ok so hear me out.
i was watching reels on instagram and then this reel pops up it says "when is something that you do for yourself?"
i ask this to myself or simply answer it like it was meant for me. i say "photography" and the last time i did it was this morning when i woke up to a beautiful sunset and i rushed to capture it because it was different of orange and brown (picture inserted).
my answer is followed by a thought in my head which brings me to tumblr because i wanted to save it here. it says that i clicked the picture and sent it to a friend or two and while i rushing to take the picture of the sky in the back of my mind i had this thing that they like the pictures of the sky and cloud and this sucks. not that they like but that SOMETHING THAT I DO FOR MYSELF - PHOTOGRAPHY is linked to someone now! i am destroying my art. my creativity. i feel so ashamed and embarrassed because i should have never done this in the first place. i was doing one thing for myself and i linked it to someone now and its not for me anymore?
i sincerely apologise to my art. ill be very attentive from now on and what follows my thought cause seconds thoughts are always important and its important to know whats going on in your brain. so just take a look at your brain like you are peeping out of your window and you can see the road? the buildings? the stuff going on there? and all.
I hate when somebody i don't deal with anymore is in my dream like ugh wtf does this even mean
Needed to get this Hobie out my system. Yall were NOT lying about that intense spark of inspiration after watching this film
Evergreen
real
dont freak out because of the title.
im a disappointment. nothing i do is ever good. i hope i die when i am depressed again.
edit - 27th sept, 23 today. this post is gross. i dont ever wanna be this shit.
A Murakami protagonist day-
•Wake up at 4 am
•go for a run
•take a shower
•change your sheets
•do your laundry
•study for four hours straight
•follow a cat through the neighborhood
•get the groceries for one or two meals
•read a book in silence
•call an old friend
•take a train to the next town
•watch people from afar
•go to dinner alone
•sit on your couch and listen to a full album
•have a cup of coffee
•sit on your balcony at night
•draw/paint
#qotd - What is your go-to recommendation that you always recommend to people looking for a diverse voice read?
just painted an onion on a cutting board and i think it’s the peak of my artistic career
man this is like the worst year for tech and websites
in pfp - hozier; in banner - picture from pinterest (credits to the owner.) also hi, im avika. nice to meet you.
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