Vanderwood With An MC Who’s Scared Of Lightning?

Little known fact about me... I'm a Lokean, I have been for over a year.. I never mentioned that here, I know.. 🤭

Long ass spiritual ramble under the cut

I've been occupied with other things recently (namely getting a job for the first time) and I haven't had much mental energy to interact with him... so as reconciliation (ofc he demands that I don't need to apologize or anything but I did anyway) I made a new picture to go on his altar...

I also bought a statue (it was almost $150... RIP to my wallet 😭😭😭😭) it looks absolutely beautiful from the product pictures and it's handmade, reviews are good too, so I'm not too mad at the price.. it was the only one I could find that looked similar to how he usually appears to me... funny enough as I was browsing etsy looking for statues while I was taking a break from sketching, I said to him out loud... "damn.. it's all viking dudes with beards... none of these look enough like a twink"... and what do you know, the very next page, I found one that looks a hell of a lot more twink-like.. he even holds a rose which has special meaning to my spiritual journey with him. (First sign I asked him to show me and is my go to for signs now, I laid a bunch of fake roses on his altar too) I genuinely believe he put that one in front of me 😅

Back from the dead once again with yet another update to this relationship situation..

First of all, I'm pretty much completely over him.. though he will be bringing my stuff back eventually I have no idea when... gotta give it to the fucker, he does seem like he wasn't lying about being a massive pussy about winter 🤣... a single snowflake could fall and he'd refuse to get in his car and go anywhere.. I feel sorry for whatever poor bitch he meets next if he continues to act like a baby. And btw... the Christmas gift I bought him before we broke up shall not be going to waste, it's going to my bestie who has been there for me through it all.. she's not reading this.. at least I don't think she is.. but LOVE YOU SAM!!!

Aaanyway I just met someone new.. we first started talking 2 weeks ago.. he had stuff going on so I left him alone for a week genuinely thought it was over with him before it even began bc he hadn't said a damn thing the entire week... but I reached out over the weekend and we talked until like 3am lol

He seems like a good guy, seems to be more dedicated than the last (that remains to be seen ofc.. not comparing him to my ex, but still trying to guard my emotions and keep from getting too attached too early on)

He has severe body image issues it seems.. I'm trying my best to help him a little by challenging his self critical beliefs and giving him compliments often. Not only about how he looks ofc...(this guy is seriously a beautiful human being, beautiful smile, jawline so sharp it could cut a bitch, beautiful eyes, beautiful lips, seriously... I'm surprised he hadn't gotten asked out more often.. not only that but he's genuine, sensitive, kinda funny too, respectful, Hella romantic lol)

This one is the type that wants to treat me like royalty.. he made me promise to one day go stargazing with him on a clear and warm night and kiss him under the moonlight.. (I ifc added slow dancing to that bc.. well that has ALWAYS been my dream date) but I'm thinking for a first date, I might go up and meet him for lunch or something on a day he has off of school (university) and work... he is an hour away and I don't drive so I'll probably be relying on my dad to take me there.. unless I can get my friend and her boyfriend to go on a double date with us and hitch a ride with them lol.

Though he has said he wants to come here... but idk.. that may not be possible for a while and I'm thinking we need a meeting face to face sooner rather than later.. I find it solidifies the connection better.

I really hope this goes somewhere.. I quite like him and can totally see this working 😊

H!

I'm back from the dead!

And I have things to talk about 🤭

Last month into this month has been fucking wild for me!

I was connected to a girl my age through my therapist, her name is Sam. We've really hit it off and I now consider her a friend.

Then... for some reason I felt confident enough to make a dating profile.... and

AGAINST ALL ODDS I MET SOMEONE.

Like I live in a town over an hour away from any cities.. but he only lives a half hour out of town... so not a super long drive.

Anyway, we've seen eachother in person twice but I fell so deeply in love with the guy.. and I can tell he feels the same about me... the way he looks at me.... How he talks... He is also a total romantic.. much like myself, so it's been going really good! I'm hoping we'll get to see eachother again next week.

But I never thought I'd ever get into a romantic relationship... if I'm being honest

Don't read on if you're easily triggered by mental health issues and/or sexual themes.

I never intended to be around this long... I was literally planning on ending it all shortly after my 18th birthday... But for some reason... I kept going.. and I'm super happy that I did, otherwise, I wouldn't have ever met my friend and boyfriend.

Seriously...

