Not Really Human Enough, I Guess.

fighting the urge to say thank you for talking to me

all i can think about is how much of a burden my love is. love shouldn't be a burden. it should be a wonderful thing that makes you feel good. but mine is a burden. my love can hurt you. my love is something you dread. my love is a poison. my love is a weight to bear. my love is a grievance.

i just want to love without consequence.

Help my pookie get her moots back

THEY GOT MY SHIT HOES

@im-made-of-crushed-little-stars

@cuttingbeans4

@woundcaretips

Pls reblog to help me find all my other moots 🙏

God I hate that I'm lowkey so obsessed with my friend like if my friend doesn't message me I'm not happy but the second I get a text I jumping with joy I wish I wasn't so obsessed with my friend

How long can you hold your breath when the hands of death pull you down into the emptiness?

I never thought I grow up wanting to die.

its okay. Its okay i know you hate me. Im so sorry. I only make things worse and im so sorry, i really did try my best to make everything so nice and perfect for you, but i know im cursed to only make things worse and for you to hate me and to never be loved. Theres nothing that could fix me and i deserve the loneliness i feel. Im so sorry i got so attached. Im so fucking stupid for thinking things can be okay when im involve with it. Im such a dumbass. I deserve to be killed. It would be the greatest mercy anyone could grant me. If i were to kill myself and succeed it would be the one thing in my life i ever did right. You deserve better. Im not good enough for you and im so sorry i made you like me for the idiot that i am. I want nothing more than to bash my brains in with a hammer and wish that the sight could make you smile one last time, because at least then i would still make you happy instead of being angry and disappointed with me.

i can see it in the way you text and write to me. You havent told me things were okay. I didnt mean to make things worse.

Please. Just kill me

Why is it so hard to ask simple questions like "hey you wanna calling just feel like I can't cause I'm bothering people

Vent since I'm pissed

Tw sh

My one friend is pissing me off so bad she told me something and I said ok and then said "don't go telling anyone I know you like to do that" and all I think is how she told me a week ago that are whole friendship was built off her using me for homework and I'm the backstaber. Like I feel like she's a bad friend cause she made me so upset I relapsed and I can't even say anything cause she will make it about herself and I know she will cause when I told her I self harm the next day she came to school waving her arm in my face showing me her cuts like were twins now and it makes me feel like I'm the asshole for self harming in the first place.

If anyone actually read this thank you for listening and if you have any advice please share if you want I honestly don't no what to do