Yet, with the pain in his eyes and the aching in his heart, Paul wanted nothing else than to express his anger, somewhere, anywhere. but certainly not on you.

The next few moments seemed to happen in a misty haze, uncaught by anyone. Running out of the house, with Paul closely on your heels, Jacob had just left the garage with most of the pack at the noise, but it was too late. 

Paul wasn’t quick enough, he wasn’t quick enough to reach out and grab you as you ran out from under his grasp, to the unprepared, untouched car. No one expected what had happened that night, especially Paul.

No one expected to hear the screeches of an unruly, frenzied unfamiliar car, with a driver whom could not control it upon the icy road just as much as you, smash straight into your car right as you drove into the road without warning; your vision blinded by tears. Screams, pleads and yells all mixed into chaos from everyone who ran to the two totalled cars. Only yours lay upside down, with a driver who wasn’t breathing.

Maybe Paul was right. Maybe you should disappear.

Funny, it was, how he was the first to say that and yet he was now the first one with tears in his eyes and effort like no other to get to you.

[ Should i make a part three? ]