It’s Tough To Widdle This One Down Into 4 Panels, But I Figured I’d Write About This One As Well.

FOR REAL

(and slight trigger here IG)

In the past, when I-or whatever headmate was fronting at the time-used to used Tumblr, 90% of that very specific time..I was v. NOT sober. But-in that (minus the random mood swings), I was kind of bowled away by the sheer COOLNESS of content, because ...it felt like, PEOPLE THINK LIKE ME.

The other thing I thought was interesting was that I would sort of compile this phase work (of trauma), and voraciously research (somehow intuitively I knew how to seek out what information we needed whenever) topics about how to approach things. I gotta talk it over with the Gatekeepers I think, maybe see if we can access that data.

ok this thought is undercooked and i don’t have my adhd meds so bear with me but i think the reason why neurodivergents are drawn to this site is more or less because the world feels random to us, like everyone else got a manual for Socializing 101 and we didn’t, and so we don’t really know how to fit in or follow the general neurotypical code of conduct or the rules of social exchanges and it can feel isolating and overwhelming. but on tumblr chaos is the norm. like there aren’t any rules here, you don’t have to abide by standard social laws. it feels natural and genuinely enjoyable as a form of social media because we can revel in our weirdness and not be judged (at least not in a way that bears any weight) because we’re on tumblr, we’re all weird here. i think this is also why NDs typically find chaotic jokes funny as opposed to traditional forms of humor. the unexpected is the punchline; you don’t have to look into it for hidden social cues

When the porn bots attack is over i want a little badge next to my username with the number of bots I've reported

if you are distressed about not receiving a response from someone you'd like to be actively talking to, you have to take a moment. step back from the conversation, put yourself in their shoes. perhaps they're busy with something right now. you have to consider the possibility that maybe they hanging upside down by their ankle. everybody has their own schedule, and sometimes people spend time away from their phone or computer because they are currently suspended from a tree branch by a rope tied around their ankle that they unnoticingly stepped in because it was concealed by a pile of leafs. it's not that they don't want to respond; imagine that they can see their phone screen on the ground below but it's a good few inches out of reach and even if they bounce and flail on the branch their fingertips just can't touch it. sometimes life gets in the way

HELLO I JUST FOUND OUT YOU DIDNT NEED DISSOCIATIVE FUGUE (LIKE FULL BLACKOUT WAKING UP IN A DIFFERENT PLACE) TO HAVE DID??????

WHAT

I'm so fucking sick of sysmeds fucking ignoring OSDD-1. Sure they'll include us in their bullshit premise that DID/OSDD is only caused by trauma, and is the only way to be a system. But the second they start talking in anything but simple sound bites we don't fucking exist. Every fucking misguided argument and scrap of evidence they cite is about DID and only DID.

And like, there's so many mistakes they make. They act like the DSM isn't the most funded and peer reviewed document in psychology (and that it needs to be read between the lines). They ignore that there are systems out there that don't have DID/OSDD. They ignore that cause of a system and cause of a disorder aren't necessarily the same.

So it's no surprise that they also ignore the fact that none of what they ever say is about OSDD systems. We're always an afterthought or part of some asinine abbreviation that's probably only mentioned because of autocorrect/ autocomplete.

Synastry overlay Sun, Moon in the 8th house notes: 8th house edition ❤️ ❤️

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Sun in the other's 8th house

