Mood

ACTIVATED

i can’t even fathom how close to death i couldve been just now. it’s crazy cause i could tell the story and would only be an understatement of what happened hmm

Horoscope this month 😎

BEAT TAPE DROPPING JUNE 21ST!

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Sober

by The 199x.

SOBER OUT NOW!

all i got to say is that album on the way 🤫

ALRIGHT SO I CHANGED MY PRODUCER NAME JUST HAVENT OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCED IT YET

The reason why i did this for anyone wondering is because i’m starting a clothing line and i’ve decided to make everything all under one name just so it’s much easier to follow everything. This isn’t the first time i changed my name but i promise this is the last 🙏🏾 Thank you again to anyone riding for/with me for the long haul 🤎

Weekly Introspective Perspective #1 (3/3/23):

This week has been a small and uneventful week. Due to lack of communication I failed to take advantage of an opportunity given to me. This affected me so deeply because I had future plans set around this opportunity simply for it to slip right underneath my feet.

Im learning to be more realistic with myself. I feel like some things are simply not flowing and circulating in my life. The question I ask myself is how do I break out of this? How do I change the things that are having adverse effects on me?

Well I don’t have the answer yet. The only thing I’ve considered is further education. I need to educate myself further what I know now is nowhere near enough to live the life I truly feel led to leave. 

Im considering cutting off all attachments in a healthy manner. Not to disappear and never have people hear from again, moreso to figure out what is and isn’t working in my circle. 

I find myself doing the best that I can, not only for myself but for others. The people I care about. The problem is, I simply don’t feel like people care about me enough the way I do for them. Ive ignored it for years it’s something I’ve always struggled but I had chosen to ignore it because of the negativity that came with me questioning if people really care about me the way I do for them. 

Well despite my ignorance the answer still remains the same. They don’t. I come up short just as anybody else does from time to time BUT ive have never not given the best I am to those I love and support. 

My problem is people come up short when I need them just to feel supported, just to feel like I’m not alone out here. I go thru life I need things I ask for help, I don’t really get it that often hence why I don’t really ask for much from individuals when shit actually gets crazy. 

But things weren’t crazy this time around I just wanted people there for me.

So here I am trying to start from zero all over again. 

I simply feel blinded in my path right now. 

On a positive note, ive gone back to my morning meditations and breathing exercises. I find it very hard to breathe when I am in a state of stress. I caught myself just holding my breathe like I was being choked by invisible forces. My chest was hot and the burden of it felt unbearable. 

Ive gone back to praying because for so long I kind of stopped/ kept it to a minimum. Im not a fan of asking the creator or universe for things to change in my life. It often feels like game of take, take, take instead of being give and take. But for now I’m just trying to communicate with the higher energies, simple conversations. 

So here I am. All alone, covered in angels. Trying to get myself back.

And now I start to feel it. Joshua coming back to his self. All it took was surrendering my heart, softening up and acknowledging the love I have to give because it’s who I am. Not because of what I want. 

I am so kind when I’m hurt, it’s the only thing that makes me feel like anything. The one thing I can always resort back to when I’m in shambles: I am actually a good human being with pure intentions and love in my heart that wants to expend that love to everyone I touch. No one can ever take that away from me and you can never discredit me on this statement. Its who I am.

“ISSA PANORAMIC”