Jalakanyaka - Seine

ill find a new place to be from

Aftersun (2022) dir. Charlotte Wells

i'm terrified of the day i've grieved you longer than i've loved you

“your my best friend, now i’ve got no one to tell i’ve lost my best friend.”

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my favorite pessimistic tortured artist

miyazaki hayao is my role model

"she wasn't your person, your person is still out there and you'll find her when you least expect it" okay what if she was my person and i lost her forever

# those adults that were like second parents for you and cared and loved you like so. suddenly you grew away from their eyes and they cant grasp that youre 19 and no longer 11 but they still understand you more than anyone else

seeing people from your childhood that knew you before you knew yourself is nostalgic but it kills you when you realize they dont know you now

Im terrified of losing people and I cling hard because I know ill always be the one who will grieve more i will be the one who misses and yearns for years i will be the one who will never forget

sometimes the tragedy of distance is very simple. i want to get groceries with you

i adore the thought of soulmates in every century/world/universe/life/forever but they aren't lovers every time. like in some worlds they are just a dog and a person and that's okay. in another— a cat and a butterfly that landed on its nose, a young person who befriends an older person, a fisherman and a mermaid they catch, a pirate and their squawking parrot, two orcas communicating from miles away, whatever. doesnt matter cause its always you. it will always be you and yes theres reincarnation's random surprises but ill take any form of you, as much of you as possible and expect you in my life always and anyways