NAH THIS SHIT REALLY GOT ME CRYING THO 🤣🤣🤣
NAH THIS SHIT REALLY GOT ME CRYING THO 🤣🤣🤣
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1.2.19
It is a new year, im not really sure how im feeling cause im kind of drunk right now, but im just chilling, waiting, i feel this year is going tp be very special, this year isn’t even about me ive come to realize and accept that i have to do everything in my power to make sure that my guys make it. they are my mission i dont care exactly what happens to me but i just want my team, my guys to do everything they want, everything they dreamed of. i feel like ive been trusted and they put their future in my hands and ill do everything in my power to make sure they can do what they want, they are too talented too good, they honestly are too good to have to settle for any of this shit, id hate myself if they didn’t achieve everything they dreamed of. i love them with all of my friends, they parents even trust and love me, at least to an extent so i have to make sure they win, i have too. thats my goal this year to make sure my team is winning and is content with their lives and what they want. i really loe them got damn theses niggas are talented like honestly. they gotta make it, even if its before i do. ill do whatever i can for these guys i just hope they trust me but ill prove myself i hope they see it. but anyways as for mw. this is the year i know it, i feel it, ive been waiting for this, nothing will come in between us or my mindset for this year, FGod has built me up and made me so strong, even mentally. i love these guys honestly. damn i cant stop thinking about them. i care for these dudes too much Jaylen you got this i believe in you the most out of everyone you know? you are the key to greatness. you will play a huge impact in all of our lives. remember when we were at theBig E and this random girl asked who you were? and she swore on everything you were famous? ill never forget that day bro, thats how i knew you were everything. you are me bro, just a mini version and i love you bro please never stop. we can do this together, separate, it doesn’t matter YOU can do it. YOU can really do it, youre mindset is beautiful you will be the greatest to ever do this shit no joke. Dayvi, i love you bro. you are the chosen one, Hod chose you bro, why you playing with your gifts? if i could just get you to take me serious bro, younger special why are you playing around with this music shit. i know you know how good you are soooo please bro just let me help you its all i care about. i want to protect you from all these distractions and fuck shit you got going on, but i cant. i know that. but im here for you through all this shit bro. just trust me please we can really do this shit, we just have to do it together. i need you on board you play such a huge part come on bro, help me out here. i love you tho. CURRENCY WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU BRO, WE NEED YOU TO BE GREAT THIS SHIT ISNT GOING TO HAPPEN WITHOUT YOU WE NEED YOUR IDEAS YOUR MIND YOUR GENIUS, COME BACK PLEASE. this is the year we follow God i need all of us to be on the same page. i want this year to be about us, we got this y’all just trust me. please. i cant beg enough. X i love you, youre on my mind everyday. i never met you, never knew you but its crazy how connected ive felt to you since you left us but i know you gave me your energy. i love you born love you, idk what you did to me or put in my spirit but i will carry on and live out your legacy. this year is our year i promise i know it. theres so much to reflect on and consider and think about. failure is not an option. what am i going to do if i cant everyone on the same page? this is our future, i see why God put me ahead shit is wild. but i accept this responsibility im not tripping about it anymore. i know a lot of lives are put into my hands but it depends on how i am personally. and im okay i swear i just need people to help keep me on track. where are my core supporters the people that actually love me and want to see me succeed. My success is your success. so please people help me. whoever is down for me? anybody? Brb.
Weekly Introspective Perspective #1 (3/3/23):
This week has been a small and uneventful week. Due to lack of communication I failed to take advantage of an opportunity given to me. This affected me so deeply because I had future plans set around this opportunity simply for it to slip right underneath my feet.
Im learning to be more realistic with myself. I feel like some things are simply not flowing and circulating in my life. The question I ask myself is how do I break out of this? How do I change the things that are having adverse effects on me?
Well I don’t have the answer yet. The only thing I’ve considered is further education. I need to educate myself further what I know now is nowhere near enough to live the life I truly feel led to leave.
Im considering cutting off all attachments in a healthy manner. Not to disappear and never have people hear from again, moreso to figure out what is and isn’t working in my circle.
I find myself doing the best that I can, not only for myself but for others. The people I care about. The problem is, I simply don’t feel like people care about me enough the way I do for them. Ive ignored it for years it’s something I’ve always struggled but I had chosen to ignore it because of the negativity that came with me questioning if people really care about me the way I do for them.
Well despite my ignorance the answer still remains the same. They don’t. I come up short just as anybody else does from time to time BUT ive have never not given the best I am to those I love and support.
My problem is people come up short when I need them just to feel supported, just to feel like I’m not alone out here. I go thru life I need things I ask for help, I don’t really get it that often hence why I don’t really ask for much from individuals when shit actually gets crazy.
But things weren’t crazy this time around I just wanted people there for me.
So here I am trying to start from zero all over again.
I simply feel blinded in my path right now.
On a positive note, ive gone back to my morning meditations and breathing exercises. I find it very hard to breathe when I am in a state of stress. I caught myself just holding my breathe like I was being choked by invisible forces. My chest was hot and the burden of it felt unbearable.
Ive gone back to praying because for so long I kind of stopped/ kept it to a minimum. Im not a fan of asking the creator or universe for things to change in my life. It often feels like game of take, take, take instead of being give and take. But for now I’m just trying to communicate with the higher energies, simple conversations.
So here I am. All alone, covered in angels. Trying to get myself back.
And now I start to feel it. Joshua coming back to his self. All it took was surrendering my heart, softening up and acknowledging the love I have to give because it’s who I am. Not because of what I want.
I am so kind when I’m hurt, it’s the only thing that makes me feel like anything. The one thing I can always resort back to when I’m in shambles: I am actually a good human being with pure intentions and love in my heart that wants to expend that love to everyone I touch. No one can ever take that away from me and you can never discredit me on this statement. Its who I am.
i really make beats effortlessly shit is actually amazing to me 🤎
all i got to say is that album on the way 🤫
Self reflection
I saw a dead cat walking on acid today. It didn’t shock me or scare me, it actually surprised me more than anything. I was sad for a minute but I had to ask why was I sad? I saw death but it’s actually not something to be sad about or even to fear. It wasn’t a warning of what’s to come. The moment was a stand still. The cat had its eyes closed if anything a bit of it eyes were glaring but not even to actually shock me. Its ears were upright it was perfectly in tact. In fact I just assume a car hit it but tbh there was absolutely no evidence of that even taking place. But cats dont just die in the street do they?
That’s why im able to step back a little more. It was very foggy. A cat that could’ve lost its way. A cat that was potentially stuck in its ignorance and own ways. But it was fog. Something died in the fog. Did I find what died in the confusion? Did something die when I become more aware? What died tho? But I guess another key takeaway is allowing space and time for the answer to just simply come to me. I got to excited with this information but now im going to pull it back into self and find comes next.
I would ask for opinions but in reality yours doesn’t even matter to me. It would shape my belief in something I dont have clarity in and why does your truth have to become mine? I’ll remain unanimous. Instead you who are reading take this information as you will. I guess we all uncover our own truths and hidden layers
“Jetlife” chill ass beat i made for Curren$y
