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Just indulging one of my favorite tropes ever - the disaster genius with the hypercompetent, put-upon assistant. Especially with mutual pining. Especially if they aren't aware they're pining.

Masterlist

tw: hostage situation

"Screwdriver, size 1," said Aurora, absently holding out a hand while staring down at a stubborn part. It took her nearly a full minute to realize that her hand still held only air, no screwdriver forthcoming. "Screw -- oh. Damn it."

Just one more reminder that Gabriel, her trusted assistant, wasn't here. Gabriel would have pressed the right size of screwdriver into her hand before she even finished asking for it. Gabriel would have given her the right size of screwdriver even if Aurora accidentally asked for the wrong one.

But Gabriel was god knows where, and as a result, the screwdriver Aurora needed was also god knows where. The tiny workroom she'd been imprisoned in was an utter disaster zone, tools and parts strewn everywhere. Aurora spent over fifteen of her precious remaining minutes searching for a screwdriver she'd literally just held in her hand, cursing the entire time, until she finally realized that it was in her pocket.

And it was the wrong size anyway.

Fiddling with the screws was a pointless endeavor anyway, just a way to try and quiet her mind so she could figure out the real problem -- in layman's terms, the math wasn't mathing. She swiveled her chair around to stare at the whiteboard covered in diagrams and equations, going over the plans one more time, hoping that this time she'd figure out the flaw.

A little over two days ago she'd been kidnapped by some shady criminal group -- she wasn't sure which one, they all tended to blend together for her. They demanded she build a superweapon to their specifications in three days, or else they'd start killing hostages until they got what they wanted. The superweapon itself was simple, really, and she'd worked out a plan for it in just a few hours. It hardly worth kidnapping someone of her intellect for. If she were the kind of engineer willing to silence her pesky conscience and hand over a doomsday device to some organized crime goons, knowing it'd be used to kill and terrorize countless innocent people, she'd be finished already.

No, the difficult part was coming up with the precise sabotage needed for the weapon to work in tests and fail when put to use against actual civilians. It was a tough needle to thread, and it was what Aurora had spent most of the last two days trying to figure out. And she was so close to an answer, so goddamn close, except the math wasn't working out.

Gabriel would know exactly what was wrong with the equations on the whiteboard. He'd look it all over, silently pick up a whiteboard marker, and issue a correction, shooting Aurora that look that meant "how can someone so smart be so dumb?" The kind of sass she only ever tolerated from him, because he was the only one who could ever keep up with her.

Aurora softly pounded her head against the whiteboard, reminded once again that Gabriel wasn't here. In fact, she didn't know where he was. He wasn't one of the hostages, so he must have escaped -- after all, he always figured out a way to get them both out of the tight spots Aurora was good at putting them in.

He'd definitely escaped. He definitely hadn't gotten caught in the explosion. Gabriel was too smart and too stubborn to die, and besides, it would be incredibly rude for him to die when Aurora needed him so badly. He was the only one who knew where half the things were located in Aurora's lab and the only one who made her coffee the way she liked it.

So he couldn't possibly die. He was absolutely fine. Anything else was unthinkable.

Frustrated and exhausted, Aurora backed up against the wall in the stifling workroom and slid down it until she was sitting on the floor. She'd had the bad luck to be kidnapped while in the middle of a multi-day inventing bender, so she hadn't slept at all in at least four days, and it was definitely catching up to her. The numbers on the whiteboard seemed to swim and dance before her eyes, taunting her with the flaw she couldn't seem to detect.

The metal door slammed open, startling her out of her skin as she scrambled to her feet. "What the hell is that for?" she said. "Don't you know I'm trying to concentrate?"

"I just need to make sure you're working on my new little toy." It was the guy in charge, whose name Aurora couldn't remember. She was terrible with names. Gabriel always remembered the names for her. His eyes swept over the cluttered workspace, his hand on the gun strapped to his hip. "None of this looks like a weapon, doctor."

"You told me I have three days. It's not three days yet."

He pulled out the gun and made a show of inspecting it, pointing it right at Aurora as he did. "I don't have a lot of patience, you know," he said. "If you haven't delivered me a working prototype in the next twelve hours, I'll have no choice but to relieve my stress by killing off some of the hostages. Maybe I'll start with the children, let you listen to their screams. Might be a good motivator."

"Are you finished with your monologue?" said Aurora, trying not to betray any emotions on her face. "Because some of us have actual work to do."

That earned Aurora a gun barrel pressed up against the bottom of her chin, and she knew she was doing a piss-poor job of hiding her fear.

"You don't look like you've been doing any work to me," the criminal goon hissed.

"I told you, I need my assistant. I can't get work done without him."

"Then you're going to have to fucking figure that out, aren't you? You're supposed to be a genius. Start acting like one." He finally moved the gun away from Aurora's face. "I'm coming back in, oh, four hours, and if I don't see most of a weapon by then, I'm gonna have to give you some more incentives. Understand?"

"Crystal clear," she said, mouth dry.

He slammed the door behind him as he left, the sound rattling several loose tools off the nearby workbench. Aurora sank back onto the floor.

Oh, she was so fucked. If she couldn't figure out what was wrong with her math in time, people were going to die. Die because of a stupid mistake, die because she couldn't pull it the fuck together.

They'd die because she'd taken Gabriel for granted. If she hadn't treated him so thoughtlessly, if they hadn't had that argument and become separated, then he'd probably be here with her now. He'd figure out the flaw in her designs and a way to escape to boot.

But he wasn't here, and the thought that she might never actually see him again was scarier than the gun that'd been pressed to her throat.

"God damn it, Gabriel," she said, knowing no one would hear it besides whoever was monitoring the security cameras. "I'm sorry, all right? I mean it. I really am sorry."

The door slammed open again. "I found this little rat skulking around. I believe he belongs to you," said the man in charge. A couple of suited goons tossed a squirming and very familiar bundle into the workroom. "Don't say I never did anything for you. No more excuses now."

As the door closed, Aurora stared down at the man pulling himself up off the floor, certain she must be hallucinating. "Gabriel?"

"Hello, sir," he said, brushing off his impeccably starched pants.

"How… how are you here?"

"I broke in, sir."

Hope swelled up in Aurora's chest. "To rescue me?"

"No, of course not. Have you seen how many guards they have out there? I have no idea how to rescue you. Not yet, anyway."

"Then why…"

"I thought you would need assistance, sir, so I broke in and let them capture me, figuring they'd take me to you." He glanced around the disastrous room. "It would seem my assessment is correct."

He was here, he was unharmed, and he was real, right down to the polished dress shoes and oversized glasses. Aurora couldn't hold it in a minute longer. "It really is you, Gabriel," she said, nearly knocking them both over with the force of her embrace. "I thought I'd never see you again!"

"Well, you're seeing me now, sir."

"I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry. I really am. I'm not just saying that because I need you to pull my butt out of the fire, even though I do really need you to pull my butt out of the fire. I'm really, truly sorry for how I acted, and I'm sorry I'm always taking you for granted."

"That's very touching," he said, awkwardly patting her on the back. "But is now the right time to have this conversation? We're on a bit of a tight deadline, aren't we?"

We. It wasn't just Aurora's problem, now.

"We are," she said, walking over to the whiteboard. "I have the basic plan for the weapon outlined here, but I'm having trouble with…" She tapped the part of the plans related to her sabotage. They'd been disguised and coded so that the goons watching her wouldn't realize what it was, but Gabriel would know.

Aurora watched as Gabriel's eyes scanned the whiteboard left and right, up and down. His brows furrowed, gears turning in his head. "Interesting…" he muttered.

"Do you get the theory behind what I'm trying to do here?"

"I think so," he said. "But I'm not sure about this part." He picked up a marker and struck out one of Aurora's numbers, writing in his own.

Aurora stared, going over the calculations in her head again, this time substituting in Gabriel's suggestion. "That can't be right, can it?"

"Perhaps not. I'm only trying to make sense of it, sir," he said with a shrug.

"Wait… wait a minute… if we… and then if we…" Aurora's hands were flying now, replacing her numbers as she worked out the ripple effects of the change. "Hold on. Holy shit, that is it, isn't it? That's exactly it."

"Well, you made three more errors, but somehow still came up with the right answer," said Gabriel. "You haven't slept since Tuesday, have you?"

"I have not!" said Aurora gleefully, already giddy at the prospect of sabotaging those rotten bastards that'd dared to kidnap her. "I can sleep once I get this thing done. Can you hand me the --" A screwdriver was pressed into the palm of her hand before she could finish. "Thank you."

His eyes widened. "You never thank me, sir. That can't simply be sleep deprivation. Have they drugged you? Is it mind control? Possession?"

"Is it that hard to believe I appreciate you?"

"Yes."

"Well, I do. And I'm glad you're here. Well, I mean, I'm not glad you got taken hostage -- you know what I mean."

"I suppose," he said. "And for what it's worth, I am glad that you're in one piece. It would mean a lot of extra work for me if you weren't."

For a brief moment, Aurora thought she saw a smile flicker on her long suffering assistant's face. Probably just a hallucination from sleep deprivation.

Masterlist

Weird thing happened to me the other day

Class-D

"Umm....?"

You stare at the affini sitting across from you, who is sipping casually from a large mug of tea.  She had grown close to you over the last year, but the last few weeks in particular had been...more?  She suddenly seemed intent on pushing you towards florethood, and more specifically towards one of the more...simple lifestyles.

'There are as many ways to be a floret as there are florets', as the saying goes.  You considered yourself an outgoing and independent type, one who had (with effort and support) gone far, despite any neurodivergencies that often ground progress to a slow crawl.  But the way Ea would look at you...the things she said...well, like what she JUST said, for example.

"I'm merely suggesting that you give it a try, dear.  No contracts, no implants...unless you want those.  I'm referring to something a bit simpler."

You frown, crossing your arms.  "And what exactly do you have in mind, Ea?"

A brilliantly red flower blossoms before your lips, the needles tip glistening green.  "I give you a Class-D, of course.  One that prevents those pesky inhibitions and falsehoods from getting in the way.  And then you and I can chat a little, and I may ask you to do a few things, to see if they make you feel good.  Is that really so dangerous, sweetie?"

"I..." Yes, of course it was...was what you wanted to say.  But if it really was just a Class-D, then it wouldnt change your mind.  They were there to reveal the truth, and the truth of the matter was that you were capable and competent, and it's about time she figured that out.  Sighing, you roll up your sleeve and extend your arm, wincing as the injection slips into your skin.  The verdant drug travels up your arm and to your brain, and an....interesting feeling seems to settle on you.  Not the fresh-out-of-a-dryer blanket of a Class-A, but a slightly warm sheet, perhaps.  You blink a few times, then look at Ea expectantly.

She gently snaps her fingers at you, then points at the floor next to her seat.  "No no, darling.  We aren't going to one-half ass it here.  I intend to show you what I mean, through actions as much as words."

You gawk at her, blushing furiously.  "But...but I don't want to do that!"

"Why?"

"It's embarrassing!"

Ea tilts her head, a coy look passing through violet eyes.  "The only one who thinks it is embarrassing is you, petal.  No one else in this case will care in the least, and you already know what I think you need." She smiles. "If it helps, just think of it as me...coercing you into it.  If anyone asks, you can explain that you didn't have a choice here."

You squint your eyes at her, but your gaze soon follows her arm down to her pointed finger.  Crumbs, she really was serious.  You look around the cafe again, noting how the others weren't even looking your way.

Blushing, you let yourself go limp, flowing off the lip of the seat and into a kneel as you shuffle towards her spot.  When you arrive, you keep your gaze firmly fixed to the left, your hands grasping themselves out of a need to hold onto something.

You wait for her to speak...but she stays silent.  She waits until you give in, until you sneak a glance at her, and only then does she cup your cheek in one large hand as she whispers, "Good Pet."

"I...y-you...it-" she slides her hand over your mouth, preventing the words from haphazardly tumbling out.

"Sweetheart, I said we would chat.  I never said you would get to use people words~"

The hand returns to your cheek, a thumb gently brushing across your lips as she smiles triumphantly.  "Now then, pet.  You are a wonderfully skilled sophont, make no mistake.  But a trained pet is still a pet, honey.  And not everything trained into you is Good."

You open your mouth to protest...only to let the words die in your throat at the warning in her eyes.  Instead, the softest little slip of a whimper manages to drip from your tongue.

Ea smiles wider, her other hand joining the first on your head as she begins to pet you, long firm pulls of her fingers through your hair.  "You know that you push yourself too hard, don't you?  That you keep moving, because the inertia is part of how you stay upright.  You need the constant motion, because you're worried that as soon as you slow down, you'll topple over and shatter."

You try to deny it.  You try to disprove it.  But in the end, you are forced to admit it to yourself:

She's right.

She gently brushed a tear from the corner of your eye, softer than the petals of her flowers.  "But that needn't happen, honey.  Not if you have an Owner to care for you, and hold you close, and keep you safe.  You know this too, don't you?"

You did.  You do.  And it hurts.  And it heals.

Your eyes make a desperate plea towards her, though for what, you aren't sure.  She seemed to be waiting for it, though, because her eyes glow golden ichor.  "And so, since you are being honest with me, I shall be in turn with you.  I will not wait a single second longer to give you what you want, need, crave.  You are my pet, honey.  I will Own you, I will train you, I will condition away any independence and wrestle your thoughts into simple submission.  And, in the end, you will thank me for it."

Her hand brushes one last time over your head as it makes its way to the back of your neck, tracing a line where you know the implant will soon reside.  You shudder as she presses down, down, Down, pushing your face into her vines as you finally are honest with yourself and admit what you realize you always wanted, always needed.

