The Black Paladins.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 20: Teamwork

[Wir sind unzertrennlich // We are inseparable wir sind unvergänglich // we are everlasting Wir sind unzertrennlich // we are inseparably in unserer Welt verloren // lost in our world] [Unzertrennlich – Revolverheld] "Lea, are you even listening?“ "Uhm – sometimes?“ Actually I was just lost in my thoughts somehow. Happens from time to time. "Sometimes? You are aware that school starts in three days?“ "Yeah, I know, I was just thinking …“ "Thinking.“ You sounded as though you doubted I could do that even if I tried. "I thought 'I hope we can always be together like that'“, I said straight enough. And of course you’re caught of guard. And of course I can see your face brighten up, almost shine for one moment, before you turn back to your usual sarcastic pokerface. "Stuck up in homework? No, thank you.“ Still, I can see the little smile you can’t hold back and I know that you are wishing for it just as much as I do. Then again, I already knew that before, didn’t I?

I love it when Axel explains summer vacations in 358/2 Days. I can't help but imagine him and Isa doing exactly that, postponing homework to the very last moment and just somehow managing to get it done in time together. I don't know, this thought makes me just so happy xD

(referring to this post)

So, I decided to do it like this from now on. Writing all the background info on my pictures in an extra post, rather than stuffing it into the caption. I just don’t feel very well when people reblog pictures with my sometimes very personal thoughts in the captions. It’s strange to see that on other people’s blogs. Also, this way I can write to my heart’s content. All of the unnecessary stuff noone wants to know anyway! <3 Yay.

(I’ll tag this as “dias art blabber”, by the way.)

So, let’s do this. Background infos, thoughts and close ups below the cut.

Starting Point // Summary? There were three reasons for this picture: a) another onset of winter in the midst of May gave me the right inspiration to finally get that spring flower thing out of my head; b) the nice tags by some people added drastically to that + someone wrote that they “miss miss miss” my art and apparently they only ever see my akusais, so here you go ;) ; and c) it’s my 78th post. It called for some AkuSai. -like stuff.

Finding the motif // flowers The basic idea behind this picture was Roxas with this flower. We call them Sky’s/Heaven’s Keys. (sky and heaven are the same word in German ... I guess it means heaven, but I always understood it as sky. When I was a child I’d always imagine flying and unlocking the sky with one of those flowers …) They are my absolute favourite spring flowers and I found them fitting for Roxas. Not just because of the name, but also on an emotional base.

I figured quiet fast that I should get Xion and Axel onto the pic as well. Xion would of course get Forget-Me-Nots. Which is not very creative, I guess. xD Yet so undeniably fitting. For Axel it was Cuckoo’s Flowers. One of the few pink things I liked as a child. Probably because it wasn’t some “girlish baby colour”, but a really hot pink that really sticked out. Aaaalso, cuckoos are brood parasites, not so sure how you think about that, but in my opinion that connotation suits Axel.

// the rest Still I didn’t know how to get that onto a picture. Until it snowed some day in the middle of May. This was exactly the input I needed. I just thought, that if the Sea Salt Trio was spring flowers, then Saix would be the snow. The last picture followed to bring the picture to an end. It seemed so unfinished, almost like a lie, with the three of them happy.

Upload // Or: Tumblr hates me I did really have a hard time uploading this thing. I literally tried everything. Even with the supposingly working size of 540 x 810 px the pictures were still blurry ... I even tried to reduce the height by cutting the pictures into parts. Still blurry. At some point I just decided that I didn’t care anymore. They are clear on my blog or when they are clicked. That’s enough.

Close Ups // I promised them and here they are! That’s about the size I worked on when I was colouring, the original sketches are waaay smaller, they are drawn on DIN A4 paper (see comparison in the end). 

I like to set these two into some sort of ... contrasting parallels? Like, creating opposites, yet showing the similarities at the same time. Wow, does this even make any sense? xD I used more colour on the bottom of the last picture, because I really wanted the red to be strong there. That image is supposed to have a sad at first and then almost hateful atmosphere. I wanted it to have an unsettling effect  when scrolling down (and letting it sink in, of course).

