08.04.2025

21/100 days of productivity!

Good day beautiful people! Hope u r having an amazing day filled with positive energy! Log: 24.4.25

Morning walk

Reading session

Proper lunch

4h Research session

afternoon cleaning

cook dinner - call home

Read before bed and yoga

Journal _MH check

I am safe in this moment, grounded and confident in my own skin. Good days are just around the corner, and even my darkest places are beginning to glow. Everything is unfolding as it should — I trust the journey, no matter what. With a heart full of gratitude, I welcome the miracles life is preparing for me.

I'm back

I’ve been so busy in these days that I hadn't even got time for myself.

I've tried Histology again and again, but nothing seems to work. Honestly I'm tired and frustrated, because I have studied A LOT. I guess its a matter of luck 🥲🍀

Here there are few photos from the past days, lessons and study sessions were intense (there’s my cat trying to give me some moral support).

Good study to everyone! 💕✨💕

ed zitron, a tech beat reporter, wrote an article about a recent paper that came out from goldman-sachs calling AI, in nicer terms, a grift. it is a really interesting article; hearing criticism from people who are not ignorant of the tech and have no reason to mince words is refreshing. it also brings up points and asks the right questions:

if AI is going to be a trillion dollar investment, what trillion dollar problem is it solving?

what does it mean when people say that AI will "get better"? what does that look like and how would it even be achieved? the article makes a point to debunk talking points about how all tech is misunderstood at first by pointing out that the tech it gets compared to the most, the internet and smartphones, were both created over the course of decades with roadmaps and clear goals. AI does not have this.

the american power grid straight up cannot handle the load required to run AI because it has not been meaningfully developed in decades. how are they going to overcome this hurdle (they aren't)?

people who are losing their jobs to this tech aren't being "replaced". they're just getting a taste of how little their managers care about their craft and how little they think of their consumer base. ai is not capable of replacing humans and there's no indication they ever will because...

all of these models use the same training data so now they're all giving the same wrong answers in the same voice. without massive and i mean EXPONENTIALLY MASSIVE troves of data to work with, they are pretty much as a standstill for any innovation they're imagining in their heads

lately i've been having to remind myself that it's okay i'm not making as much academic progress as quick as i'm used to. i have a pet and a full time career that i'm juggling in addition to trying to be an adult. it's alright to let yourself be and rest after a hard day's work, even if that work wasn't academic.

Thursday, the 15th of May 2025

After I came home from rowing, I couldn't move a muscle. We hadn't the time for a break out on the water and had foolishly chosen a more difficult to handle boat while also not having someone to steer it. It was exhausting to do both. I kept turning around since it was busy out on the canals and I had to steer us with the sculls myself. Nevertheless, I adore being out with the boat. The sky and sun are bright, the wind refreshing and on the shores sit happy people: reading, playing with their dogs, having a barbecue or a drink. I too treated myself but to a pizza and quiet night with a book. Despite that, I carried the exhaustion into the new day and find it difficult to focus on my Czech essays. Somehow I have the ludicrous expectation to make it perfect, all-encompassing, when a good reflection is simply dependent on a specific question and a well-conceived argument.

will i finish this degree or will this degree finish me

It’s a privilege to study, many women around the world are barred from this human right: to read, write and learn. Be grateful anytime your pen touches paper, or you are learning theorems developed by intelligent, hardworking men and women from ages ago.

It’s a pleasure and a privilege to learn. Not only is it a privilege to study, but you should be aiming and striving to take science, medicine, law, philosophy, art further than the marker we have reached. It’s a comforting thought to think, from your work generations of humanity down the line will benefit.

How many brilliant women were in the shadows of amazing feats of science and technology and life changing patents? Contribute while you can. If you pour into knowledge - it will pour back into you.

~life update~

the past few days i've been really rough. i went out to dinner to celebrate one of my bestie's 21'st bday which was really fun. the beef short rib was super good. however, i started feeling really bad when I got home and i went to the dr the next morning. i tested negative for covid, flu, and strep so really no idea what's going on there but i got some lovely antibiotics so that's helping a bit. they did a throat culture to test for epstein-barr virus (mono) so answers soon?

i'm supposed to be taking the network+ certification tomorrow so we'll see if that happens but probably not. I can't even sit up straight bc of a killer headache. going to try and knock out some studying today for the holiday and tomorrow.

42/100

Log: 15 May

Research Report Tasks

Chp 1 & 2: Fix citations (in-text + references).

Chp 2: Edit diagrams (labels, clarity, formatting)

DD_30 Challenge – Day 12