Things are finally going right for me after so many goddamned years of being alone, isolated unable to find any real connection and incredibly miserable because of it...

I have finally realized I am not unlikeable, I'm not worthless and I can find friends. And for the rest of 2022 and into 2023, I will work as hard as I can to not let my anxiety control me anymore

My next big leap comes in November. I will be looking for my first job!

And here comes the part where I gush about my boyfriend

I now have this dream now where I'm settling down with my boyfriend.... we move into a little apartment in one of the cities nearby (in fact that dream could very well come true... because we both want to go to the same city for college) and we settle into a peaceful domestic life together.... hopefully with cats!

Ok... but like honestly this guy is literally the one I've been dreaming of. He's very attractive and emotionally available, and he doesn't judge me for who I am! I neglected to mention here, but I have discovered that I am agender and my pronouns are they/them... I live in probably one of the most conservative provinces in Canada and to make it worse, I'm in a small town with like 4 churches of the same exact brand of extremely homophobic and transphobic Christianity... I fully expected him to lose interest in me. But no, It hasn't affected how he thinks of me. and he is very careful to respect my pronouns...

He's also very funny (which I really love in people... I can't be around someone who is super serious all the time) I mean... when I last saw him on Monday, we were at my place, playing around (in an adult sort of way) and he discovered my toys

One of them had a suction cup at the base, so he goes and sticks it on the wall a few times... then he sticks it on his forehead looks at me and says "I'm dildo man" we laugh about it together.... and he goes to pull it off his face only to discover it has suctioned pretty hard to his face, so I help him by wedging my finger under the suction cup and lifting it off...

and HE HAS A BIG ASS BRUISE RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS FOREHEAD... We're still laughing our asses off... me almost pissing myself with laughter as we frantically search for way to get rid of bruises and hickeys online... we try the fork method, icing it... everything we can do, nothing works.. so we decide to just take a bath to clean up before my parents get home from a trip they were on (at this point my parents don't know we've had sex... and I wasn't exactly ready to tell them) While we're in the bath, my parents get home and my dad calls out to me... I fucking panic and we get out and dress at breakneck speed.

My parents brought home some takeout and my boyfriend stayed for dinner... he met my mom for the first time... but damn... coming downstairs after that was... super awkward... but thankfully my parents aren't the type to be bothered by that kind of thing, all they needed to know was that we used protection (which we did ofc)

It's funny though, he really gets along well with my dad.. Maybe it's their sense of humour. Or maybe the fact they are both quite talkative..

But damn.....

This guy is special.. and I hope we last for years, decades... life even...

And done.. Sorry about all that.. just had to write this all down somewhere.. It's really hard to contain my happiness right now.

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Well hello there~

info and a long ramble about this and why this exists under the cut if you're interested

So.. I'm experiencing the most intense obsession with a fictional character I've ever experienced in my entire life..

I started playing Baldur's Gate 3 two weeks ago.. why did I pick it up? Because I saw a clip of that scene where Tav kills him by shooting that lazer and dropping a building on him, and the dialog after you get Withers to bring him back.. you know.. "Somewhere between a nice summer's day and THE FULL CONCENTRATED POWER OF THE SUN" and I was like.. daaaamn who is this character and why does his VA sound so damn passionate? So I bought it...

And I have clocked well over 100 hours in game now and it's safe to say I'm completely, hopelessly obsessed with this game. Now...

Onto the actual explanation of this piece

The idea for this art piece came from right after his first sex scene with Tav (the only one I've seen as of yet... and um.. like damn... DAMN) when he stands in the sunlight and you see his scars on his back for the first time.. The moment I saw that, the gears in my head started turning and I imagined big huge angel wings on him... then.. um.. well.. I heard a song which brought that image back into my mind.. (Helios by the Crüxshadows.. It's good go listen to it!) which yes.. music is a huge part of my creative process most of the time.. My imagination can run wild when listening to some songs not certain why.

But anyway.. Astarion with big ass angel wings was born.... and I'm probably going to go in and paint it with watercolors and pray that I don't hopelessly fuck it up.. If I don't, I'll post the finished piece when I'm done.. (really wish I had metallic watercolors.. I feel like gold paint on the halo and maybe the scars would add a lot to this tbh)

I guess the unofficial title of this piece is:

Helios ☀️

Side note... I think I gave him too much ass... (as if that's a bad thing lmao)

He really puts the ass in Astarion... Ok.. Ok I'll stop 😅

Character List

Heyo, Just wanted to let you know, my inbox is open again and I’m accepting requests once more! 

