"And With That I Bid You Adieu."

“We’ll get through this. Together." (spoiler: They did not.)

Here's my first post for this year's @akusaimonth! Prompt: "Holding while the other cries" ID in alt. My prompt card is under the cut!

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 15: SET C - “Acts of Love & Hate”

It didn't matter that he wore a different name or a different face. I wanted to destroy him. It was a desire, roaring deep inside of me, overwhelming everything else. It was his fault. His fault. 

Destroying him wouldn’t fix what had happened, but it would set me free. 

Of him. Of you. 

Of the pain I refused to feel.

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Di[e]ce Appreciation Week | Day 2: Focus

This time, I will protect you. You alone are my reason to live.

I’ve never felt this alive before.

I think Naoto is my favourite Di[e]ce character, except for Haruki. Then again, this always tends to depend on who’s important for the story at the moment. I love all of them. But Naoto ... Naoto ... aww.

I just love how he leaves everything behind, all of his past and his fears and insecurities to concentrate on what matters the most to him.

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 8: SET C - “Ultimate Demise”

“So pathetic. Weren’t you trying to protect your friend? Now look what you have done.” “What ... what did you do to Lea?!” “No, the real question is: what did you do?” “What are you talking about! I didn’t do anything.” “Precisely. You just watched as he sacrificed himself. Even now, you do nothing. Aaah ... now, do you really think looking at me with such hateful eyes will bring your precious friend back?” “You killed him.” “Killed him? Dear boy, do you really think, this is what death looks like? No, he’s not dead.” “Then what?!” “Hmhm... Do you wish to see him again? Do you wish to save him? I can bring you to him.”

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Anyone who thinks I'm exaggerating – think again.

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 11: SET C - “Patterns”

How could you smile like that? How could you smile without a heart.

Everything was becoming routine so fast. I was separated from everyone else from the start. I realized it, yet this was giving me the best access to information, so I welcomed it anyway. You never stopped smiling whenever I send you off to those missions. You were joking and grinning, like nothing had happened. Like nothing was wrong at all. You seemed to do so perfectly fine. Unlike me.

I tried to tell myself that I was doing all this for you, for us, so we could go home together, as whole beings again, but soon the thought began to change in my head. It didn’t take long before I found myself blaming you for everything. A little more every time you smiled at me.

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Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 7: Fluffy /2

This is actually kind of old, I made this pic for AxelSaix Day in 2012, but I figured this'd be a good opportunity to upload it here. It's by far not perfect, but I still like it :) (I mean, look at Saix' face! He seems so happy ... x´D whyyyyy)

I know this is already on tumblr and I think that's sort of sad, because I never gave my permission for it. But whatever, I can't change it, I guess.

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 7: [Free Day]

Today is a special day. Not only is it AkuSai day, it’s also my 5th anniversary as a fan of AkuSai! To celebrate this event, I decided to redraw the very first AkuSai drawing I ever did! ... ... ... I ... well. I guess my drawing style changed a bit, hahaha.

(I can’t believe I got into this ship because I wanted Axel to be happy. I mean. AkuSai. Happy. Wow. I guess, I had some serious misconceptions about Saix back then, and not only about his hair, haha.)

Well, I hope you all enjoyed AkuSaiMonth as much as I did! <3 Also, thank you for sticking around with me and for shipping this wonderful, painful, beautiful, terrible ship!

Di[e]ce Appreciation Week | Day 3: Reflection

sweet characters… sad backstorys.. feeeeeeels Dx

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 12: SET C - “Gradient”

Your behavior towards me changed. You changed.

It was important to keep a close eye on the wielder of the keyblade. Up to this very day, I cannot claim to know the full truth behind Xemnas’ – behind Xehanort’s plan. The essential part this boy played in it was obvious nonetheless. It was only logical to let you watch him.

As always though, you didn’t quite act as I was expecting. You never did, and still I could have never forseen the outcome this would cause. By the time I realized, it was already too late.

I was already losing you to him.

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