I feel like writing all the time! It helps lot..pouring out your feelings literally help a lot.carrying this baggage is extremely difficult, where you feel like a bone is stuck in your throat, neither you can gulp it down your throat, nor vomit it out to someone.But penning them down helps a lot. Also, it makes you realize a lot that was completely useless. So ya.. it really really helps!
“And maybe it is only by finding yourself that you can feel the true intensity of becoming close to another person.”
— David Levithan, The Realm of Possibility (via meineluft)
-William Wordsworth
“I feel like I should probably ask you to leave. But I don’t really want you to go. I want you to stay, but I know you shouldn’t.”
— Rachel Gibson, True Confessions (via thoughtkick)
Abuse doesn’t make you ‘tough’, it makes it so when someone hurts you, you get a massive flashback to every time anyone has ever hurt you, you have to remove yourself from the situation to get a massive breakdown, you don’t get to react properly because you’re overwhelmed and unsure what’s real, and at the end of the day you’re filled with doubt over whether you feelings are all wrong and what amount of upset you’re allowed to be and you just sit there devastated asking yourself what is wrong with you and why can’t you be normal
Can we just ignore the stars, so that the world could be ours?
Why do I even expect people to understand me? I mean am I just not enough to understand myself or what!? I mean I am the best person who can understand me and I know myself the best!! So y the need!!?🤔
The world is kinder than it seems from the view of your abusive relationships.
I know it doesn't seem like it. It seems scary, and stressful, and unfair, and terrifying beyond belief. Maybe you were fed lies about what the world is like - abusers can go above and beyond to keep you depended on them, to keep you afraid. Maybe you were hurt, badly, by malice or by negligence of the masses.
But remember that the world is also large. And even if your family, school, work or hometown is cruel, there's kindness elsewhere. There are people who will listen. There are people who will believe and who will do their best to help.
You might not be ready to trust the world, to give some kindness to it, and that okay. Understandable, even. But.. I want you to remember that kindness and happiness do exist, and you'll sure as hell find yours.