I’ll also mark my husbandos and waifus.. Because that’s relevant information... W= Waifu H= Husbando Ultra= God tier/Will die for this character

Here is a list of all the characters I will do:

From Black Butler

MeyRin (Ultra W)

Sebastian Michaelis (H)

Beast

Joker

Snake

Vincent Phantomhive (H)

Undertaker (Ultra H)

Ciel Phantomhive

Angelina Dalles

Grell (W H)

Ronald Knox

Lau

RanMao (W)

  From Seraph Of The End

Guren Ichinose (Ultra H)

Shinya Hiragi (H)

Norito Goshi

Mito Jujo

Sayuri Hanayori

Shigure Yukimi

Mahiru Hiragi (W)

Yuiciro Hyakuya

Mikaela Hyakuya

Yoichi Saotome

Shinoa Hiragi

Ferid Bathory (I seethe with anger whenever I see him or hear his name, I’m sorry if I like end up making all the fics I write with him spiteful lol) 

Krul Tepes

    From Demon Slayer

Giyuu Tomioka (H) 

Kyojuro Rengoku (H)

Muzan Kibutsuji

Kagaya Ubuyashiki (H)

    From Blue Exorcist 

Yukio Okumura (Ultra H)

Rin Okumura (H)

Shiemi Moriyama

Shura Kirigakure (W)

Mephisto Pheles

     From My Hero Academia

Shouta Aizawa (H)

Hizashi Yamada 

     From Attack On Titan

Levi Ackerman (H)

Zoe Hanji 

Erwin Smith (Ultra H)

Eren Jaeger (Fuck this guy... )

Mikasa Ackerman

Historia Reiss/ Christa Lenz (W)

Yimir (The lesbian brunette chick) (W)

Annie Leonhart

Sasha Braus (W)

     From Danganronpa

Byakuya Togami (H)

Toko Fukawa (W)

     From Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure

Dio Brando (Both Phantom Blood and Stardust Crusaders versions please specify in your ask)

Jonathan Joestar

Robert E. O. Speedwagon (ULTRA ULTRA H)

Bruno Bucellati/Buccarati (H)

Giorno Giovanna

Guido Mista

Kars

Joeseph Joestar 

Jotaro Kujo

Jolyne Kujo

Noriaki Kakyoin

        From Mystic Messenger:

Jihyun Kim/V

Unknown/Ray/Saeran

707/Luciel/Saeyoung

Vanderwood (ofc he’s still an ULTRA H)

Jaehee Kang

        From Obey Me:

Beelzebub

Lucifer

Satan

Mammon

Leviathan

Asmodeus

Diavolo

Barbatos

Solomon

Simeon

       From The Arcana:

Julian Devorak (H)

Asra Alnazar

Nadia Satrinava 

Muriel (H)

Portia Devorak (W)

Valerius

Valdemar (idk what the gender neutral term for waifu/husbando is...but I like them a lot)

From Death Note

Matsuda

Raye Penber

Misa Amane

For the Wammy boys please go to my new side blog

And I think that’s all..if you want short scenarios or short fics of any of these characters, please send me an ask! 

More Tsukasa Headcanons!

Keeping up the prompts, just found this on pinterest.. it looked like it was from a Tumblr post, but whoever it was was not in fact credited :(

Prompt: "But at least we are lost together"

You and Tsukasa went hunting for livestock.

The empire needed more food and it looked like it wouldn't be a very nice season for farming fruits and vegetables.

Your hunting excursion was going very well.

Between the two of you, you had caught 3 deer and 5 birds. Now while lugging the carcasses of the animals on a cart, you made your way back to the base.

However, a few minutes into your walk back, a problem became apparent.

That red flower on the left side of the path, that tree that had a slight curve in its trunk, the small dying bush..

It all seemed familiar...

Before you had even realized what was going on, Tsukasa spoke up.

"Y/N, I'm pretty sure we're lost"

You stared at him, dumbfounded.

"What, how could we be lost? I thought you knew where we were going."

He cussed under his breath.

"You were supposed to be the navigator."

You looked at the ground, a foggy memory of Yo bursting into your room when you were half asleep and yelling something about you needing to "get your navigator shit and go see Tsukasa"

"Oh..... yea.... I was, wasn't I?"

He gave you a questioning glance.

"I'm sorry, Yo told me when I was half asleep.. Only the "go see Tsukasa" part registered in my brain"

Tsukasa sighed and rubbed his temples.