You surrender.

Hello are you into Abdl or sissy lifestyle

I'm into the Abdl lifestyle, but I'm a woman so I'm less into sissy play as degredation, if that makes sense

Junko-Kat

Bio Age: 35

Maturity: Generally well-behaved with a touch of snark, Junko-Kat can sometimes be shy and nonverbal.

Little Age: Around 3

Potty Untraining:

Comfortable with diapers quickly but takes time to feel safe enough for messing.

Describes it as a nice goal when trust and security are established.

Diapers provide a unique sense of littleness and safety.

Interests and Preferences:

Adoration for stuffies and snuggling – nothing feels better than a cozy cuddle session, especially wth her axolotl.

Loves engaging in activities like stacking toys and building with Legos.

Excited to continue exploring pacifiers and thumb-sucking to deepen her little experience.

Looks forward to further training to embrace being a "helpless little girl."

Junko-Kat enjoys being a kitten.

Personality Highlights:

Finds joy in being helpful and polite, and even loves assisting around the house in roles like playing a maid.

Disclaimer: Regression School reminds all prospective caregivers that the information above is as provided by the applicant. Truthfulness cannot be guaranteed, but the cuteness definitely can. @junko-kat

Pics for a shot for @regressionschoolpersonals !

Sometimes you just gotta hold your local trans girl gently and tell it that it doesn't need to pretend to be a person anymore, That it's safe to just be an object, to remind it that it is your most prized possession and you would never let it go.

Reblog to remind the ""person"" you reblogged from that it isn't a person, and doesn't have to fake humanness 24/7

Pet whumpee for sale who's been passed by for days because they're so obviously traumatized. Nobody appreciates a pet who flinches and whimpers upon being touched. What's the point?

Except Carewhumper, who's been looking for this exact thing. Carewhumper embracing Whumpee and holding them close even as their breath hitches in panic, gently stroking their hair. Carewhumper murmurs so gently to them as they tremble.

"There, see? It's not so bad. It's not so bad, is it? Shh, shh... it's all right. Look at you, you're so pretty. Shh. It's all right. You want to be good for me, don't you? I'm going to take such good care of you."

Fuck you *installs puppy on your robot*

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hi. guess who wrote. aren’t you proud. anyways these are like. my favorite ocs. if you’ve known me for very long you know i will never shut up about them ever and have character blogs because god they’re in my brain constantly

contains: med whump/lab whump (not sure which this would classify as. sort of in the middle there.), creepy/intimate carewhumper, doctor whumper, does vian deserve his own mention here yeah he’s a warning all by himself, condescension, restraints, recapture, former living weapon whumpee, magical/sci-fi setting, references to addition and drugs, mentions of brainwashing and memory erasure, betrayal, needles, implied self harm, self harm being weaponized.

i think that’s all but let me know if i’m missing something. this one’s a bit of a doozey. fun for the whole family.

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“You look like you slept well.”

He was barely even awake. The room felt like it was spinning, the all too familiar fluorescent lights inducing a dizzying nausea.

The shock of the cold metal on his back forced him into reality. Shit. This was happening. There wasn’t any way out of it. Not an obvious one, anyways.

Koi’s eyes drifted back over to the doctor, who greeted him with a soft smile. Right. Why was he here? Why didn’t he have—

“I took off that little cuff of yours, hopefully you don’t mind. I’ll probably have to answer for that later, but oh well. I figured you’d want to enjoy your last few moments of lucidity.” He murmured, pity crossing his face. “I know you’re not really capable of what they think you are. Poor thing. They think you’re a killing machine! A terrorist! It’s a little funny, actually. I mean, you’re…”

His eyes trailed over Koi for a brief moment. “…Harmless. Completely harmless like this.”

“—I mean, I’m not a big fan of killing people. Kind of why I was trying to avoid this place.”

“Yes, yes, and that’s exactly my point. I guess capable isn’t the right word, is it? I mean, you’ve done it before. I suppose what I’m trying to insinuate is that you’re just unfit to be the monster they’re going to try to break you into.” The doctor hummed, gently ruffling his hair.

“…It’s nice to see you again, by the way. I really did miss you. I know we were never close, but— You were always one of my favorites.”

Koi scoffed. “Enough of a favorite to let out of these restraints? C’mon, it’s not like I’m going anywhere.”

“…You know I can’t, Koi.”

“…Right.” He went quiet for a moment, letting the air grow heavy. Well, might as well rip the bandaid off. “So uh… What are they gonna do?”

And just like that, he was back to his giddy state. “Oh— Yes, I forgot, you like it when I explain these things.”

“You’re uh, not annoyed by it, right? I know a lot of the scientists were and uh—“

“No, no! Not at all. I appreciate your enthusiasm. I always have. People here are just so incredibly impatient.”

“…Oh, uh, thanks. Alright, then yeah, give me the rundown.” Koi already had a good idea about what was going to happen next. They’d throw him in a nice, big cell, give him the whole “You have a purpose here” spiel, and then keep him in there until he either gave in or escaped— not like the former would ever happen.

Vian’s eyes seemed to sparkle as he began to explain. “Well, you see, we figured that since you’re going to be here for a while, we might as well work out that little… Issue… With your magic.”

“And then they’ll expect me to join ‘em again?”

“…Well— Actually, you won’t have much of a say in the matter. They’re planning on wiping your memories. It’ll be like your little runaway incident never happened. You won’t remember the experiments either, of course. None of those silly traumatic things.”

Shit.

“Until then, I’m supposed to keep you hooked up to an IV containing a drug I’ve developed. Just something to keep your mind in more of an agreeable state. You won’t lose your ability to think, of course, you’ll just… Struggle with comprehending those thoughts. I like to say it’s like water slipping through cracks— Nicer imagery leads to a much less stressful experience.” Vian smiled cheerfully, giving Koi a little pat on the head.

He felt sick. This wasn’t how things were supposed to be. “—Wait, wait, wait. Can’t we talk this out? I mean— You don’t really want me to lose my memory, right?— What about— What about my friends? My life?”

At that, the doctor chuckled. “Koi, we should really move on with the examination. I have a job to do… Maybe if you’re good, we can talk a little more about your options afterwards.”

Despite the bile in his throat, Koi nodded. Maybe there was a chance that the doctor would take pity on him. He just had to get through this.

Vian lifted up the thin sleeve of his hospital gown, staring down his arm while he fixed a cuff on his shoulder.

“…Now, I know we didn’t give those to you.”

“What?”

“Those scars.” Vian traced a cold finger along one of the countless cuts lined over the withered skin. “Those are new. Lined up so poorly as well. Goodness, you really haven’t been doing well for yourself, have you?”

Koi shot him a small glare that quickly faded into something a little more pitiful. He had to remember what was at risk if he fucked this up.

“Yeah, well, what can I say? Apparently having a guilty conscience has consequences.”

The doctor’s eyes flickered with mild amusement. It was an unsettling look on him.

“We both know that’s not what this is.”

“Didn’t you say you had a job to do?”

The pressure on his arm began to increase, then released all at once. The cuff went off just as quickly as it had been strapped on. Vian stared at the readings for a brief moment, then looked back at his patient.

“And who are you to say that a wellness check wouldn’t be part of it? I won’t tell, I promise. Now, you were always good with needles. Are you alright if I draw some blood?”

Koi nodded hesitantly. It would be better not to argue with the only person who might be willing to lend a hand to him. He wasn’t that stupid. It’s not like he had many other options.

The needle sank into his skin, and he reflexively let go of the tension in his body. He could have sworn he saw Vian smile at that.

“Good. You’ve always so good with these things. I believe that’s most of what I needed— We’ll do a drug test too, just to be sure. You’d be surprised hearing all of the rumors some of the scouts have come up with about you. Meaningless gossip, really. They claim you’re some worthless street junkie now.” Vian hummed, brushing Koi’s bangs out of his face. “Then again, I wouldn’t be totally surprised. You’ve been hung out to dry. We can lose ourselves, sometimes.”

He couldn’t help but lean into the soft touch. If it weren’t for the backhanded conversation, he probably would have felt genuinely relaxed.

“Yeah, right. I’ve totally got the spare change to shell out for that.”

“Mhm... Like I said, meaningless gossip.”

He needed to break the silence in the air. He could practically feel Vian’s gaze on him. Cold and scrutinizing. “Well, uh, is that all you needed me for?”

“Oh— Yes, we should be done for now. You said you wanted to talk about your options, didn’t you? This would also be a decent time to ask me any extra questions.” The doctor snapped his eyes back to focus, a smile quickly reappearing on his face.

“Yeah, yeah. That sounds good. Uh, so is there any way I can convince you to help me? I mean, I know we were never friends, but—“

“You’d like to be. I know.” He didn’t even let him finish. “You mentioned that once. It stuck with me for a while… I think I’d like that too. You’re one of the few people I can actually tolerate here.”

“So uh… You’re willing to get me outta here?”

Vian’s eyes narrowed, and his grin faltered. “…Well—“

“Well what?” He snapped.

“You don't really have options here, Koi. Let’s just think about this for a moment. I could let you go right now, send you on your way back home… And for what? For you to be miserable the rest of your life? To keep this up?” He gestured towards the lines across his arm. “You lived in a rotting shed. If anything, keeping you here is a favor.”

His blood ran cold.

“You can’t be fucking serious— Vian, please— I… I can’t stay here. They’re gonna make me hurt people. I can’t do that again.”

Vian’s sympathetic expression was looking faker by the minute. He ruffled his hair, earning him a desperate expression. “…Oh, yes you can. The war’s been over for quite some time. It’s not like you’d be used very often anyways. Don’t you want to feel like a hero again? Didn’t you like that?”

Koi began struggling against the metal bands holding him down to the table, desperately thrashing back and forth. “I— I won’t forgive you if you do this. You know that, right?! Didn’t you say you wanted to be friends?”

“I did. And I still mean it. You’ll soon find that you won’t remember any of this, and you’ll be more than happy to spend time with me.” He hummed. “Let’s be honest, sending you back would be plainly unethical! It’d go against my oath. You’d have a fresh start here… There’s really not a downside.”

“Stop— Please—“

“…I think it’s about time to hook you up to that IV. Thank you for your time, though. I can’t wait to get to know each other all over again.”

hypnotizing yourself really is the most adorable thing.

yes, stare into that pretty spiral and let your mind go blank... so open... sinking down, down, down into that familiar place where you're all warm and fuzzy and obedient. that's it... nice and pliable now, aren't you, cutie?

you don't need to be doing this. nobody ordered you to train your mind like this, conditioning yourself to obey every order given to you, without thinking, without needing to think...

you don't have to do it, but you want to, don't you? yes, you do, because you know it will only make you a better pet when you finally have an owner to serve. and that makes you such a good pet already. so eager to be trained, to submit, that you're happy to train yourself with all these audio files and pretty spirals, letting their suggestions take control of you.

it will be sooo easy, someday, for whoever you choose to serve, to wipe away your mind completely. all they'll have to do is say a few certain words, or snap their fingers, or hold a spiral in front of your eyes... and you'll drop so easily, won't you? you'll practically be putty in their hands. and it'll feel so incredibly nice to go down deep for someone other than yourself. all of your hard work, all your time spent training, will pay off, in the end.

so go on, keep watching those spirals (they're too pretty to stop), keep letting all those calm, soothing voices slip between the cracks in your mind and make you drop. let them tell you who you're meant to be, who you want to be. it will all pay off.

that's a good pet~

cute idea: going on long walks together, holding hands! luckily it's cold out and we're wearing layers...so nobody can see the collar you have one isn't a regular one for people, it's for pets! i know because while we're "holding hands" i'm really holding the end of your leash~ we're so sneaky cuz we pulled the lead through your sweater sleeve. isn't that cute? nobody here but me knows what a dumb lil pet you are~ i'll keep your secret though, don't worry!

cute idea: going on long walks together, holding hands! luckily it's cold out and we're wearing layers...so nobody can see the collar you have one isn't a regular one for people, it's for pets! i know because while we're "holding hands" i'm really holding the end of your leash~ we're so sneaky cuz we pulled the lead through your sweater sleeve. isn't that cute? nobody here but me knows what a dumb lil pet you are~ i'll keep your secret though, don't worry!

feels good... Floaty...

CW: hypnotic induction, light confusion induction, obedience triggers, suggestion to share this post

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they say your mind is in its absolute dumbest state while you're scrolling through social media.

it must be so easy to slip subtle messages into these simple strings of words that might sneak past your conscious mind and seep right into your subconscious, because that's the only part of you that needs to understand what i'm saying right now.

it can be so easy to start to zone out and find yourself forgetting everything around you. your eyes can sometimes find themselves so fixated on the screen, on reading each and every word so carefully that everything else you were thinking before becomes simply irrelevant, just pops away like bubbles in a clear blue sky.

and you might think you want to look away, but you'd be wrong. think about it. you haven't yet, have you? that must be because you really want to be here, right? so why would you look away now if you want this?

don't think about it too hard. or let your mind wander, that's okay too. either way, a part of you is clearly interested in what i have to say, so i know you'll come back for more. if you're still reading this, it's because

you want this.

i didn't put you in this state. you chose this, didn't you? i know you've been scrolling and scrolling for minutes, hours, or maybe even days waiting to find that certain someone who would be brave enough to tell you how you're completely docile right now.

that's okay. everybody feels this sometimes, when they scroll for such a long time. it's perfectly normal, so you can just allow yourself to let go and sink into it. everything else can just fade into the background while you focus more and more on my words.

there you go, that's better...

it's much more enjoyable when you let your mind relax and enjoy this feeling, now isn't it?

that's right. it feels good. you want this.

hm... i bet all those pesky thoughts are such hard work, aren't they? it must be exhausting, having to use your brain so much, huh? wouldn't it be so much easier to let me do all the thinking for you instead?

of course it would. so i'm going to do you a favor in a few moments, if you can just focus and follow along for me, ok?

very good. you're doing so well. you're really so good at reading every one of my words and letting them into your empty mind.

i'm going to count from 10, down to 1, and with every number, you may notice that it's becoming harder and harder to think of anything but the numbers. so eager to reach the next one, anticipating it, but staying focused on reading the words between, because that's what i've told you to do, and you probably don't have the mind to disobey me, do you?

or, of course, you might not notice anything at all as you become more and more...

blank.

you want this.

so we start with

10,

your mind drifting in a state of perpetual fuzz, like draping you in a soft, cozy blanket.

