"oh Sorry, I Guess I Was Infodumping Again" - Sad, Shy, Apologetic

thinking about the absolutely poetic symbolism of the war crime sign being removed to make space for the execution device... thinking about ghostbur singing the l’manberg anthem while running around with friend and reminding tubbo of the core values l’manberg was built upon... thinking about how imprisoning phil in his house goes against all those values... thinking about how before he blew up l’manberg wilbur said it was because that it wasn’t the place it was built to be anymore and that it has become what it had been made to be a haven from.... thinking about how wilbur was right all along and also the best president l’manberg ever had because he didn’t interfere in other citizen’s lives... thinking about how power or want of power corrupts everyone on the server.... thinking about ranboo’s note in his memory book saying “the walls are still up. even if dream takes them down. the are still up.”... thinking about how ranboo is one of the only citizens of l’manberg who understands and upholds its values.... thinking about the poetry of it all....

constant drive to talk about my ocs but also the eternal issue of not being able to articulate my thoughts properly so just imagine that i am grabbing you like this. there are things in my mind but they are not escaping

@fearful-queerful

“There was no other way.”

-Mono Red Commander player desperate to remove enchantments

Kinda fucked up and nasty how vampires drink blood, imo. Like. Pepsi costs a dollar seventy five

it’s funny how everybody in the dream smp is confused on why c!tommy’s so violent & why he always starts wars, as if the motherfucker didn’t grow up in one. as if he didn’t spent his entire life surrounded by people who believed violence was the only answer or grew to believe violence is the only answer. they question why c!tommy’s so full of hatred / anger when the world he’s seen has only ever been full of hatred and violence. you can’t question why he’s that way when it’s all he’s ever known. surely, if he got to grow up like a kid — like he should’ve been able to, he wouldn’t have been that big of a “problem”, for you, but he didn’t. /rp

okay but Techno saying his bit about reciprocity just sparks so much joy. we KNOW that Tommy has been repeatedly traumatized by Dream, he has adverse reactions every time he sees something that reminds him of exile, he gets confused every time he even thinks about Dream and his “friendship” with him, he repeatedly asks Techno for comfort whenever he thinks about Dream.

so Dream shows up, Dream who helped Techno escape death and rescue his horse, Dream who’s obviously trying to be on Techno’s side. Dream who brings up these things he’s done to help Techno in an effort to, what, guilt trip? manipulate? force Techno into telling him where Tommy is. direct quote from Dream in today’s stream: “I will say, y’know, you owe me, a little bit. But—“

and here goes Techno. “Ah, that’s true, that’s true. See Dream, you don’t, you don’t gotta worry Dream. I am a person that believes in absolute reciprocity.”

like.... what? at face value that’s such an interesting way for him to phrase that. just say, “yeah i owe you one.” instead, Techno uses his big language, his fancy speak, talkin about reciprocity.

cause Techno’s been around Tommy. he knows how messed up Tommy is over Dream. he doesn’t know exactly what Dream has done to Tommy, not at all, but he knows a bit about it. and he completely covers for Tommy to Dream because Dream has no fuckin right to be asking after Tommy and Techno knows it.

Techno might owe Dream for the save, but it’s not a reciprocal action for Techno to rat out a traumatized teenager to someone who’s been manipulating them. Techno’s really growing on me y’all.

/rp /dsmp

so i was watching tommys stream right? and wilbur, like real life wilbur the person, brought up an interesting point. and that’s why is tommy lonely?

and i found that interesting because its a fair point. why is he lonely, especially from a writers perspective, which is what wilbur was asking from

because tommy is sad, theres no arguing about that. and he has ample reason to be sad, but to claim hes lonely is a different story. hes been visited by people almost everyday (mostly dream, but the others visit too, and also PM him) and also he keeps getting presents from people whenever they come and visit him

tubbo is basically the only person who hasn’t come to visit him, but wil also pointed out thats kind of a vapid reason for this extreme loneliness hes feelling, which is true

but i think its more the sudden lack of attention that tommys feeling. he, as a character, has essentially been the Main Character for the majority of the smp lore. yes, other characters have been important, but tommy has gotten used to being the centre of attention. hes gotten used to and dependent on the power of being ‘important’, and now that hes an option, for tubbo and for everyone else, he doesn’t know what to do (dream also fits into this in a way, but ill have to get into that in a different post lol)

hes realizing hes not the priority to other people, and im pretty sure thats just completely upended his worldview (remember, hes the “hero” that always comes out on top, that everything works out for) because hes facing consequences for his actions, and they suck. like they’re not fun

and its different from the first time, because now hes being exiled by himself, by his best friend, as a direct response to his actions, and people are just kinda going with it (its also a much more thorough exile than last time)

so its not that tommy doesn’t have friends, or that he is lonely because no ones isn’t visiting, or that people dislike him (which is an idea that he believes at this point), its that his ‘normal’ for how people treat him, and how they interact with him is so skewed that he only thinks people like him if he gets all of their attention and is their number one priority and is special. 

hes not used to this feeling of being by himself, and because he doesn’t know what it is, hes labelled it as loneliness

I’m really into internet discourse but only pointless and stupid internet discourse like how many holes there are in a straw (it’s 2)

Here’s that subclass! I do want to say, this class isn’t mine, I simply fixed the mechanics and some balancing issues. I don’t have the @ for the original, but if you look up Stitcher on DNDBeyond you’ll find them! (Just to give credit where it’s due.)

I plan to add some more upgrades, and more options for the Opus, and am willing to take suggestions, so hit me with your best ideas

sigh. oh to make ocs with other people. oh to collaborate on a narrative theres literally nothing more magical than that to me