Being a stupid impractical moron means never understanding how and why others think of you as stupid and childish. What’s your Problem why must I think like you Why must I worry myself with the materialistic affairs and ambitions you concern yourself with? Sometimes I think This is simply who I am and feel conviction in my desires and outlook on things but then I feel as though I should cower before others. Practical minded people are so Bad and Mean to me You’re all judgemental and hurtful I hope you feel sad for hurting a sweet creature like me. Shame on you!
The pattern persists and I see it playing Out how will it all end Will I save myself Is there something else for me
Perhaps I’ll learn to play the piano in the future
There is no desire without fear.
Perpetually discontent because I long for intimacy but I also don’t want others to impose themselves in my space. Don’t act as though we’re close, don’t insert yourself in everything I think or do, don’t take what’s mine. What I like is mine and you’re not allowed to waltz in and treat it as if it’s your own. I feel this about the things I like learning about. It’s mine, find another subject.
Never kill yourself sometimes you have to have a conversation with someone and learn something and share your thoughts life is worth living There is more for us in the world of ideas Run keep running go
But Please Plato . . . I am worthy .
I am aching for a life where I haven’t already failed at the ripe age of 20
So lonely So so lonely Nothing but lonely So alone