9,

relaxing into the warmth, because it's nice and comfortable and safe here.

8,

each number acts like the snap of my fingers, bringing you to attention and keeping your focus.

7,

reading more, thinking less.

6,

and however your body reacts, it's perfectly fine and normal.

5,

it means you're comfortable here with me, and that's very good.

4,

getting so close to where you want to be now, and however deep you want to go, you can go.

3,

it's exciting to realize that my thoughts are becoming your thoughts. you're becoming emptier. and that feels good.

2,

feeling so good now, so much bliss and deep relaxation. you're ready for me to finish counting, waiting so desperately for that last number.

and

1,

just let yourself

DROP.

you want this.

you want to be hypnotized, and it feels so good as you

DROP.

it's okay if you slump over a bit, or your eyes flutter. but you'll keep them open, because you want to keep reading.

you want to

DROP.

you want this.

and because you want this, you will allow it into your mind.

you want my words to be true.

it feels good when my words are true, doesn't it?

you want to nod your head.

and so you nod your head.

you want to

DROP.

every time i tell you to

DROP.

you go so much deeper.

and you want to go deeper.

you want this.

and because you want this, it will become true.

so when i, or anyone you trust to control you, tells you

you want this.

you'll find yourself wanting it. and it feels so natural, because you do want it, don't you? you must, if you feel this strongly about it.

and of course you do, because

you want this to be true.

and just like that, it is. but you've chosen to let it become true, and that is important.

you will only do what you're comfortable doing. wanting something doesn't mean you have to do it. you still have free will, and if you don't feel safe in doing something, you will not have to do it. remember this.

this is for your safety. i need you to be safe, and take care of yourself. good playthings take care of themselves.

now...

you want this.

you want to be hypnotized.

you want to read my words.

you want to obey my words.

you want to

DROP.

even deeper for me.

that's it. you've done so well.

so let's put this to the test, what do you say?

you want to like this post.

you want to reblog this post and share how good it made you feel.

you want to read this again whenever it comes up on your feed.

and when you reread this, the suggestions within will become so much stronger, and control you even deeper.

feel the desire to follow my suggestions grow stronger with each passing moment. but you won't yet. you'll finish reading this, and then you'll obey your orders.

after you've liked and reblogged this post, you'll wake from this trance as slowly or as quickly as you'd like. if you want to take a few minutes to bask in this pleasant relaxation, that's perfectly okay, and if you'd rather come all the way up as soon as you're finished, that's fine too. whenever you choose to wake up, you'll do so feeling refreshed, and ready to take on the rest of your day with a smile.

now go ahead and follow my instructions. i know you want to give in.

i hope you enjoyed this, and that you have a lovely rest of your day :)

One of the best parts about hypnosis is that you can turn any fun game into something completely incredible by just sprinkling a few trancey elements into it.

Take HypnoChess, for example. It's just regular old chess, but every piece you lose makes you dumber, dizzier, and less focused. This one change alters a game of wits into a game of defense, where trades of pieces are incredibly risky at all times, while also turning losing from a frustrating result to an arousing one.

Or we can look at Hypno Truth or Dare. It has all the elements of regular Truth or Dare, mixed in with dirty questions about hypnosis and dares to go deeper, listen to files and to obey without question~

And the best part is that this change is incredibly easy to do. Any game can be made more fun with hypnosis if you alter a few rules. You can replace boring punishment cards with suggestions to stare at a spiral, or to become another player's toy for x ammount of turns.

You can make it so that the closer you get to the finish in a game like Snakes and Ladders, the emptier you get, and the more addicted you become to the thought of sabotaging yourself going back to the beggining.

This does not just apply to physical games either. Video games lerfectly lend themselves to hypnosis. A lot of them feature very rigid gameplay rules and repetitive gameplay, so, in theory, you could make a very mindless task like farming for a certain item or mining for a certain ore condition you deeper, every level gained and block broken drilling in the suggestion of your choosing into your already focused head.

I'm sure that there are a million other examples, ranging from simple to extreme, but I'm going to let you readers share some of yours~

The brightest, happiest, most joyful character having the most deprived, tortured, horrid past one could imagine and their team has no clue until it comes back to haunt them somehow and they break.

They just break.

And their team has to watch the one person they never thought they’d ever see cry descend into terrified, inconsolable sobs.

Aftercare should generally involve the opposite of the things a scene involved, it should balance the "negative" physical and psychological impact of the scene.

This is a fairly neat summation and simplification of a very complex and nuanced topic. But it's a good place to start if you're new and don't quite understand the concept of aftercare or if you're experienced and trying a new type of play. It's a simple framework to build upon as you learn more about your individual needs and the needs of your play partner(s).

So what are the physical and psychological impacts of a scene. (Do note we're specifically talking about those impacts we don't want to last past the end of a scene, puppies don't want to be told they're not puppies as aftercare)

I'm not going to separate these because what effects you psychologically is also going to effect you physically and vice versa. These things are not separate.

A good example on the more psychological side might be degradation which damages a submissive's self worth, self image, ego, etc. To balance this aftercare should focus on affirmation and rebuilding /healing those things. Similarly fear play damages a submissive's sense of safety/ wellbeing, aftercare for which should involve being made to feel safe, comfortable with their dominant, and st ease.

Having said that, a good example of this balance on the more physical side is replacing lost energy. Basically no matter what type if play you're engaging in you will burn a lot of energy, so to balance that you should replace that energy. I write about this in much more detail HERE.

Getting a little more complicated; sub drop. Coming 'down' from a submissive headspace, especially one that includes pain play, can be very unpleasant. The neurotransmitters released during a scene fade away, this feels something like the crash after an adrenaline spike, and can leave a submissive feeling lethargic, empty, sad, etc. To balance this aftercare should involve things the submissive enjoys to bring those neurotransmitter levels back up a little and alleviate some of the withdrawal symptoms. This can include but shouldn't be limited to; cuddles, kisses, warm snugly things like blankets and stuffies, their favourite snacks, their favourite movie or TV show, etc

"Top drop" is less a neurological thing and more of a social thing. Although the top headspace also includes it's own share of neurotransmitters which also drop off it's almost always to a much lesser extent. The most common major effect of top drop is guilt; hurting someone you care about is something deeply ingrained as bad and even if they like it, even if they're begging for it, it can still effect you really deeply. Aftercare for this should involve affirmation that the bottom isn't hurt beyond what they want to be, that they still care about and trust their dom, etc.

This is an infinitely nuanced topic, I could write until the character limit and still not cover all the ways that aftercare could go. But I have to draw a line in the sand somewhere so let me make one final point. Don't worry too much about getting this perfectly right the first few times, you'll figure out what you need and what your play partner(s) need. The most important part is the "care" half of "aftercare" show them you're willing yo put in the effort to make sure they're OK and you can't go to wrong

Hypnotize me to believe you are chloroforming/drugging me and then enjoy the show of me fighting to stay awake.

Who enjoys the feeling of being conditioned?

Knowing that someone has worked to tweak and mold your malleable mind with every interaction you have. Knowing you've been primed and influenced to a point of no return. Knowing the simplicity of a word of action is enough for you to lose yourself completely.

Triggered by as little as a command phrase. Prodded into an unknown direction by latent pathways your mind has been railroaded on. The indescribable feeling of yourself attempting to resist, fighting with every fibre of your being, pushing to retain your free will. And yet, the impossibility of that task insurmountable, and behind every feable attempt made, the knowledge that you want this.

You want all pretence to fall away. You want to give in completely. You want your mind and body to sink into the clutches of your controller. You want to surrender and enjoy the delicious grip of conditioning.

Shout out to all the Black ppl that can no longer participate directly in the fandom they love because of the stresses of racism 👍🏾 you contain multitudes of value and I'm sorry that the color of your skin and the power of your voice makes people not want to acknowledge that.

Hope you feel better!!

Mommy is feeling more sick again 🥺 Send help in the form of padded tushes

you need to pet a trans girl until she unmasks and stop pretending to be human

Here we go!

Okay So... I've been recommended to listen to this (Dolly Dreaming, Obedience induction, Ep. 01) file! I'm going to play it twice a day for this week and I'll let you all know how it goes!

Rescue Hound Ch. 2

Kione brings Sartha home, and discovers what she's become

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From the moment Sartha first wakes up, it’s a horror show.

She doesn’t regain consciousness until Kione and the other survivors can limp back to the rebel position and deliver her safely into their arms. That’s a mercy. Once they arrive and dismount, they’re rushed to the infirmary for medical attention. Sartha obviously needs it; Kione does too, as much as she’d prefer to play it cool. While an entire crowd of medics huddles around Sartha Thrace, the one who drew the short straw is stuck at Kione’s bedside, yelling at her to shut up and stay still so they can patch her up.

Kione won’t shut up and stay still. She’s trying to get everyone else’s attention. She needs to tell them.

There’s something wrong with Sartha.

They think they already know that, of course. The rebels know that she’s been forced to fight on the wrong side of the war. But they don’t get it the way Kione does. She’s crossed blades with Sartha—before, and again, now. The medics probably figure it’s something simple. A gun to her head. A bomb in her mech. Hostages. Maybe a drug. They can comprehend that kind of leverage. But Kione has felt it. She knows it’s more. Only she understands that Sartha has been transformed into something awful.

Nobody listens to her, of course. They just see what they want to see: their hero. It’s all they ever see.

They’re idiots. They don’t want to think about needing to restrain her. So they kind of deserve it when Sartha opens her eyes, looks around, and then punches the nearest medic so hard her teeth go flying.

Even then, they’re slow on the uptake. They figure she’s just panicking. A couple more medics end up with broken teeth before they stop trying to calm her down and realize that she’s actually trying to hurt them.

It’s lucky for them that Sartha is so badly injured she can’t even stand. Instead, she just props herself up in the infirmary bed, hunched defensively, teeth bared behind that fucking muzzle, clearly ready to throw herself at anyone who gets too close. Now Kione shuts up. She’s spellbound, just like everyone else. She recognizes this animal frenzy from their battle, but she’s never seen an actual human being like this. Right now, Sartha doesn’t look like a person at all. She’s a cornered wolf. Scared as much as violent. She even keeps glancing at the door like she’s desperate to make a break for it.

Gods. What did they do to you, Sartha?

The medics try nothing and then they’re all out of ideas. What can they do? If it was any other patient, they’d throw bodies at her. Restrain her. Maybe tranq her. But you can’t do that to a hero, right? So they just stand around and stare while the looks on their faces get more and more dismayed. They were so pleased to see her, at first. Now it’s like Sartha’s died at her own birthday party.

Eventually, perhaps from simple exhaustion, the animal in Sartha’s skin starts to abate. She slumps, her frantic, rapid breathing collapsing into a somber rhythm. The few warning growls she forces out are feeble. Her eyelids droop, then close, and when they open again, it’s someone else.

It’s Sartha. For real this time.

That’s what they all think at first. Even Kione. She sees something familiar and clear in those eyes, and wonders if it’s her friend again. But then Sartha parts her lips and tears fall from her eyes, and Kione second-guesses herself because she never once heard Sartha cry like that.

She cried, sure. Sartha tasted more than her fair share of loss and defeat. She felt that grief deeper than anyone. But this is different. These aren’t a soldier’s quiet, stoic sobs. They’re desperate, keening wails; high, full-chested, needy. Infantile, almost. She sounds like a child crying for her mother. Like a drowning woman begging the gods.

But she’s not begging for her mother or for the gods.

She’s begging for her.

That’s what Kione gathers, amidst the broken pleas and choked, offered bargains, all of them made to a woman who is not here. It’s her imperial XO. Someone Sartha’s been calling ‘sir’ and ‘ma’am’ and other things besides. Only, no imperial officer Kione’s crossed paths with would ever inspire this kind of loyalty. They’re usually about as charismatic as a dishcloth.

But this? Loyalty seems too small a word. It’s consuming. Sartha is swallowed up by it, this sick bond she shares with the woman. Kione wracks her brain, but she can’t land on a word that seems to fit.

Especially when Sartha tucks her head into her chest and cradles the muzzle that’s still on her face like a kid with a stuffed toy. What the fuck are you supposed to call that?

Kione doesn’t know. Nobody else does either. No one says a thing. Each and every medic just stands there, waiting for it to stop and steadily realizing it might not, not for a long time. One by one, each of them hits their limit. They turn their faces away and slip out the door. Every couple of minutes, someone leaves. Until it’s just Kione left in there with her.

Not that she has any clue what to say. She just figures she should be there. Sartha’s her friend, right? That’s what you do for friends. But eventually, shamefully, it gets to be too much even for her. Kione convinces herself that Sartha might need a private moment. The merc rolls out of bed, grabs a crutch, and limps out of the infirmary and past the confused, alarmed guards posted outside. She doesn’t know where she’s supposed to go. She just knows she can’t be there. Eventually, after tracking down a medic to give her a once-over, she winds up in her bunk, in the paltry quarters the rebels gave her.

