12x11 || 13x16

Are you sure it’s over?

cuddle queen jean visit before this season ends im speaking it into existence

When I think about it, I’m not sure what upsets me more: j*ggie? Or the fact they gave us Montana and than swept them completely aside with no explanation and no closure just to give us jaggie?

Maybe I would be able to accept j*ggie if japril had anything resembling closure? Maybe I would just be disgruntled instead of feeling like I’ve been slapped in the face.

Cause when I think back I can’t believe that they built up japrils season 13 arc to cumulate to the Montana episode to just…not follow thru or follow at all! And this isn’t a ploy to have a season finale cliffhanger, they went to Montana and slept together (which is a big deal!) and then japril didn’t interact for SEVEN FUCKING EPISODES!!! That infuriates me! Take a damn stand you freaking wussies!

i wish i could put things more eloquently but right now i’m too sad and i just need to air my thoughts out. 

april kepner embodies a messy, often antagonistic without wanting to be, funny and lovable character. she isn’t effortlessly sarcastic like cristina yang, or simply cool like meredith grey, no, she’s a mix of characteristics that makes her feel real, like a friend - almost, like someone i’ve watched grow on screen and feel deeply connected to. in april, i found myself, i recognized myself.

april once said she “sees eight sides of everything”, and that’s how i’ve always felt, in an underlying plateau between knowing who you are, who you want to be and the endless possibilities that could sway you both ways. 

i find comfort in knowing that whatever direction they decide to sway april’s end of arc in, she lived her life, she had the child she always wanted, she laughed and cried and made friends and had her big, epic love. her once in a lifetime soulmate.

i thank you, sarah drew, for the beautiful job you did at creating my most beloved character. your performances were ethereal, raw, and often left me in tears. 

i laughed with april, i cried with her, i fell in love with her love story, and i will continue to love and cherish her well beyond the show that treated both actress and character wrongly.

thank you, sarah. thank you, april.

whenever i think about the sleepover i think about the fact that ian and mickey were kissing at that point and they probably spent AGES making out because they had the time and it was probably the greatest night of their lives up to that point, and they were finally turning a corner and making progress and they definitely slept in mickey’s bed together and that’s it that’s where it ends NOTHING BAD EVER HAPPENS AGAIN

Nothing will ruin your 20’s more than thinking you should have your life together already.

Did anyone else try to imagine that the flirty scene between Minnick and Arizona in the elevator last night was instead Jackson and April? 👇 this Japril: Come back to us! Please?

OUR YOUTUBE

PP 5x22 // GA 11x09  [insp.]