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last 5 days of June 2023

had a whole caption for this with what I'm up to, but I'll let the pics speak for themselves (other than the lower left one, that's homemade coffee jelly with home made, manually whisked whipped cream, hahaha)

but instead, i've been thinking of things to do for this gap year (not in order of priority)

learn spanish – suddenly thought how none of us spoke Spanish anymore, my grandmother on mama's side is 1/2 Spanish, I think she was the last to speak the language. ik i have a loooong way to go wit Korean, Japanese and Mandarin (actually ... i think i just forgot all i learned w mandarin from how a lot of things are happening at once ??) also this would most likely be easier than the ones i started, according to mama haha

get part time job/s – this girl needs money for books 😮‍💨 i'm not much of a spender but uni requires so much so this time i want to buy something non-academic ??

read lots of books again !!!

learn sign language – something i feel is very important.

consistently work out + eat healthier this time please – lowkey want to start befriending my enemy: cardio

appreciate more, wake up earlier again

be more consistent with my quiet and prayer times.

do lots of volunteer work

improve on my lacking areas (eg social skills 🥸)

spend more time with my family and pets ofc, something that's 10th here but is top priority before i start internship

with those tho i'll be allotting study times respiratory therapy related. very grateful to have found a mentor at this time, sometimes having someone such as your prof tell you they believe you can do great things is very heart warming, inspirational and makes you really go for that goal or more !!

anw tho its 1145pm at the moment, haven't finished working out but very determined to better myself — new month, new week, new opportunities and beginnings.

idk why im reblogging this lmao.

Romantic student things

1. Sharing shy smiles and blushes as they pass each other in the crowded hallways, their hearts fluttering with anticipation.

2. Writing secret love letters in the margins of textbooks, passing them discreetly in class.

3. Sneaking glances at each other during a captivating lecture, their eyes meeting briefly before looking away, a silent connection forged.

4. Meeting by chance in the library, discovering a shared love for a particular book or author, and engaging in deep conversations about literature.

5. Leaving small notes hidden in each other's lockers or textbooks, conveying sweet messages or inside jokes.

6. Studying together in a quiet corner of the library, their heads bent over books, occasionally stealing longing glances.

7. Sharing a secret rendezvous in an empty classroom after school, their whispers and stolen kisses echoing in the quiet space.

8. Passing each other handwritten notes during a boring lecture, filled with doodles, song lyrics, and love-struck confessions.

9. Working on a group project together, finding solace in late-night study sessions filled with laughter, teasing, and shared cups of coffee.

10. Taking turns leaving surprise gifts, like a single rose or a favorite snack, in each other's lockers to brighten their day.

11. Sharing a stolen moment under a blooming cherry blossom tree on campus, petals falling around them like confetti as they exchange a tender kiss.

12. Collaborating on a school event or performance, their talents and passions intertwining to create something beautiful together.

13. Passing notes during a particularly boring class, filled with doodles and funny anecdotes, their laughter hidden behind cupped hands.

14. Supporting each other during nerve-wracking presentations or exams, offering encouraging smiles and reassuring touches.

15. Graduating together, their hearts brimming with pride and excitement for the future, knowing they have someone special by their side.

im god's child and im a mess. neither beautiful nor ugly. im just his mess and i love being one.

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Things that you need to remember to understand the vast majority of European history:

Britain and France’s foreign policies towards one another was essentially a mutual fuck you

Russia is big and cold

(On a related point: invading Russia doesn’t work because Winter™️)

The Pope loves a good crusade

There were a lot of treaties of ‘Perpetual Peace’ that totally worked (lol)

Trying to maintain the ✨balance of power ✨ pretty much always led to war 

German wasn’t Germany until quite recently but when Germany became Germany it made everyone a bit nervous

Italy also wasn’t Italy until pretty recently

The French love a revolution

They also love a republic but aren’t great at keeping one around 

Napoleon (the first one) was a Bitch and messed everything up

Standard British answer to any reasonable request: ✨no ✨

War is the answer to everything cause who doesn’t love a good war?

The Holy Roman Empire wasn’t the Roman Empire but they liked to tell themselves that it was

The Habsburgs liked to be in charge

😍 m o n e y 😍

Britain liked ships

Spain also liked ships

So did the Portuguese

The Spanish were very Catholic  (but the Spanish Inquisition were actually expected)

Basically all the royals were related (*haemophilia has entered the chat*)

England and Scotland were Not Friends but France and Scotland were (which equaled Major Problems)

The Dutch were 💰rich 💰and everyone wanted a bit of it

Religion was a *bit* of an issue

✨ feudalism ✨

Everyone want to be the Romans 2.0 

You could making a drinking game out of all the French Wars of Religion

Everyone found the Ottomons a little bit scary (cause they were *gasps and screams of horror* not Christian)

There has been more than one defenestrations in Prague 

Poland Lithuania was not very Lithuanian

British policy to land/important cultural item/anything that they come across: ✨finders keepers ✨

lol

it all starts to kick in when im sad for nothing.

i read this on pinterest in a post and it said whenever we are randomly sad its because there are souls which left earth and no one mourned over it or about it and so when we feel sad we are mourning for them which makes absolute sense to me.

TIL that in 1903 the New York Times predicted that building a flying machine would be possible in 1-10 Million years.

via ift.tt

fairytales are true.

runnning lowww on serotonin

girl in red aka marie ulven ringheim <3

been vibing to this song lately and i think im absolutely in love with her because of the way this music is produced and the lyrics (after referring to genius).

i dont like all the artists working or producing music for mental health/highlighting mental issue but i really love GIR because -

that is a GIRL

that is MARIE aka GIR (loml)

these two reasons are enough?

but jokes apart, i really love the way she works on her music and delivers the exact message and the feeling we are supposed to be feeling after listening to a song by her which is really tough in today's time. its said that music is a time capsule and besides this it has the power to make every individual feel something different and hence a bunch of feelings projecting out from a single song??? wohooo powerful, no? YES!

(bts - i relate/ used to relate to music which talks about mental health and feeling low and similar stuff. i have been there so maybe thats why? and ofc i still think about this question that "am i really supposed to be feeling this way? or am i just being too much?" so i try to suppress my feeling and in turn i gift myself a breakdown. we are dealing with something, isnt it? we got this! it gets better. trust me.)

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2023-06-11

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