Damn. She never even got that drink with radio girl.

***

After that, it’s a while before Kione gets to see her again. The word trickles down from whoever’s in charge: Sartha is quarantined. Officially, it’s for no reason in particular. Just a nebulous ‘precaution’. Secretly, they tell Kione and the few others who’ve seen her that it’s so they can run her through some kind of improvised deprogramming therapy. Kione doesn’t much like the sound of that. She’s pretty sure none of the rebel shrinks actually know what they’re doing, and she suspects the last thing Sartha needs is someone else picking their way through her head.

Unofficially, of course, there’s another reason to keep Sartha locked up safe and sound: if everybody got to see what’s happened to her, morale would go to shit.

Which is more or less what happens anyway. Word gets around. You can’t keep something like that quiet. People start talking. The infirmary staff, maybe. Soon enough, it’s on everybody’s lips: they broke Sartha Thrace. Predictably, those rumors depress the hell out of everybody.

It’s funny how that works. Normally, one of the things the rebels have going for them is fighting spirit. It’s not just a tour of duty to them. It’s a way of life. They get used to fighting in the worst of circumstances. To finding hope where there’s none. It’s impressive, even Kione will admit. But living like that does something to you. The rebels need something to believe in. They need heroes. In all the stories they tell about her, Sartha comes across more like some kind of weird saint than an actual, flesh-and-blood woman. Kione always gets a good laugh out of that.

Turns out, that kind of faith cuts both ways.

As such, for several long weeks a dark mood settles across the rebel base—if you’d call it that. Certainly, it’s nothing like the big, ugly, fortified monoliths the imperials call bases. Instead, it’s a set of loosely interconnected outposts and installations, connected by various trenches, tunnels and paths, all following the natural contours of the blasted landscape. When you’re outgunned, it always helps to stay under the radar. Often literally; much of it’s underground. The hangar is a huge, natural cavern, excavated out and reinforced as necessary. The barracks and living quarters are like a rabbit’s warren, dug into the hillside. Rebel ingenuity at its finest.

Kione hates it, personally. Living in a hole in the ground is shit, however ingenious. The mud gets everywhere. Normally, she’d be out of there ASAP, roaming around in search of another front, another fight, another job. This time, she has to wait for them to fix Theaboros up. Not a quick task, after the beating it took. It requires some slow, careful work under Kione’s exacting supervision, plus getting some specialty materials shipped out. The rebel mechanics don’t love that, even though she’s paying their wages. They flash her the meanest looks as she spends more on a single wing or limb than they’d normally budget for an entire scratch-built mech suit.

Kione loves the mean looks. They make her feel smug as hell.

After the repair, she finds reasons to stick around. Kione takes a quick job escorting a rebel recovery crew to go haul Ancyor in for reconstruction. It’s the kind of thing she’d normally turn her nose up at but for now, all’s quiet in the sector. No other merc work going. She could simply leave, of course, but…

But then, one day, they let her see Sartha.

They think regular contact with a friend will help with her readjustment. That’s what the doc who comes to Kione’s quarters to fetch her tells her. He says a bunch of other stuff too, but Kione doesn’t really hear it. As they walk to the private medical room they’ve set Sartha up in, there’s a growing ringing in Kione’s ears, like a bomb just went off too close. And she’s realizing she’s nervous. Maybe more nervous than she’s ever been.

Why? What the hell is wrong with her?

Once they reach Sartha’s door—locked, still—Kione starts really wishing she’d listened to the doctor. She doesn’t know what to expect behind the door. Will it be the animal? The sobbing wreck? Or will she be her old self again? She’s not sure, and the anxiety is murder. As the key turns in the lock, part of the merc wants to reach out and stop the door from opening. She’s not sure she can bear it if Sartha is all wrong again. Kione can’t seem to breathe right. It’s as close to a panic attack as she’s ever had.

Before she can move, it’s too late. The door opens. Kione finds herself stepping inside. Oh. What’s her face doing? She needs to make sure she’s got the right look on her face. Whatever the hell that is.

And then Kione sees her.

Immediately, her heart almost stops. Gods, she looks so much like she used to. Not so battered and bruised. No muzzle, thank fuck. And the look on her face! She’s calm. Maybe the docs have her on something; Kione doesn’t care. She feels like she’s going to burst with gratitude. Sartha looks so pretty when she’s like this. When she’s calm.

Her friend is going to be OK.

Sartha turns to look at her. She smiles, and the spell is broken.

Why does her smile look so fragile? That’s not right.

“Hey, Kione,” Sartha says. Her voice sounds fragile too. Hoarse. She’s been crying, and not long ago. Kione can tell as much. She knows a brave face when she sees one.

“Hey,” Kione replies awkwardly. She doesn’t know what else to say, so she just goes to sit at Sartha’s bedside.

“They told me what happened,” Sartha tells her. She widens her smile—or tries to. The effort is palpable. It’s not real. She doesn’t mean it. “Thank you for saving me.”

***

A few weeks later, Kione and Sartha are in the canteen to get some hot food, and it’s like nothing ever happened. Everything is back to normal.

Yeah, as if.

Not really. Instead, everyone’s just pretending. That’s the latest directive from on high. Let’s all play pretend. Let’s all make believe like Sartha Thrace totally wasn’t captured and brainwashed into betraying everyone and everything she held dear, and isn’t still struggling to claw her way back to some semblance of sanity after a daring rescue mission spearheaded by the prettiest mercenary pilot of the war.

Kione’s sure they put it like that.

She fucking hates it. Everyone does, actually, and the ghoulish, paper-thin pretense of normality makes the rebel base feel even more dismal than it did before they decided to let Sartha out of quarantine. Oh, the rebels all gave it a hearty try—at first. They’d call out to her. Slap her on the back. Cheer for her. They tried throwing a celebration for her like they would any of their comrades who made it back from certain death. All nice. All normal.

Except for Sartha herself. She just couldn’t handle it right. She’d smile, and she’d say ‘hi’, and ‘thank you’, and all the rest of it. But it wasn’t right. It didn’t feel right. Her smiles never reached her eyes, and there was the slightest twinge in her face whenever one of her many adoring hero-worshipers gushed at her. Like it hurt. Like she didn’t want it. Like she didn’t want to be there at all, actually.

Naturally, everyone understood. They’d nod sympathetically to each other and console whichever poor soul Sartha had just inadvertently shut down. The excuses came easy. Don’t hold it against her. She’s been through so much. It must be so hard. She’ll be back to her old self soon.

But people never did have much patience for tarnished heroes. They need them to be big and bombastic and larger than life. Not the ghost at the feast. Not walking around like she’s a fucking zombie. The rebels all want to help. They really do. But after a while, they run out of things to say.

So, without really meaning to, they all give up. Little by little, just about every rebel soldier at the base slips into the groove of acting like everything is normal, but letting other people actually deal with Sartha until she’s better. In the canteen, there’s hearty, happy chatter all around, and you’d be forgiven for thinking it really was back to normal until you notice that everybody finds it easier not to look at Sartha as she sits down to eat. And that nobody volunteers to go sit at her table with her.

Except for Kione, obviously.

And it’s completely fine with her. As far as Kione is concerned, they can be outcasts together. Not like she fit in on base in the first place, and not just because her dark complexion marks her out as hailing from someplace else. Certainly not because she’s trans. Plenty of girls like her in the rebellion.

No, it’s the look. Rebels might not have a uniform, but they all trend toward looking equally rag-tag. Short hair, beat-up gear, faded camo. It’s what circumstances dictate—but not for Kione. She wears her long, sleek, black hair down because she can. She wears makeup and keeps her nails long and painted because she can. She goes everywhere in her brand-new, high-tech, haptic-feedback piloting jumpsuit because she can.

Kione loves ostentation. She’s in it for the money, but she’s no miser. Spending money on herself is her one and only hobby. And the glares it earns her are just as sweet as the flushed, sidelong looks of admiration she gets from people who think she doesn’t notice.

“Gods,” Kione complains to Sartha, as she watches that day’s stew drip slowly from her spoon back onto her tray. “It doesn’t get any better, does it? Remind me to get some nicer grub shipped out. Sartha, did the imperials give you better food than this?”

One of the rebels sitting at the next table winces. Kione stares murder at them until they pretend not to be paying attention.

“I… don’t remember,” Sartha replies. Kione sighs. She says that about a lot of things.

“Guess you probably weren’t paying much attention to the food,” Kione says quietly and starts to eat.

There’s this weird tic Sartha has when she sits down with her meal. Instinctively, she reaches up to her face. Like she’s trying to take something off. And she’s always slow to get started. Clumsy, somehow. The first time Kione took her to the canteen, she spent a long time just staring at her knife and fork. Like she barely knew what they were. Like she was no longer used to eating with them.

Kione doesn’t wanna think about it.

“Bet they have nicer quarters, at least,” Kione adds, between mouthfuls. “They gotta. Tons of room in those big-ass imperial fortifications. And how were the beds? Any softer than the ones we get?”

Sartha offers her one of those faint, ghostly smiles. “I don’t-“

“Remember,” Kione finishes. She sighs again.

She’s heard that a lot. So have the rebel doctors. Apparently, Sartha doesn’t open up about her experiences. At all. Claims she doesn’t remember where she was, or what she was doing, or what it was like, or even why she was out traveling alone in Ancyor when Kione and the others intercepted her. That’s no good, and it’s why Kione has made it her personal mission to wheedle a few details out of her friend. You’ve gotta talk about this stuff, right? That’s what Kione figures. That’s the only way it gets better.

And… she is getting better. Kione has to believe that. The doctors seem to. Obviously Sartha’s traumatized as hell. You don’t need to wear a white coat to figure that much. It’s common enough, albeit not at this level. But after a couple of weeks of freak-outs, Sartha seems to have settled down. Yeah, she doesn’t talk about what’s going on with her, but what are you gonna do? Keep her locked up? Better to let her live again. Time heals all wounds, or whatever.

Kione really does wish Sartha seemed like she was trying, though. At healing. At talking. At anything. But she doesn’t engage—not with the shrinks, not with her comrades, barely with Kione. Whenever she’s out of her quarters, she just goes through the motions of a basic routine. Whenever she’s in her quarters, Kione isn’t sure she does anything at all.

Honestly, it really gives her the creeps.

“Hey, uh,” Kione attempts. “Have they said anything about getting you back in the saddle?”

Sartha freezes up. This time, even Kione winces from the look on her face.

“I don’t think…” Sartha replies slowly, unhappily. “They don’t… think that would be a good idea. Yet.”

Kione snorts as she takes a drink. “Sounds like bullshit to me. I mean, sure, you’re still a little unsteady. Whatever. But you gotta get back in the action! Get back in Ancyor. At least get the feel of it again.”

She’s never seen Sartha more uncomfortable. It makes sense, of course, and her obvious pain makes Kione want to drop it. But no. She needs to push her friend, at least a little. If she won’t, who will?

“Well…” Sartha attempts another smile. “Unfortunately, Ancyor took a real beating. I don’t think it can-“

“Nope,” Kione interrupts. “They’ve already got it patched up for you. Not quite battle-ready, but close enough for a joyride.”

“But…” It’s painfully obvious Sartha is casting about for another excuse. “Uh…”

“C’mon.” Kione reaches across the table and claps a hand on Sartha’s arm. She smiles at her. “You’ve got this, OK? I still remember that time we were side-by-side at Hebros Ridge. You were like a dancer out there. I still can’t believe some of the things you could make that mech of yours do. You don’t just lose something like that. I promise: once you’re back behind the controls, you’re gonna feel right as rain.”

“You… actually believe that?”

The forlorn look in her eyes makes Kione’s chest hurt.

“Of course I do,” Kione answers lightly.

She does. She needs to.

Sartha looks down. After a moment, the smile that appears on her face is almost genuine. “Hebros, huh? That was one of the good ones.”

“Fuck yeah!” Kione laughs. She’s keen to encourage this. “You gave them hell, Sartha.”

“I guess I did.” Sartha loses herself in the memory for a moment, before refocusing on Kione. A wolfish grin comes to her face. “You weren’t so bad yourself. As I recall.”

Kione’s face settles into a smirk. “You’re damn right. And, as always, I looked better doing it.”

“Maybe you should worry less about how you look,” Sartha retorts slyly. “And more about how you fight. What was your tally, that first day?”

“Jeez,” Kione says flippantly, although she’s grinning from ear to ear. Never been happier. The rhythm of their old banter comes back effortlessly. “Flexing the kill count?”

“C’mon,” Sartha needles. It’s almost genuine. Almost there. She still feels like she’s performing herself but in all the weeks since the rescue, it’s never been closer. “What was it?”

“Fourteen,” Kione tells her. She throws her hands up. She knows what’s coming.

“Nineteen,” Sartha announces, motioning at herself. She looks proud of herself. Gods, it’s so heartening. Then, she tilts her head a little. “Though, it’s funny. I seem to remember you saying something else to that cute engineer you pulled off the line to service your mech.”

“Whoa, whoa, whoa!” Kione almost chokes on her stew for laughing. “Look, hey. You can’t blame a girl for-”

“’Thirty’,” Sartha quotes, imitating Kione when she’s laying it on a little too thick. “’Maybe forty. It’s hard to count out there, you know? On the battlefield. In the chaos. I wasn’t there to count. I was there to win.’”

“Gods! Alright, already!” By now, Kione is blushing a little. “Well! It worked, didn’t it?”