8th house feels vulnerable around Sun. They could feel like Sun sees right through them. Sun is very interested in secrets, fears, desires and dreams of 8th house. You could both overshare when around each other. This connection is passionate, intense, but at the same time a bit awkward. You have a lot of first times together. You might try certain foreign foods for the first time together, first serious relationship or any big life change, like marriage. You might want to do a big transformation with this person. You are prepared to go to extreme measures for this person. You might even change city, job, country for them. There will be sacrifices in this connection. There can be jealousy from others or between you two at times. You might feel a lot of sexual desire for this person. You will reach real intimacy in this connection, but it needs to be balanced. 8th house can be a bit doubtful of this Sun person at first. Or gets easily triggered. You might be reminded of the things from the past, from the childhood, from your relationship with parents. You tell this person a lot of stuff about your life that you wouldn’t tell others. You felt very comfortable, secure and comfortable, like you already know each other. This connection will be constantly changing and transforming. You will constantly revaluate things. You will want to know everything about each other. You might feel naked in front of each other, but not literally or maybe even that. You can behave with this person how you normally wouldn’t with other people. You feel drawn to each other. You just love being in each other’s energy and just talking to each other. You really stand out from the crowd to them. Even if they want to go away, they will be constantly pulled back. 8th house really means you respect individual boundaries and give space to the other to have their own life apart from relationship. So when you are too close, you have tension. But if you just allow each other more space, the person may come back on their own quickly. You can be equally obsessed with each other. You find each other irresistible. Also I noticed 8th house synastry points to wanting things fast and almost rushing it. However, I think these connections have the potential to last for 10 years, if you just don’t rush the other to please your own selfish desires first. Because usually 8th house makes you rather selfish. You only want them doing that for you for example. You are real soulmates. You can sometimes feel like a therapist for the other person. You might test each other, just so you can see that you can trust each other. There is also a spiritual lesson in this connection.

Moon in the other's 8th house

You might have sexual awakening with this person. Before one of you or both might have considered yourself aromantic or even asexual, but with this person you will feel awakened. You will feel passion, lust and desire. You will just want them. You might be quick to merge your finance, living situation or even become physical. With this overlay, I suggest getting physical as late as possible, try to prolong it and don’t give into desire too soon. Because as soon as you merge with this person, obsession, jealous and being territorial might begin. You will experience power struggles, but also understanding on an emotional, physical and mental level like never before. You might have sex dreams about this person, a lot of sexual fantasies (and vice versa of course). It’s an intense, strong bond, but a lot of times unbreakable. You could become too easily dependent on each other and learn to nurture your own individuality and have your own individual lives as well. You will mirror each other a lot. You will challenge each other and learn your mistakes, shortcomings. You might be a bit unwilling to change. One might change a lot (8th house), but you will feel like he is always the same. But this will not be true, Moon person will go through psychological, inner changes, while you might change in your actions, outlook on life. You will know each other’s desires, secrets and fears with time. But at first there might be a lot of frustrations, miscommunication and misunderstandings. You might be very vulnerable around each other. You could feel like the other person see right through you. You could feel like you are naked in front of each other.

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Hi! I know you don't know me but my bf suffers from did and has only recently realized this and started treatment. Older alters of his say that there used to be an inner world and one even told me that they think a 'system collapse' has happened, so I guess my question is what all information can you offer me to understand and help him get his inner world back and restore any communication at all with his alters. Thanks in advance! And sorry if I'm being rude!

hi, i am in no way an expert in innerworlds so this may be a bit tough for me to answer. i can give you what i have though.

i’m also not sure about what a system collapse is, but i know innerworlds can sometimes be less accessible to certain alters or can be harder to get to when something causes an increase in dissociative barriers. i’d try to figure out if there’s something that might have triggered this lack of communication to happen and try to figure out how to deal with it or cope with what’s going on. if ur bf has a therapist, it would be good to talk to them about it, even if it’s not about the did/innerworld disappearance, but about what most likely was the cause. if it has to do with undiscovered trauma tho, he should not go digging into that.

he could try reaching out in his mind to specific alters, see if they’ll respond. he could also try to build an innerworld manually; not all innerworlds automatically exist, some are made. i have a few pictures on my phone from a post i saw maybe a year ago with some innerworld building tips. here they are:

also, i recently made a post on system communication and journaling for summer system education week. it’s got a lot of tips and resources to go with them. here’s the post

hope this helps, i wish u and ur bf good luck with this