After what seemed to be an hour if trying to find your way back, you decided to just admit defeat for a while and rest your now aching legs.

Tsukasa started a small fire in hopes it would help someone find the two of you.

However, for the time being, you were hopelessly lost...

As you sat, warming yourselves by the fire, you made idle banter

"This isn't exactly an ideal situation, is it? With us being lost and everything." Tsukasa asked with a small chuckle.

"Yea, but at least we're lost together, right?"

Tsukasa looked up at the night sky before answering.

"Yeah... With you, It's not so bad" he smirked, before placing a hand over yours.

When MC is on her period (Vanderwood HC)

- Vanderwood is pretty... well inexperienced with women because of his career.

-He tries to comfort you as best as he can but gets a pillow thrown at him.

-two days into it, you need some more pads.

-"babe can you buy me some pads"

-"sure!!"

-Boi comes back with GAUZE PADS...

-LIKE THE MEDICAL GRADE SHIT YOU DRESS WOUNDS WITH...

-More pillows are thrown

-After a lengthy explanation of what pads and tampons and periods are, he comes back with the correct thing.....

-But they're literally the lowest absorbency known to man (sorry if you have a really light flow)

- "You know what, I'll just go get them myself"

-Later that night You and Vanderwood decide to watch a romantic drama (like titanic or something)

-You both end up bawling your eyes out.

-finally, you're free of your period

-Vanderwood senses the shift in your mood.

-"so how often is this supposed to happen?"

-"every month until I'm about 45-60 years old"

-"oh.... WAIT WHAT?!"

Can I request Vanderwood reacting to his MC kissing all over his face and telling him how handsome he is?

Thanks for requesting, Anon! 

-You both were laying in bed..

-When suddenly..

-You had the sudden urge to kiss Vanderwood. 

-You got on top of him and started making out with him…

-Then you got bored.

-You started kissing his forehead, chin, cheeks, temples and ears. 

-”You’re so handsome, babe” You repeated. 

-Vanderwood would every so often catch your lips and kiss you.

-”You’re so beautiful, baby girl” He’d say in response.

-You did this often.

-He enjoys it very much.

So I've been watching the final season of Attack On Titan (I'm watching the dub rn so I'm a little bit behind) and I'm missing my mans... one of the reasons why I stuck around for so long, Erwin Smith soo without further adou

Erwin Smith X Reader Romantic Headcanons!

Erwin isn't really the type of guy to date, especially since he's commander of the scouts.

In fact when you first asked him to date you he flat out refused saying it would be unfair to you if he were to die on a mission.

You however persisted and he eventually agreed to give this whole relationship thing a go.

The first few dates are a bit awkward and rushed because of Erwin's duties

Eventually though, as he warms up to you he makes more of an effort to make your dates special.

His ideal date is a picnic under the stars.

The moment when he realized just how much he loved you was when you two were in his office talking to Levi and Hange. The way you laughed, smiled... in his eyes you were perfect.

Erwin is very good at romance.

He's like the stereotypical prince-like dream boy.

No PDA, in private he'll do anything you want really. If you wanna sit on his lap, go for it, makeout session, if there's no one to interrupt, sure.

The only exception to his no PDA rule is before missions he must give you a forehead kiss!

On the topic of forehead kissing, he LOVES to kiss your forehead. He also likes your lips, but finds it easier to kiss you on the forehead (how many times can I say forehead? lol)

I ran out of ideas... and sorry for this I know no one asked for this... This was entirely self indulgent. Anyway, if you wanna request something, go ahead, I'm still open! I will be until I can't keep up with requests or I burn out lol.

Vanderwood with an MC who’s mumbling about how much she loves him in her sleep?

Thanks for requesting, Anon!

-Vanderwood couldn’t sleep…

-He was staring at you trying to calm his mind. 

-He knew you talked in your sleep from time to time.. 

-Usually you’d mumble about things you’d experience in day today life..

-So this was kind of expected. 

-You started inaudibly mumbling…

-Then it got louder and more intelligible

-”I love you Vandy” 

-He smiled at that. 

-”love you too princess” He whispered

-”I wanna be by your side forever” 

-His heart MELTED

-How adorable. 

-The fact that you thought about him even when you were asleep made him love you even more If that’s even possible

-You said one last thing before going silent for the night. 

-”I love you more than anything” 

-He smiled before hugging you closer and finally drifting off to sleep.