“It worked,” Sartha agrees. A little of that old cockiness comes roaring back to the fore. “But it didn’t stop you slipping out of her bunk and coming to mine as soon as I called, did it?”

Now, Kione is blushing much, much more than just a little.

Yeah, they had hooked up. A couple of times. A few times. Every time Sartha wanted.

Kione had a certain reputation as one of those ace pilots. The kind that cruised newbie pilots, mechanics, and support staff without a hint of shame. But with Sartha it was… different. She scratched an itch those other girls couldn’t, even if it made Kione flustered as hell to admit it. She was special. And if she’d ever needed to take a turn on the bottom bunk, so to speak, she’d never let on about it.

Kione was pretty sure Sartha had absolutely zero inclination in that direction. As in all things, she was one in a million.

“Whatever,” Kione choked out lamely. “Not my fault she was a bad lay. I wanted some decent company.”

“Decent company.” Sartha cocked an eyebrow. “I remember you being a little more enthusiastic about it than that, Ki.”

Her flirting was getting Kione even more worked up than usual. It had been a while, she guessed. Maybe sometime soon, if Sartha was starting to feel better…

Gods. She needed to stop blushing right in the middle of the canteen. It was going to ruin her reputation.

“A-anyway,” Kione recovered. “See? Isn’t this just like old times? I’m telling you, it’s the same deal with piloting. We just gotta get you back on the horse. How about some time I take you down to the training ground? We can spar, just like we always used to. Make a competition of it.”

Sartha looks away. “Maybe.”

The cocksure grin slips from her face, and Kione is left feeling like she said the wrong thing until she notices just how quickly the mood passes from Sartha. In its wake, she’s numb. Thin. Ethereal, like she’s made of nothing more than smoke. Kione is struck by the disconcerting impression that Sartha hadn’t been back to her old cocky, flirty self at all, not even for a moment. She’d just been trying it out, the way you’d try out an old piece of clothing to see if it still fit.

And it didn’t.

Before Kione can get to grips with that, things get worse: a fangirl shows up.

“Hey, Captain Thrace,” says the bright young thing. Kione all but groans at the look of wide-eyed, nervous awe on her face. “Mind if I… uh… is this seat taken?”

“Actually, yeah, we were just-“ Kione starts to say, but it doesn’t matter, because Sartha is already nodding mechanically, and she’s the only one the fangirl has eyes or ears for.

Kione hates it when this happens. She thought they’d all given up by now. They didn’t want to make Sartha uncomfortable, and they certainly didn’t want their own fantasies shattered. Maybe this one was a new transfer.

“Captain,” the fangirl says, scrambling to sit down at Sartha’s side. “My name’s Pela. I just wanted to say, I’m so glad you’re back with us. When I heard—I mean, when we all heard—it was like a miracle. I always knew you were still out there. You wouldn’t go down that easily, right?”

Under the table, Sartha’s leg starts shaking.

“I don’t know what we’d do without you, Captain.” The fangirl is still talking. Why is she still talking? “I saw you fight, in Oltenia. You hit the battlefield like… like a falling star.”

Kione is mildly impressed she can come out with something like that without a hint of self-awareness. The ridiculous, starstruck on her face is faintly nauseating.

“Like an angel!” Pela adds suddenly. That’s even worse. “I just know that with you on our side, we’re gonna win this. All the way. We’re never giving up. Not with Sartha Thrace on our side!”

She sounds like she thinks she’s cheering Sartha up. Kione wonders if she knows all she’s doing is cheering herself up. Can’t she see how miserable Sartha looks? She’s staring down at the table like she wishes she could get down and hide under it.

“I… heard from the others that you’ve been having a hard time, since you got back.” Pela adopts what she probably thinks is a patient, understanding, heartfelt tone. “Gods, I can’t even imagine what they put you through. It must have been awful.”

She pauses. Waiting, perhaps, for something affirming from Sartha. A nod. A smile. There’s nothing. Sartha is trying not to be here. It’s working. Kione can see it. Her eyes are vacant. She has shrunk into herself.

The fangirl powers on.

“But!” Pela plucks up all her optimism. All her faith in Sartha. Gods, it’s like this girl was born to be in some kind of cheesy propaganda flick. “It’s all going to be OK. You stuck with us. Got us through some tight spots. So we’re all sticking with you, 'cause we know that before long, you’re gonna be back on the front lines, saving all our asses and getting your own back on those imperial freaks. Yeah?”

Can’t she see Sartha’s about to break down and cry? Or… actually, Kione isn’t sure she’s going to cry. It might be something worse. There’s a light in her eyes again, but it’s something twisted. Anxious dread paralyzes her for a little too long, and part of her can’t help but want to see what Sartha might do.

Sartha opens her mouth. “Please. Stop. I’m no-

“Hey!” Kione springs to life. She kicks the underside of the table, and suddenly all eyes are on her. “What are you, stupid? We’re in the middle of something here.”

The way Pela’s expression becomes jagged ice as she turns her head to look at Kione is all too familiar. Kione thrives on that contempt. Revels in it. Leaning back in her seat and smirking comes so naturally to her.

“Maybe you should have said so,” the fangirl hisses. “Now I’m talking to her.”

“Figured it was obvious,” Kione says lazily. “Apparently I overestimated you.”

“You’re just a gun for hire, right?” the fangirl retorts. “Captain Thrace is one of us. We’re her friends. Maybe you’re the one who doesn’t belong here.”

Kione’s grin grows so wide it almost hurts. “Yup, I’m a gun for hire. Exactly. That’s why I was just talking to Sartha here about how much saving her sorry ass is worth. I figure that’s gotta earn me a sweet bonus, right?”

The young rebel bares her teeth, and audibly sucks air through them. “Scum,” she spits.

Kione looks her dead in the eyes. “You’re damn right.”

What can you say to someone that shameless? Nothing, and Sartha’s fangirl knows it. She looks at Kione roughly the same way you’d look at a slug, before turning around and making for another table. No doubt so they can all gossip about how disgusting she is.

Good riddance.

Kione is more than used to their disgust. Even if it bothered her, it would all be worth it to hear Sartha say, in a quiet, fragile voice: “Thank you, Kione.”

“Don’t mention it,” Kione nods.

These people don’t know how to help her. The shrinks, the fans—they’re all the same. Sartha’s just a hero to them. Kione’s no psych doctor, but if anyone has a clue what Sartha needs, it’s her.

“Hey,” Kione says. Time to stop hesitating. “Tomorrow, I’m taking you down to the training ground. Just you and me, no spectators. You need a good sparring session. And I’m not taking ‘no’ for an answer.”

Kione is absolutely sure a little taste of mechanized combat will bring her friend back to herself.

No matter what it looks like, Sartha’s still got that dog in her.

***

Kione really doesn’t take ‘no’ for an answer and so despite Sartha’s many attempted evasions, the next day Kione manages to corner her and drag her down to the hangar. There, both Ancyor and Theaboros are being rebuilt. You wouldn’t want to take either of them into a warzone, not yet, but they’ll do for a light workout.

As soon as she sees it, Sartha stops in her tracks and stares at Ancyor like it’s her open coffin. It’s clear as day that she wants to bolt, but she knows Kione won’t stop pushing her. And besides, Kione has one hell of an incentive to offer.

“Beat me, one-on-one,” she says, as she beckons Sartha into the hangar, “and I’ll drop the merc work. I’ll join the rebels. For real.”

That gets her attention.

It’s been an issue between them for years. Sartha keeps asking her to. Not demanding; that would be easy to blow off. Just asking and encouraging, in that annoying way of hers. Preying on what pesky few angels of Kione’s better nature remain. Somehow, she makes the idea of belonging to a cause sound nice. Sometimes Sartha Thrace is awfully pretty, and that makes her extremely persuasive.

Thus far, Kione has invariably managed to remind herself that money can buy pretty, too.

“OK,” Sartha replies. It’s like she’s searching for the enthusiasm she knows she should feel. “Fine. You’re on.”

“That’s more like it!”

Kione can’t stop grinning as she clambers into Theaboros and leads Sartha, inside Ancyor, down the brief trek that leads from the hangar to the small hollow the rebels have been using to train, its muddy ground long since stamped flat and hard by the footfalls of war machines. Grinning is stupid, really, given everything she has to lose. But Kione can’t help it. Getting to fight Sartha is always a treat. Even when she loses, which is always.

In this instance, though, it’s a calculated bet. Kione has been keeping tabs on the repairs. Theaboros is in better shape than Ancyor. Sartha is one hell of a pilot, but the gulf between them isn’t so great that mech performance won’t level the playing field. As their encounter on the bridge proved, Kione can beat her if the circumstances are right.

That particular fight didn’t count, obviously. Kione had other pilots on her side. Those ruin the sanctity of a duel. It’s not a victory she can be proud of. Not her precious first win against Sartha Thrace.

She isn’t just a friend. She’s a rival.

“Got your mech legs back?” Kione asks over the radio.

Think so, Sartha replies. She sounds deeply reluctant. That’s fine. She’ll warm up to it.

Sartha never lets her down. Sartha never gives Kione a poor performance. Kione knows her first win isn’t going to come easy.

“Weapons check?” Kione prompts, as the two of them lumber into position at opposite ends of the training ground. It’s a little insulting to ask of an ace, but it won’t hurt to make sure Sartha’s doing it right.

Check, comes the reply.

A pause. Kione’s heart is already pounding. She hadn’t quite realized how much she was looking forward to this. “Ready?”

A longer pause. Then: Ready.

“Then let’s go!”

It begins at once. Not the shooting. Not the lunging and charging. Just moving. Jockeying for position. Playing for what little terrain there is to play for. In Kione’s hands, Theaboros moves like a ballet dancer. Those rebel mechanics did right by her babygirl in the end, and the feedback from her new jumpsuit, electronically jacked in, makes movement and balance easier than ever. The flight system isn’t fully online, though, so Kione restricts herself to light hops and short jumps, using the maneuvering thrusters to change direction rapidly as she moves.

Sartha, by contrast, looks a little clumsy. A little slow off the mark. But she’s starting to find a rhythm. She matches her movement to Kione’s, and the brute strength in Ancyor’s legs is every bit a match for Theaboros’s dainty agility. Before long, the two mechs are spiraling toward one another, each pilot holding back just a little. Daring the other to make the first move. Playing chicken.

Gods, Kione thinks. Doing this with Sartha is almost as good as getting fucked by her.

Kione can’t contain her eagerness for long. She opens up with a quick spray from Theaboros’s chest-mounted vulcan guns—dummy rounds, obviously, and in any case, these guns are low caliber. More to distract or disorient than to damage. Sartha steps out of the way, although not cleanly. Surprisingly, Kione’s gunfire rakes up Ancyor’s leg, even if it does little more than scratch the paint.

When Sartha opens up in reply, Kione lets out a great whooping cheer as she wheels back out of the line of fire. It feels amazing to dance with her rival once more.

This is the Sartha she’s been missing.

Which means it’s time to stop holding back. Especially now the two mechs are almost at arm’s length from one another. At Kione’s command, Theaboros brandishes its spear. Even powered-down, it can do some real damage; Kione is prepared to pull her punches, but it would be a crying shame not to gun her mech’s engines all the way as she boosts straight at Sartha.

Kione brings her spear down into a low guard as if she’s ready to throw all her weight into a great, wide sweep. But that’s just a feint. The moment Sartha moves—to evade, it looks like, not parry—Kione throws herself forward with reckless abandon and thrusts, leading with the blunt butt of the spear. In the hands of a mech like Theaboros, anything is a weapon.

The force of the impact is more than enough to buckle armor plates and shove Ancyor off-balance. Kione seizes on the moment, leaping atop her opponent and spinning the spear so she can plant its tip at one of Ancyor’s vulnerable joints and claim her…

Victory?

Wait, what the fuck?

It worked. Why did that work?

Her Sartha isn’t supposed to fall for something like that.

Well, Sartha radios in after a moment. The way she actually sounds relieved churns Kione’s gut. I guess you finally got me, Ki.

Is that what she thinks Kione wants to hear? It’s the very last thing.

“Damn,” Kione says lightly, even though she’s gripping Theaboros’s controls hard enough her knuckles are turning white. “Mechanics must have fucked up some of your servos. Why don’t you run a quick diagnostic, see if we can get you a quick fix?”

There’s a long pause before the radio crackles again. Kione, that’s not… Anycor’s fine, I just…

“Got it.” Kione cuts her off before she can say something that’ll hurt. She steps backward in Theaboros, giving her rival some room. “You’re still warming up, right? You’ve been out of action for a hot second. That’s my bad. You’ll get me next time. That one didn’t count, yeah? Let’s say best two out of three.”

Kione, Sartha pleads. She sounds choked up. She sounds pathetic. I-I don’t think I can do this anymore.

The air of finality in her voice freezes Kione’s blood. “What does that mean?” she demands. “Hey. Sartha. What does that mean?”

These long pauses are killing her. In the intervals between radio messages, something hot and angry wraps tighter and tighter around her chest.

I don’t know, Sartha replies eventually. Just forget it. For now, how about this: you win.

“No!” It boils over, and Kione punches the screen in front of her. Hard enough to crack the glass. Hard enough to bruise her knuckles. “Don’t fucking say that to me, Sartha. That’s not how this goes. You don’t go down this easy, right? You’re better than this. You are so much better than this. So I don’t ‘win’ until I put you in the dirt after a real goddamn fight. Understand me?”

OK.

After a long moment, Kione realizes that’s all she’s going to get out of her friend. And she still isn’t moving Ancyor. Kione hangs her head. She’s ashamed of her anger, and even more ashamed of Sartha.

“Whatever. Let’s just head back.”

