Coffee Strong Enough Smells Like Cigarettes

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this is your reminder to detach. 

stop thinking about whether they’re thinking about you, what they’re saying about you (for better or for worse), or what you could’ve done better. leave it be. get up and get your shit together and focus all that delusion on working.  

you don’t have to be rory, cher, elle, blair, or hermione. you have to become the best version of yourself and spending all your time comparing yourself to people is not the way out of that. pick aspects of their mindset apart and combine it if you have to, but scrolling post through post on tumblr imagining the perfect enemies to lovers while you do nothing and rot in your room is not the way thats going to happen.   

you’re mad at that girl in your school who’s pretty, has a boyfriend but also gets the best grades on the planet? you’re mad at that boy who can buy his way into uni? too bad too fucking sad. i promise you they do not care now, and they won’t care ever. i wont either in 7 years, in my penthouse with my ivy league degree. i can promise you that. what next? 

you don’t need a thousand different expensive highlighters, you don’t need the perfect window w the perfect sunset, the way your hair looks does not matter, and the video you said you’d watch later doesn’t matter either. get through it, sobbing if you have to. don’t come crying to me when you’ve failed out of everything.  

start now. 

a special and big thank you to an4 tumblr for being my safe place

day 1/100 [24/1/23]

i have a month to study for my finals and im starting from scratch soo lets see what happens i guess and um posting this here to hold myself accountable

goals: wake at 3:30 shower

to do:

study 1 chapter chem

bio practical

phy tuition thing

4 of my fav studio ghibli pixel art studies

every day, i get to drink my little cup of coffee. it makes me so happy. and sometimes i even get to do it in cute cozy coffee shops

fuck you

the noble gases just gives me vibes that they'd be super stuck up only because they rarely form compounds and are naturally stable. like who said you're the best? valence electrons? who fucking cares! shut up helium.

im gonna kill myself

i sit in the sun. i drink tea. i recieve a message from my friend. i read a book. i take a walk. i fall in love with life a little bit.