Realising That I Am An Aromantic Was Actually So Freeing. Like Yeah, At The Beginning I've Had Not The

Realising that I am an aromantic was actually so freeing. Like yeah, at the beginning I've had not the best start with figuring out how to escape relationships I have been in, but damn I'll ever change the way things are going right now.

My whole life I was surrounded with weird for me expectations: to find a partner and have this life full of romance, find someone that will be my "second half", have this romantical moments with this person, have dates and etc. I was hearing from almost everywhere how important this "Love" is and that I should have the same. Because "that's the most fulfilling thing in life". And so I pretended. Pretended that I actually feel this. And damn I was so good at this, that at some point I convinced MYSELF, that I feel it. Realising that romance wasn't for me and that I'm not suited for it anyhow was so... Relaxing? I finally don't need to look through everyone I see in hopes something will "drag" me to them, I don't need to have this awkward "Is this what couples do, isn't it?" thought living constantly in my mind because of trying TO CONVINCE myself I love someone. There's no thinking about "Do I love my friend?" after every social interaction because I obviously DON'T. And of course, I'm not thinking that I'm broken or damaged because well... I'm not.

Realising that I'm aro was one of the most important and fantastic things in my life. I still have to deal with pressure because of the society I live in but... that's not as painful as it was. Because I know who I am and that it'll probably stay like this for the rest of my life. And that I don't need to run after the concepts that I don't need and don't understand. Yes, I can find them entertaining in media for sure but... There's no pressure from myself that tells me to try to fit in for the simple reason: "Everyone has it, you should too".