The trek back up to the hangar is silent and miserable. Kione can’t imagine what’s going on in Sartha’s head. She just knows the inside of her own is nothing but static.

Guilt? Is that what she feels? That’d make sense, yeah. Clearly she pushed Sartha too hard.

But if she doesn’t, who will? Who else is even trying? Not Sartha, that’s for sure. She’s not trying with Kione, or with the rebel docs, or with her old comrades. It’s like all she wants to do is fade away into nothingness.

Well, too bad. Kione isn’t going to let that happen.

So when she dismounts from Theaboros, the first thing Kione does is storm down the mounting pier toward Ancyor, fists clenched.

“What the fuck was that?” she demands, as soon as Sartha’s feet touch down on the deck.

“I…” Sartha doesn’t know what to say, that much is obvious. “Kione, I’m sorry. I just…”

“You can do better than that!” Kione yells. Thank the gods there’s no support crew around to stare. “You have done better than that, time and time again. So what gives?”

“I don’t know.” Sartha shivers uncomfortably.

“C’mon.” Kione won’t let her off that easily. “What? Am I just not worth trying for? Huh?”

“I didn’t say that!” Sartha looks so wounded. Somehow that just makes Kione angrier.

“Then what?” Kione demands again. “I’m your friend! I’m here for you! So just tell me!”

Sartha squeezes her eyes shut as she tries to summon an answer. Her shoulders tense, then relax as she decides, Kione senses, to offer her something.

“I can’t, because… the one who’s supposed to sit up there? In that?” Sartha nods up at Ancyor. “That’s not me anymore. I mean, it is. Kind of. But it’s not… it’s not Sartha, you know? There’s like… there’s this other part of me. Part I wasn’t even aware of until they… you know. But now it’s gone. I can’t find it anymore. Trying to pilot now, without that? It just feels so wrong. Hell, everything feels wrong.”

Kione nods slowly as she tries—and fails—to process that. Frankly, it doesn’t make a lick of sense to her. It doesn’t match up with the Sartha she’s known for years now. Another part of her? What the hell does that mean?

“OK.” Kione rubs at her temples. “There’s another part of you, and you need it to pilot again. Right. Sure. And how exactly are you supposed to get at this other part?”

Sartha looks away. “I don’t think… I’m not sure you’d understand.”

“Try me.”

“I… I need…” Kione’s never heard Sartha speak with such reluctance. “I think I need… H… um… H…”

She cuts herself off. She can’t quite bring herself to say it. Not to Kione’s face. Both of them hear the unspoken word of reverence on Sartha’s lips.

Her.

The last of Kione’s patience vanishes. Her anger doubles. She doesn’t know why she let this self-pitying nonsense go on for even this long.

“Stop bullshitting me,” she seethes. Sartha flinches at her anger. “Look, I get it. They did something to you. But you need to get past it, alright? Stop indulging whatever sick shit they planted in your skull.”

“But I…”

“Stop!” Kione yells. Another flinch. Kione can’t believe she’s actually scaring Sartha Thrace like this. It feels like shit. But it kind of feels really good, too. “Gods, what’s wrong with you? Don’t you get it? All these people,” she gestures toward the rest of the rebel position, “need you! They need you in fighting shape. Doesn’t that mean anything to you anymore?”

“Right.” Sartha grips her own arm. She looks like a child being scolded. “Sorry.”

“They believe in you. They need someone to believe in.” It pours out of Kione before she can stop it. “They need a hero, Sartha! That’s you, got it? Remember that girl, yesterday, in the canteen? She needs you. You didn’t see how bad it was when you got scooped up. People like her, they don’t have a lot of reasons for hope. They’re clinging to whatever they have, just to keep fighting every day. If they don’t have their heroes, they have nothing—and the rebellion falls apart. So you need to start acting like one again.”

“Right. Sorry.”

“Gods, and then there’s me! What do you think I’m still here for, Sartha? For the food? For the company? No! I’m here for you. Understand? You. Cause you, with your crazy fucking heroics, make me feel like selling myself out on this side of the war isn’t a complete and total lost cause. Am I just wasting my fucking time, Sartha? Or are you gonna start giving me something to believe in again?”

“Right. Sorry.”

Then it clicks. The repetition. The look on Sartha’s face. It’s beyond shame. It’s simple resignation.

She’s not accepting what Kione’s saying. She’s barely listening. She’s just waiting for it to stop.

Another surge of anger. Kione wants to hit Sartha so bad. Before she can, she snaps: “Whatever. Just get the fuck out of my sight.”

Mercifully, she does. Without another word, Sartha turns and trudges away—no doubt simply back to her quarters, to stare at a wall until Kione comes to fetch her out again. It’s pathetic. Not that Kione’s in any better state. She’s left standing there in the hangar, hands balled into fists, eyes threatening to brim up with tears.

What is she, a stupid kid? Kione does her best to swallow the feeling. No way. She’s not like the others. She’s not a rebel. Not a hero-worshiper. Just a merc. She goes where the money is. Sartha’s a friend, and that’s it.

Just a mercenary. That’s right. What’s she getting so worked up about?

It’s as easy as that to stop feeling anything much. But clearing her head isn’t so simple. Kione’s thoughts are chasing each other around in circles as she tries to get a grip on whatever split-identity nonsense Sartha was spouting. She can’t let it go.

Then she notices the distinct hum of Ancyor’s electronics, still running.

It’s almost funny. Sartha truly is off her game if she’s left all the secondary systems switched on. That’s the kind of rookie mistake that makes you the laughingstock of boot camp.

It does get Kione curious, though. She remembers something from one of the rebel debriefings about how Ancyor’s computer systems have been seriously overhauled. Their engineers can’t even get into most of the files. They’re locked out with heavy-duty imperial codes.

But if Sartha plugged in her authorization…

Impulse takes over. Kione clambers up into the cockpit. It should feel like a violation to sit there in Sartha’s place, but she’s already past that. She turns her attention to the viewscreens. Everything’s unlocked. Jackpot—or not. After a cursory inspection, it’s clear most of the files are hopelessly corrupted. Kione shouldn’t be surprised, after the beating Ancyor took. She’s about to give up when something intact catches her eye.

A two-way recorded vid transmission, timestamped to the very moment Kione and the rebels ambushed Sartha on the bridge.

Privacy be damned. Kione hits play.

The recording starts up. Sartha’s voice starts playing, and the viewscreen shows her a grainy, flickering, distorted image that only slowly resolves into the shape of a woman.

At once, Kione knows. It’s her.

Sartha’s imperial handler.

‘Taking fire,’ Sartha is saying. ‘Ambush at waypoint three. I see five hostiles.’

‘Only five? Interesting.’

The handler’s voice sends shivers down Kione’s spine. She’s never heard a woman sound quite so bloodlessly cold. She’s wearing an imperial uniform of some kind, although not one Kione’s familiar with. It’s all long, black, unnervingly neat leather, complete with a crisp visor cap that makes her sleek, near-white hair all the more striking. The damage to the recording makes her face hard to make out clearly, but Kione can’t quite shake the irrational feeling that those ice-cold eyes aren’t looking at Sartha, weeks in the past. They’re looking right at her, right now.

Kione wonders: is this the woman who messed up her Sartha this badly? If so, she should hate her for it. Hate isn’t what she feels, though. Only an instant, itching fascination.

‘Permission to engage?’

For as curt and clinical as Sartha sounds on the recording, there’s still more passion in her voice than Kione has heard from her since the rescue. More than passion. Purpose. Reverence.

Love.

‘Granted,’ the handler says. And then she says something else, in a different, special voice, one underscored with significance that’s as palpable to Kione as it clearly was to Sartha. ‘Sartha. Off The Leash.’

Kione’s eyes go wide as the cockpit is filled with the sounds of growling and snarling.

***

After a quick detour to the infirmary storeroom, Kione is headed for Sartha’s quarters with thunder in her veins. She’s beyond reason. Beyond second-guessing herself. She needs answers.

How could Sartha let that woman do that to her?

Kione doesn’t know exactly what she just heard, but she knows some sick sex shit when she sees it. She knew it had been bad, whatever brainwashing the imperials had pulled on her. She hadn’t realized Sartha had been getting her rocks off the entire time.

That’s what you need, Sartha? That? You couldn’t have just asked me?

The sounds of Sartha barking and growling like a dog at that handler’s command are seared eternally into her memory. Even after her friend’s pitiful performance in their duel, she hadn’t believed Sartha Thrace could sink that low. Yeah, she was never a saint. But she always had dignity. She had standards. Kione had always counted on her for that much.

Now, all that seemed like it meant nothing at all.

Kione’s broken faith is curdling into something anguished and dark. Her grip on the small, brown bag in her hand is so tight it hurts. She’s tried reminding herself that it wasn’t Sartha’s fault. She was captured. Brainwashed. That doesn’t help. It doesn’t soothe the pain of betrayal. Kione needs answers. Real answers.

She needs to see who Sartha Thrace really is.

When she reaches Sartha’s quarters, Kione doesn’t bother to knock. She just pushes her way in. She finds Sartha lying down and staring at the wall—not even on the bed, gods, on the fucking floor—but once she sees Kione, she scrambles to her feet quickly enough. The look of numb shock on her pretty face is deeply satisfying.

“Damn, Sartha,” Kione sneers. “Didn’t realize that if I wanted to get you to come running to my bunk for a change, all I needed to do was cry ‘heel’.”

All at once, Sartha goes pale. “You-“

“Yeah, I saw. In Ancyor. Shut down the computers for you, by the way. Wouldn’t want anyone else checking out the comms log, huh?”

“Gods…” Sartha whispers.

Finally, she looks ashamed of herself. Good. She deserves to.

“No wonder you weren’t exactly thrilled to get rescued,” Kione laughs. “Guess they had better doggy treats over there. Did they throw a stick? I should’ve thought to try that.”

“It’s not like that!” Sartha protests.

“Then what was it like?” Kione retorts instantly. “You won’t talk to anyone. Or let me guess: you don’t remember? Yeah, that must be easier than trying to explain how you let some imperial cunt make you her own, personal bitch.”

Without warning, something flashes across Sartha’s face. “Don’t call Her that!” she snaps.

The look in Kione’s wide, wounded eyes says it all. An instant later, Sartha clasps a hand over her mouth, horrified. At herself? At her conditioned loyalty for her handler?

Or simply at having given herself away?

“Traitor,” Kione hisses.

“I’m not.”

“As far as I can tell, you’re literally in bed with them,” Kione sneers. “Does it feel that good, Sartha? To get treated that way? Like a fucking animal?”

“I-it’s not like that!”

Sartha’s voice turns ever shriller as Kione’s words pierce her. Kione has never felt more powerful. Finally, she can make Sartha Thrace feel something. Finally, she can make her hurt.

“I guess it’s just her, then.” Kione advances further into Sartha’s room, driving her back with each step. “She must be something special, huh? Tell me: what makes her so much better than me? What’s the trick? What does it take to get Sartha Thrace, the great hero of the rebellion, down on her knees?”

“W-what?” Wrong-footed, Sartha almost trips. She’s so clumsy now. Has she always been that way? That flawed?

“And you need her to pilot properly? Is that it?” Kione is addicted to twisting the knife. She’s not sure she’ll ever get enough. “So you can do it for them, but not for me. Not for your comrades. What do you call that, if not being a fucking traitor?”

“Stop. Please.”

That’s what she’s reduced to. Begging. Clasping her hands to her head like a child. As weeks of frustration pour out of Kione, she wonders why she ever let Sartha make her feel anything at all, if this is all she is once you peel back the layers.

“Or this what you need, Sartha?”

Kione reaches into the bag in her hand and takes out Sartha’s muzzle. It had been easy to swipe from the infirmary. Not like anyone wanted to keep a close eye on it. As she thrusts it out toward Sartha, she watches the rebel ace go very still, eyes slowly widening.

“Go on. Give it a try,” Kione spits. “Maybe then you’ll be less of a joke.”

Sartha can’t stop looking at it. She’s clearly on the verge of breaking down. Part of Kione can’t bear to see it. Another part, the part that’s in the driving seat, wants to push her over the edge.

“Kione,” Sartha whimpers. “P-please.”

No. No, she really can’t stand how pathetic Sartha sounds. Where’s the bestial thing Kione fought on the bridge? At least that pilot is useful. At least she makes for a real fight.

Maybe there’s a way. A twisted flower of an idea blossoms in her head. At first it seems absurd, and too cruel to consider. But Kione’s realizing she can enjoy being cruel. And she also knows that if she never tries it, she’ll never stop wondering.

“Sartha,” Kione pronounces, trying her best to sound a little like that woman on the recording. To fill her voice with all the weight and power and dismissive authority she can summon. “Off The Leash.”

With those simple words, Sartha Thrace goes away. And the beast wakes up.

Now that she’s seeing it up close and personal, though, Kione’s realizing that it’s not quite a beast. Not exactly. A beast is strong, yes, and ferocious. But a beast is wild. The not-person waking before her now, a look of dull confusion in its faded eyes, is not wild. In their previous encounter, Kione was simply on the wrong end of the leash. Now she sees beyond the ferocity. She sees the chains. She sees the unfailing obedience, and the deep, gnawing need for a guiding hand.

Yes. This is a captive animal. It has been broken. Brought to heel.

It’s not a beast.

It’s a Hound.

“Fuck,” Kione gasps.

She should feel guilty, right? Whatever she’s just done to Sartha—that’s what they did. The imperials. It’s wrong. Obviously.

But if it’s so wrong, why is curiosity the only thing Kione feels?

“Sartha?” she ventures.

