Your Will Shall Decide Your Destiny

My cute large hadron collider in my pockets Tiny and cute

But Please Plato . . . I am worthy .

The opposite of anxiety is not calmness, it is desire. Anxiety and desire are two, often conflicting, orientations to the unknown. Both are tilted toward the future. Desire implies a willingness, or a need, to engage this unknown, while anxiety suggests a fear of it. Desire takes one out of oneself, into the possibility of relationship, but it also takes one deeper into oneself. Anxiety turns one back on oneself, but only onto the self that is already known. There is nothing mysterious about the anxious state; it leaves one teetering in an untenable and all too familiar isolation. There is rarely desire without some associated anxiety: We seem to be wired to have apprehension about that which we cannot control, so in this way, the two are not really complete opposites. But desire gives one a reason to tolerate anxiety and a willingness to push through it.

Open to Desire

Mark Epstein

I can’t talk to people I am bad at communication Verbal communication is awful for me

Sappho, If Not Winter: Fragments of Sappho (tr. by Anne Carson)

I will derive Lorentz factor soon!

Neeed to derive centripetal force. and derive the Lorentz factor Again

Choice feminism only appears to be an attempt at upholding the status quo under the patriarchy while preaching to women they’re empowering themselves. How does one truly argue these acts are empowering or feminist? Step back from the make-up example but think about the number of cultures and religions globally that have a rigid adherence to patriarchal gender roles— many women within these cultures happily do make choices that leave them vulnerable, abused, degraded, and ultimately seen as lesser beings than men. But they made that choice… what would you say about the nature of that choice? Empowering? Divorce and marrying later in life or perhaps even not marrying at all is a choice many women can make but what are the social repercussions of that? Can women make certain choices without being demeaned by those around them? Can they divorce or live a child-free life while being seen as a whole and fulfilled human?

Pet peeve:

someone makes a statement on how society socializes women to focus on their appearance and dress up in ways men never have to in order to look good/feel good/and feel valued but now comes another woman [choice feminist] saying: ‘But if you want to wear makeup it’s your choice! Remember it’s always okay to do what’s best for you!”

The mere idea that it is women alone who are expected to perform beauty rituals to simply be comfortable enough to exist in many places makes you uncomfortable. You jump to defend make-up despite no one condemning make-up in totality… look at our feminists!