Itlookslikeafreakinllama - Gallavich Owns My Soul

By the way, l love you Japril Fandom and l will never leave you.

i wish i could put things more eloquently but right now i’m too sad and i just need to air my thoughts out. 

april kepner embodies a messy, often antagonistic without wanting to be, funny and lovable character. she isn’t effortlessly sarcastic like cristina yang, or simply cool like meredith grey, no, she’s a mix of characteristics that makes her feel real, like a friend - almost, like someone i’ve watched grow on screen and feel deeply connected to. in april, i found myself, i recognized myself.

april once said she “sees eight sides of everything”, and that’s how i’ve always felt, in an underlying plateau between knowing who you are, who you want to be and the endless possibilities that could sway you both ways. 

i find comfort in knowing that whatever direction they decide to sway april’s end of arc in, she lived her life, she had the child she always wanted, she laughed and cried and made friends and had her big, epic love. her once in a lifetime soulmate.

i thank you, sarah drew, for the beautiful job you did at creating my most beloved character. your performances were ethereal, raw, and often left me in tears. 

i laughed with april, i cried with her, i fell in love with her love story, and i will continue to love and cherish her well beyond the show that treated both actress and character wrongly.

thank you, sarah. thank you, april.

i love this moment so much cause i think ian goes through lots of emotions during the whole ‘bashing mickey’ moment that byron is having. at first hes of course taken by surprise to hear that conversation. but as byron keeps complaining ian starts get pissed off at everything that he says, like he can’t believe anyone could ever badmouth mickey like that?

what do they even know about him? about everything he has done and gone through his life? the way he took care and loved ian despite everything they had to go through? who is he to judge him for not being “book” smart or simply not as pretentious as him and his friends?

as byron keeps digging his own grave, ian gets angrier, maybe realising that what the hell, they don’t understand mickey like he does, they won’t love him the way he deserves and ian wants to give that to him, wants to protect him and let him feel loved like he deserves. mickey had been bashed by everyone—

mandy saying mickey doesn’t need to do anything specific to server being beaten, terry wanting to kill him for being who he is, karen and veronica saying he’s dirty, lip saying falling for mickey means anyone else he ends up with will be better, fiona doubting mickey being there for ian after the diagnosis despite witnessing all he has done for him. and then mandy again finding out ian is dating someone else and how that’s an upgrade from mickey.

how mickey being rejected translated to him in ‘ian doesn’t love me enough, i got it it’s fine it is what is’ and the break up in s5 with mickey saying ‘this is it?’ just like he expected that to happen at some point no matter how much he tries he’s never going to be enough for ian.

but that’s not true cause ian did everything with mickey in mind thinking he’s going to be happier without ian and his bipolar but they don’t understand and love mickey the way ian does and no one deserves to be with mickey but ian cause he knows who mickey milkovich really is and he loves him more than anything in the world

The deeply worrying thing about catcalling is that the catcaller must know that their target isn’t going to turn around and fall in to their arms pleading ‘oh dear my please have sex with me here and now’. A lot of the time they know that. Often they don’t do it for that, someone who shouts ‘nice tits’ from a van isn’t trying to date you. They’re trying to humiliate you, reinforce their dominance over you; it’s an exercise of male power. It’s a way of communicating ‘I can say and do whatever I want to you, no matter how inappropriate or how uncomfortable it makes you feel, and you can’t do anything about it.’ Catcalling is not a compliment, it’s a threat.

Sometimes love comes back around.

I feel empty. I’m just so sad. What was the point of them living together? Of jackson being jelous about her going on a date? Of them raising harriet together like a real family? What was the point of Montana? Really what happened in montata wasn’t just sex…it was jackson opening up about his feelings and april being there for him, supporting him and being his rock…..and now this? This trash storyline? No thank you

Big difference. 

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Exit polls suggest DT cannot be caught? YOU STILL GO VOTE.

Exit polls suggest KH has it in the bag? YOU STILL GO VOTE.

Pundits are saying the country is swinging overwhelmingly red? YOU STILL GO VOTE.

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The biggest Democratic win in swing states means nothing if democrats don't turn out everywhere to keep the reliably blue states blue.

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NOTHING YOU SEE ON ELECTION DAY CONVINCES YOU NOT TO VOTE.