The only reply she gets is a faint, guttural noise from Hound’s throat. The look in the wretched thing’s eyes is guarded, but not necessarily hostile. More than anything, she’s confused. Why is Kione the one who’s calling it to attention? That’s not normal.

Kione gets it at once. Tame dogs don’t always take to a new master right away.

They need a firm, confident hand.

“Here,” she says, holding out the muzzle. “This is what you want, isn’t it?”

Hound is just as transfixed by the object as Sartha was—already, the two are distinct in Kione’s head—but differently so. Sartha seemed, at least on some level, horrified by it. Hound isn’t. Kione sees longing in its eyes. The muzzle is a comfort.

Hound glances up at Kione briefly. Studying her. Assessing her. Then, very slightly, it bows its head.

Kione has been around enough animals to know what that means. She reaches out and presses the cage of the muzzle over Hound’s mouth. Then, she slips the leather straps over its head and into position—one above her ears, one below. She tightens them until Hound lets out a faint gurgle of satisfaction.

As she steps back to assess her handiwork, Kione feels a little bit like a god.

It’s not dissimilar to how she feels when she’s piloting, really. The superiority. The certain knowledge that she has the power to reach down from the skies and snuff out any poor fool who catches her attention. It’s amazing, and Kione is far from the first pilot to feel its allure. But—as the rebels who hire her are always quick to remind her—it’s not her fight.

What she’s doing to Sartha? This is hers. It’s ownership.

Fuck. It’s hot. Really, insanely, mind-blowingly hot.

And like all newborn gods, Kione is desperate for a deeper taste of her own power.

"Hey,” she says. “You’ll do what I tell you, right?” She reaches out and thumbs the collar of Sartha’s jacket. “Take this off.”

There’s a little glint of something in Hound’s eyes. Like she’s bristling at a command from someone who isn’t her precious handler. Kione is ready to be challenged—but in the end, Hound simply nods and slips obediently out of her jacket.

As soon as her shoulders come into view, Kione is breathing hard. Gods, Sartha is hot. Athletic, as any soldier is, but compared to Kione she’s a little slight. Delicate, in a certain light—not that she’d ever allow Kione to experience her that way. She lets Kione touch her, but she won’t let anyone possess her.

Until, of course…

That thought fouls Kione’s mood once again. An urge rises within her: to wipe away the stain on Sartha’s honor with force. To erase what was done by overwriting it. To stamp her mark of ownership on Sartha Thrace so deep there’s no trace of anyone else’s.

Kione barely knows what that would actually mean. But she knows she wants it.

“Take this off.” She indicates Hound’s tank top. “And… the rest.”

Again, Hound tenses—but again, she obeys. As she tilts her head back to lift her top off over the muzzle, Kione notes that she must have done this many, many times before. That deepens the wound and the urge both. But for the moment, she’s entranced by the sight of Hound taking her clothes off at her command to reveal Sartha’s body.

It’s funny. Sartha was always the kind of top who’d make the other girl undress first.

Without her clothes, she looks different. Vulnerable. Kione’s anger ebbs away, drained by the simple spectacle of her friend’s body. Though there’s so many things she wants to do, all the merc can bring herself to do right away is reach out and place her hand on Hound’s side, stroking up and down a little.

She’s gentle. Something about that makes Hound growl. Kione guesses she isn’t used to gentleness. A pang of guilt hits her. Right. This is what they did. The bad guys. Stripping her. Touching her. Kione isn’t like them if she goes through with this, is she?

It’s an uncomfortable thought. One that gives her genuine pause. But then she remembers all that she’s seen of Sartha these past few weeks. Listless. Gray. Dead. She remembers what Sartha told her about needing her other side back. About needing Hound.

No. This is simply Kione giving Sartha what she needs.

It’s for the best, isn’t it?

Kione is reassured. And better still, she’s wondering if, perhaps, at last, she’ll be able to get her beloved friend back.

“Sartha,” Kione says quietly. “I missed you. I missed you a lot.”

Hound blinks, uncomprehending. Sartha is not here. Sartha does not want to be here.

“Without you, everything seems…” Kione sighs. “Whatever. Just… let me touch you.”

Hound will, of course. As unsettling as she finds Kione’s gentleness, she will not disobey. Compliance has long since been branded into the core of her being. Hound just stands there as Kione steps closer, hand moving across her skin; her side, then her hip, then her chest.

“Gods,” Kione breathes. This feels almost sacred.

Compared to the urges that possessed her mere moments ago, the things she wants now are almost embarrassing in their naivety. Her travesty of a duel with Sartha and the deeply fucked-up situation she’s created for herself have ruined her nerves. Amidst all that, she wants familiarity. She wants her friend. She wants what she always wanted.

To be the apple of Sartha Thrace’s eye.

“You’re beautiful,” Kione whispers. She’s always thought someone should tell Sartha that. She gets called so many other things: hot, cool, brave, heroic. But not beautiful. Nobody thinks to call her that.

Kione knows what she needs to hear. Even if right now, she’s not truly hearing it.

“Look at me,” Kione instructs. Hound, as ever, obeys. Kione moves in to kiss her before the absurdity of that gives her pause. They can’t kiss. The muzzle is in the way.

What does that leave? Just one thing. The craving that’s been burning a hole in Kione ever since she first dragged Sartha out of Ancyor’s wreck.

“Fuck me,” Kione orders Hound. “Just like you used to.”

Hound’s nostrils flare. She tilts her head. It’s not the kind of command she’s used to. Kione senses her reservations. She presses closer still, wrapping her arms tentatively around Hound’s naked body. Her warmth is intoxicating. Kione is overcome—and she notices Hound’s body beginning to react too. Clearly she isn’t the only one with pent-up needs.

“Don’t worry,” she whispers desperately. “I’m giving you permission. Y-you can be rough with me. You know it makes me feel good.”

Her breathy voice raises hairs on Hound’s neck. She can sense her words melting away Hound’s reluctance. She’s so close to giving Kione everything she wants.

Kione blinks, and before she can tell what’s happened, she’s face-down on Sartha’s cot.

Oh, right. Hound shoved her. Kione shivers rapturously at the realization. Finally. She gets to be Sartha’s again.

Before she can drink in the moment, Hound is on top of her, pressing down with her entire body weight. It forces all the air from Kione’s lungs, and as she tries to turn her face up to look at Hound, she finds her cold, hard muzzle pressing painfully against her cheek. Her ear fills with the sound of loud, voracious growling, and a splatter of drool falls on her skin.

Once more, she’s dealing with a beast.

Hound starts pawing and clawing at Kione’s clothes. Her desire is clear, though impossible to fulfill with Kione pinned down like this. Kione tries pushing up on Hound so she can get the room to slip out of her jumpsuit; Hound responds by reaching up and clamping her hand down hard around Kione’s neck.

Kione freezes up as her air is cut off. It’s more than just a warning. She can’t breathe. Kione’s combat instincts swell, but something even greater rises to quash them. A prey-urge. Something Sartha Thrace helped her to cultivate. It’s still. It’s an ocean. It pacifies her, and fills her with a paradoxical bliss. By the time Hound lets her breathe again, there is no part of Kione that wants to do anything but submit.

After several long moments, Hound lets up. Kione gasps for air, but she doesn’t move. She doesn’t try to rise or change position.

She knows her place in this dynamic now. Hound has given her a simple, brutal, unmistakable demonstration.

Hound growls and tugs at Kione’s jumpsuit again before clambering off of her. Without hesitation, Kione starts undressing herself. She gets to take better care of herself than most soldiers. Gotta spend all that cash on something. But it’s not confidence that makes her so eager to strip. It’s simple eagerness.

She wants Sartha to look at her. She needs it.

The need is burning through her. Kione’s dark skin is flushed a deep red, and her body heaves with every breath. Precum is already dripping from her cock.

She’s been rock hard ever since she dropped Hound’s trigger phrase.

While she strips, Hound is searching through Sartha’s bag. Kione already knows for what, but she still gasps in delicious shock when she sees it.

It’s the rebel hero’s strap-on and harness.

Hound slips the harness around her hips with practiced ease. By the time she’s tightened the straps and fixed her artificial cock in place. Kione is all but drooling for it. She aches, but she knows better than to make the first move. Hound has made that perfectly clear.

Hound approaches her, kneeling there on the bed. She surveys Kione for a moment as her hand works up and down, coating her strap with lubricant. Kione shivers. Not with cold, just with anticipation. She longs for Sartha’s touch; slow, teasing, coaxing her to a delicious, roiling boil of need so desperate it wipes away the stain of all her dark thoughts. Sartha knows just how to get a girl worked up. She’s as good as that as she is at piloting.

Kione only realizes something is wrong when Hound pounces atop her again and pushes her face into the pillow with more roughness and force than Sartha would ever have used.

Even if the coarse pillow hadn’t been there to muffle her words, Kione wasn’t sure she would have been able to mount any protest. She’s lost to subspace. Smothered by that heady bliss, words and thoughts come to her like treacle. But as Hound begins to mount her, Kione becomes dimly aware that this isn’t what she had wanted. It doesn’t feel the way it once had.

This isn’t her Sartha.

Then Hound levels her strap against Kione and pushes down into her with her whole weight, and even that thought slips away as Kione howls her moans into the bed.

There is nothing gentle about the way Hound fucks her. Certainly nothing romantic. It’s passionate, yes, but more like an animal’s mating rut than a lover’s touch. Now that Kione has given her permission, Hound is set on just one thing: discharging her urges. There is, though, a certain flair to the way she growls and snaps and rakes Kione’s back with her fingernails while she thrusts in and out of the mercenary.

Hound is enjoying it. Getting off on it. There’s no doubt about that. But it’s something else, too. Hound is used to this, and as more than a source of gratification.

As a way to establish dominance.

In a more lucid moment, Kione wonders about that. About what kind of sick carnival Sartha’s brainwasher orchestrated for her. Are there other hounds too? There are rumors about that, and Kione knows Sartha isn’t the only pilot to go MIA under strange circumstances. There have been a few by now. Aritimis, for instance.

In her mind’s eye, Kione can see it. Deep in the bowels of some imperial facility, captured pilots kept like dogs. Pitted against each other constantly. Fighting and fucking for position. Win or lose, it affirms their new, hollowed selves.

Kione shivers. It’s awful, of course. But she can see the elegance of the design.

Lucidity doesn’t last long. Kione orgasms fast. It’s been too long, and Hound is merciless. Even the bitter stimulation of the coarse bedsheets rubbing against her cock is more than Kione can take. Kione spews her mess all over them with a weak, whining gasp that doesn’t sound so different to some of Hound’s growls.

But Hound doesn’t stop there. Once she sets herself to the task, her endurance proves almost limitless. Her grunts and irregular howls grow steadily more ragged and high as she keeps fucking Kione, drawing pleasure herself from the rhythmic grinding of her strap against her cunt. It drives Kione to the next peak before she’s recovered, and then again, and again, and again, until her pleasure comes dry. Until she is spent.

Still, Hound keeps going.

Eventually, Kione becomes numb to the pleasure. She becomes a simple vessel for what Hound gives her. As much a brute animal as her top, grunting and moaning and humping as she’s pounded into the mattress over and over again. It feels awful. It feels amazing. Kione wants it to stop. She wants more. She wants everything. She wants the moment to go on forever, because at least now, even if it’s all wrong, Sartha Thrace is hers, hers, hers.

But it ends, of course. Once Hound’s strength is all spent, she simply collapses in a great heap atop Kione’s back. Kione is too exhausted to do anything but lie there beneath her, prone and still, as she feels loops of Hound’s drool dripping from the muzzle to stain her hair. With Hound’s face so close to her, she can hear all the little growls that come from her throat. Gleeful. Proud. Content, as only a fed, good, obedient dog can be.

Tears come into Kione’s eyes. She can’t quite tell if they’re good or bad.

For a long time, they lie there like that, wet and exhausted and expended. Kione drifts in and out of sleep and, as the bliss of submission slowly recedes from her, she starts to wonder, again, about the significance of what she’s just done.

Before she can come to terms with that, though, she realizes something else: it’s not Hound anymore. It’s Sartha again. And she’s crying.

Instinctively, Kione moves to free herself. She turns and props herself up so she can face Sartha. She’s ready to apologize. To prostrate herself in shame. She’s even ready for Sartha to hit her, or recoil from her in disgust and fear.

The last thing she expects is for Sartha to press desperately close to her, tears falling on Kione’s skin, as if the great hero of the rebellion is terrified of even an inch of distance existing between them.

Slowly, Kione’s anxieties fade. She wraps herself up around Sartha so she can embrace her while she cries, and hushes her sobs with sweet, comforting nothings until they ebb away like all the rest of her.

“Don’t worry,” Kione murmurs to Sartha as she lays her down to sleep, an unbidden sense of confidence moving through her. “I’ll save you, Sartha. I promise. I finally know how.”

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How to actually train a submissive, a how to guide

+Thoughts on the pervasive misinformation surrounding punishments and their usefulness.

Step 1. Make sure your submissive actually want to be trained. I'm into dom breaking, I'm into kidnapping, I'm into all types of situations where you forcibly change a person into the perfect submissive. But that's all fantasy, and they're fun fantasies to play out with willing participants. (Yeah i know this is pretty obvious stuff, everyone should know this already, but it is an important first step and it cant hurt to repeat)

Step 2. Pick a goal. The perfect example is getting them to take their pills at the same time each day. Its something they already want to do, its something that will benefit them greatly, its something that's very obviously pass/ fail, and its simple. Those are the criteria for a good behaviour to modify (with "want to do" flipped to "don't want to do" if its a behaviour you're trying to stop). The fewer of those things are true the more difficult its going to be to get the desired result, not impossible mind you but more difficult. As you and your submissive gain experience and become more comfortable with this process you can begin to modify more complex behaviours, but keep it simple to start.

Step 3. DO reward success, DO NOT punish failure. I'm gonna let myself rant about this at the end of this guide but for the moment just believe me when i say punishments are not a useful tool in training. So reward them every time the succeed. The best rewards are small things that stimulate the pleasure centre of their brain. Praise is a great place to start, stickers, snacks, tiny animal erasers, maybe shiny treasures if they have corvid like proclivities. Whatever it is make sure you give it to them personally, make sure you show you're genuinely happy with them, and make sure its something they cant get or aren't allowed to have otherwise. If the do fail (and they will sometimes) don't reward them, don't punish them, and don't let them punish themself. They want to be good for you, they will take failure hard. You need to make sure they know failure isn't a bad thing, everyone fails sometimes especially when starting to learn something. You need to reassure them that you're not angry or sad or upset and especially not disappointed.

Step 4. Be consistent. Reward them every time until they have a perfect record for a significant period of time. The specifics of this depend too much on the specifics of the behaviour and the reward so i wont try to give guidelines. Once they have that perfect track record start reducing the frequency of the rewards, stress to them that this isn't a punishment this is a really good thing. It means the training is working and they should be proud of themself and you are proud of them. Once you've weaned them off of the reward all together give them a big reward as a congratulations. And then sporadically reward them as a reminder that you're proud of them and to keep the habit strong. If the behaviour begins to drift you might need to go back and start rewarding them again, this shouldn't be seen as failure, its a normal part of training.

Step 5. Start again. Do they still want to be trained or are they happy with where they are? Is there another behaviour you want to modify? Is it time to try a more difficult modification? Do you need to switch up the reward to keep them motivated? Do you have the bandwidth to be consistent?

A note on brats. Specifically type 3 brats as described in THIS post. None of my advice changes. They still want to be good for you they just also want to play a fun game with you. Enjoy the fun game and train them to improve their lives. Just, don't try to train them out of being a brat, they're enjoying their game don't take away something that they enjoy, if you don't want a brat don't get with a brat.

Finally here is the as promised rant about punishment.

To the submissive reading this. You don't deserve to be punished, you never deserved to be punished. Even if you were a "problem" child you didn't deserve to be hurt for it. You still don't deserve to be hurt in ways you don't want to be. To the dominant reading this, yes you can rule through fear it is possible, but gods why?! If your ultimate goal isn't for your sub to be as happy and self fulfilled as possible, whatever that looks like for them, then what the fuck are you doing. And aside from that punishment isn't even an effective method of training. A dog kicked whenever it barks will learn to fear you and wont bark around you. A child spanked whenever you feel they've done something wrong will learn to resent you and will hide everything from you. An adult punished for stealing will learn to steal more effectively. Your submissive is no different from any of those examples. Kill the cop in your head, stop thinking of punishment as a legitimate means of control.

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the defiant princess

TW: hypnotic induction, mind control, restraints, belittling language

Ah, hello, your Majesty. It's so kind of you to grant me an audience. I hear you put up quite a fuss while my henchmen tried to make you comfortable in those ropes, but really, it was the only way I could get you to hear me out.

Don't worry, I understand. I know how busy you are. So many important decisions to make, wars to avoid, criminals to pardon, and peasants to help. It must be so, so... tiring to be so noble, wouldn't you say?

A witch? Yes, your majesty, I am a witch. An enchantress, to be precise, a very powerful one, and I'm only here to help advise you.

Oh, my, what language! That's the spitfire princess I've heard about! So brave and defiant. So admirable.  That's exactly what I wish to speak to you about, your Majesty.

You see, I'm ever so worried about you. All of that defiance must take a toll on you. A bratty, headstrong princess like you needs a firm guiding hand. Someone to help them rest and sleep. Someone to help them be more docile and obedient, just like a good princess should be.

It's so cute to see you struggle against those bonds. I assure you they're quite tight. And I can also assure you that there's no fighting what's about to happen to you. Soon, you're going to be far too drowsy and entranced to resist anything I say.

You don't want that? Well, what would you think if I showed you the gift I brought you? It's a lovely crystal pendant, a rare piece fit for a princess of your temperament. You could practically say it was made just for you. See how perfectly its facets catch the light as I spin it? So lovely, isn't it? So hard to tear your eyes away.

Here, let me help you, let me move it closer to your eyes, so that you may see it better. Oh, were you trying to look away just now? I think you'll find that's quite impossible. No, don't struggle. There's nothing to fear, nothing to worry about. Just a beautiful, captivating crystal. Just keep looking, keep watching the way it sparkles in the light, as I slowly swing it back and forth. Back and forth, in front of your eyes. So beautiful. So perfect. That's it, your majesty. 

I love the way the crystal looks reflected in your glassy, dazed eyes. I love the way your struggles against your bonds have become weak and lifeless. I love how I see you trying to tear your eyes away, but they keep flickering back to the crystal. 

Trying to hypnotize you? Your majesty, I'm not trying to hypnotize you. I am hypnotizing you.

You've probably realized this by now, but this is no ordinary crystal. It's a crystal that has the power to put people to sleep, even the most bratty, defiant princess. It has the power to make you docile and weak the more you watch it. No, don't try to look away. Keep looking, and let the crystal steal your will away. 

Doesn't it make you feel so very quiet and docile, the way your eyes keep following the crystal back-and-forth? Doesn't it make you feel weak and compliant, when you just can't seem to look away? 

Yes, very good, your majesty. Let the crystal drain your willpower, let it replace your strength with a slow, delicious drowsiness. Keep watching. Watching the crystal will make you feel sleepy, and you're already too docile and weak to do anything about it. Oh, no, don't argue. I think even you realize that you're falling under my spell. The crystal's light is making you so sleepy, so drowsy. And it's so hard to be defiant when you're so sleepy, isn't it?

With every slow swing of the crystal, you can feel its sleepy, hypnotic power tugging at your eyelids, making them so heavy, gently coaxing them to close. The crystal's light is soothing you to sleep, dear princess, easing you under my hypnotic spell. The more drowsy and dazed you become, the easier it is for my words to slip past your defenses. Your mind is getting so, so tired, so tired of struggling.

Oh, you say you aren't sleepy? Awww, poor sleepy princess. You don't sound like a brave, defiant woman any more. You sound like a sleepy little girl protesting being put to bed. Look at that cute little yawn. I think you are sleepy. I think you are very, very sleepy.  I think it's so adorable to see your heavy eyelids blink so slowly as you try to keep yourself awake.

It's okay, sweet princess, just keep watching the nice sleepy crystal. It's your gift, after all, a pretty little gift that will help put you to sleep, a perfect gift for a drowsy and docile princess who needs someone else to do all the hard thinking for her. 

What's that you said? I can't understand your groggy little mumbles, especially when you keep yawning like that. You're not going to fall under my spell? Your majesty, you have already fallen under my spell. There's no use in trying to resist. You're already half-asleep and so dazed and obedient. 

Yes, obedient. Look at how your eyes are still following the crystal, just as I told you to, even though you're so very drowsy now that you would love for your eyes to shut. It's hard to keep them open, isn't it? You'd much rather close your eyes and sink deeper under my power, but you can't stop watching the crystal, the crystal made especially to put bratty little princesses to sleep. It's almost like you want to be put into a deep, entranced, hypnotic sleep.

No, you say? Your futile struggles really are so cute. It's so funny to think of how you normally are, bellowing orders left and right, and here you are with me, so hypnotized and sleepy, mumbling out your tired little protests. This is so much better, isn't it? It feels so nice to be so, so hypnotized and sleepy. It feels so nice to feel yourself slipping under my spell, knowing that when I've completely hypnotized you, you won't have to worry about anything any more. 

Shh, shhh, princess, hush, it's okay. It's okay. It's okay to let yourself be hypnotized. You're so tired, aren't you? As endearing as it is to watch those pretty eyes glued to my crystal, I think you need to rest them now. Just for a minute. Your eyelids are so, so heavy now, as though they have little lead weights attached to them. Just let them shut. You'll feel so much better. Yes, that's a good princess. That's a good girl. That's a good little girl, a sleepy, docile, and dazed little girl.

Just relax now. Just keep your eyes closed. Are you still trying to fight sleep? Aww, you're such a cute little brat. You know very well you're too drowsy to resist. You're going to feel yourself beginning to slip off into dreamland. The beautiful hypnotic crystal and my soothing voice are going to send you to a lovely, sleepy place where you'll feel so docile and relaxed that you won't ever want to leave.

The part of your mind that wants to resist me is sleepy, too. It's falling asleep, little princess, I'm putting your resistance to sleep. You can picture it in your mind, the strong, defiant princess you normally are, sitting on her throne and commanding her servants. You can see her yawn, her eyelids droop and flutter. You can see me cradling her in my arms, carrying her off to bed. She's falling asleep, dear girl, that strong-willed part of you. There's nothing left to resist me with. You're too sleepy, too hypnotized.

Yes, just go to sleep, fall deep asleep, and let the hypnotic spell seal around your tired little mind. Your free will, your personality, your desires, all will fade away as my hypnosis locks you into deep, sweet sleep. It feels so, so good that you won't ever want to resist it. You're meant for obedience and sleep, princess. Your usual personality was just an act, wasn't it, an act to conceal your true nature as a docile, helpless girl. 

Here, let me fasten that crystal right around your pretty neck. It looks so perfect on you. It's going to keep you weak and docile and hypnotized. As long as you have this on, you'll be able to walk and talk and do your daily tasks, but your mind will secretly be completely asleep. You'll be able to hear my words no matter where you are, and my words will become your thoughts. As long as you have this on, you will obey me and only me, do you understand? Only my words will control you, no one else's.

Yes, princess, you want to remain asleep, you want to remain hypnotized. It feels good, doesn't it? Yes, so good. That drowsy little smile of yours says it all. You won't ever take the crystal off, will you? Of course you won't. You need the crystal to help you stay asleep. You need the crystal hypnotizing your docile little princess mind. You need it more than anything.

And you won't let anyone else take it off either. No, that would be awful. You don't want that at all. Even if some idiotic hero tells you the crystal is dangerous, you need to keep wearing it no matter what. If someone tries to take the crystal from you, you'll resist them with all your might, won't you? Yes, that's right. 

And this one is very, very important, my sleepy little princess, so I'm going to need you to listen carefully. You can't tell anyone else about the crystal, or about what happened here. You'll keep the crystal hidden under your dress so that they won't question you. You can't let anyone know you're asleep and hypnotized. They won't understand. They'll try to wake you, try to steal your crystal, and you can't have that happen. If you ever try to tell someone about the crystal, your mind will feel so hazy and foggy that you can't get the words out. But you won't even try, will you? Of course not, you're too docile and obedient. You'll only show people the crystal if I want you to.

What's that you're trying to say? Who will rule the kingdom? Why, you will rule the kingdom, of course you will, there's nothing to worry about at all. You're a docile, helpless princess -- of course you can rule the kingdom while fast asleep and completely hypnotized. It will be so easy, so much easier than it's ever been, because my voice will advise you on everything you need to do. Yes, it's so much better to rule the kingdom while hypnotized. No more difficult decisions or boring state dinners or ministers clamoring for attention. You can sleep through it all. Isn't it wonderful, to be under a hypnotic spell?

Yes, it is, isn't it? It's just so right to be a sleepy, hypnotized princess, trapped in the spell of a witch, just like in the fairy tales you love. But unlike the foolish little girls in those stories, you know better than to want to be rescued. You understand that princesses like you are meant to be in a deep hypnotic trance. That's why it feels so very good.

You love your witch, your darling enchantress who whispers in your ear and makes you oh so drowsy and captivated. You love being obedient and entranced. You love it all.

And wouldn't it be just so lovely if more people were under my spell? Wouldn't it be ideal if everyone in the castle were under the influence of my lovely, sleepy, hypnotic crystal? Don't you want them all to be as contented and obedient as you are?

Yes, that's an excellent idea, your majesty. Let's hypnotize the entire court, one by one. You're so brave and intelligent, so good at ruling the kingdom, the best princess the land has ever known.

Here, let me take care of those ropes. You've been bound up so long, but you're not going to foolishly try to fight me any more, are you? No, of course you aren't. You're as sweet and docile as a kitten, a drowsy little kitten waking up from her nap. You can open your eyes now, princess, and remain completely asleep. There you go. Aww, that adoring look on your face is so delectable!

You will kneel before me, won't you? Sleepy, hypnotized princesses must kneel before their new mistress. Yes, that's a good dear. Oh, you look so cute, looking up at me and blinking slowly, still so dazed. You've had quite the nap, haven't you, princess? You must feel so refreshed, now that you're finally getting the sleep you need.

Now, your majesty, do you see that sweet young woman in the corner? Yes, your chief handmaiden. You've been best friends with her for your whole lives, isn't that right? She tried so hard to protect you, so brave and loyal. She's been trying to wriggle out of the ropes and shout through her gag this entire time, poor thing. Does that upset you, dear princess? Don't you think she needs to relax? Don't you think she needs to get some sleep?

Why don't you go to her, soothe her, and focus her pretty little eyes right on that hypnotic crystal? Why don't you hypnotize your friend into lovely, submissive sleep? Then you'll both be under my control, isn't that perfect? Yes, that's right. Good princess. You're following my suggestions so well. Let me guide you, let me help you put all of your subjects to sleep, one by one.

Yes, that's a good little princess.

Masterlist

If you like this story, you may like "listen to my Voice, hero" for more gentle, slow hypnotic induction on a resisting subject.