Axel looks like a flower himself. x’D Especially in those colours …

When my youngest sister saw the picture with the three of them she asked me, if they were marrying. x’D

Size comparison with the actual drawing; the flowers in their hands are like super mini tiny.

So, in case you did read this, thanks a lot! Would you mind letting me know what you think about it, please? Like, does it make sense to do this? What are the interesting parts? What is not? Anything else that you would like to know/see? Did you like the close ups?

Anyway, thank you very very much for showing interest! :D That’s basically the reason for me to finish pictures and put them up on here. You, that is.

Kaz “I don’t need anyone and like hell I’m in love” Brekker.

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 2: Lyrics

Then your fragments show. [Fragments - Erio]

I’m sorry for the cheesy, uncreative idea, but I know KH3 won’t end good for those two, so I’ve made it my personal mission to draw as much Good-End! AkuSai as I can. Fight me if you dare. (  9   >   A  < )9/p>

Koujaku Week: ｢tattoo｣ // ｢scars｣

My probably only entry for Koujaku Week! Everything about his tattoos fascinates me, from their symbolism to everything they stand for in the game/anime. Also, Koujaku is an amazing character and he deserves to be happy.

Photos taken by my little sister Joey (Edited by me). (Special thanks to my other little sister Fiff, for helping out with the light and replacing fallen flowers.) Tattoo from dmmdresources.

Oops, it’s been a while. No, I’m still not dead, I just ... kind of forgot to post my art here as well. I’m currently more active on Instagram  (-> https://www.instagram.com/herzblutrose/)

I’m scheduling some drawings now though. I think I’ll post one drawing a day,  so you won’t get 15 posts at once shoved into your face.

Thanks for sticking around!

Two posts in one day? Yes.

Happy AkuSai Day!!!

FIRST BINGO! WUHUU!

Links to each of my entries for AkuSaiMonth 2015 in this post!

I'm not dead

And to proof that I have a WIP of my actual AkuSaiMonth (that is long gone, but who cares? xDD) day 22 fill for you!

(it's actually almost done, just needs a bit more ... finetuning. I love coloring with crayons (or colored pencils? I'm still not sure how to call them ö_ö), but it always takes me quiet some time.)

Nah, seriously, sorry for being so inactive, I'm quiet surprised that I still have that many followers (even more that I had before actually x'D)

I'm a bit busy lately, summer's over so now I've got time for conventions, which means, I've got to finish my cosplays x'D (I still need to do the Deadly Nadder costume I promised to my sister and the fitting Astrid Hofferson for me until mid october @_@")

My main problem though is that my Photoshop broke down. I got a bluescreen and now it's acting like I never activated it in the first place and when I'm trying to open it, it's just telling me that it's going to install the test version, Yeah great, thank you. (I am now officially desperate enough to use PS Elements on the PC in the hotel I'm working to edit my pictures; i just can't upload any unedited pictures =_=" My pride won't allow it)

Once I solved that problem there will be more pictures again, promise.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 11: Textures

Ah, what a mean topic for someone who's working in traditional media. I tried to figure something out for this one for days and what I came up with was actually very obvious: A collage with different textured paper.

This was a very interesting experience as well, never before had I realized how much emotions and memories I connected to different sorts of paper. So, there was a logical reason why I'd use which paper (for example a silky one for Saix' hair and a rough for Axel's) as well as an emotional (the band that connects them for example is made out of an really old paper that's terrible to draw on and even worse to cut, but for me it stands for some of my happiest childhood memories and a deep and genuine friendship, so it sort of fits.)

This pictue is an ACEO card. I don't know if you know about them, they are very popular in the german language area, but I've never heard of them from anywhere else. ö_ö ACEO cards (or KaKAO cards, as they are called in german) are cards in the size of 6,4 x 8,9 cm, which are made to trade or sell them. This one here is actually two cards, but I couldn't get myself to cut them apart so it will stay one Maxi KaKAO. xD

And well, I would like to give it away. After all that's the meaning of such a card anyway and I find the thought to send it to some AkuSai Fan anywhere in the world actually very exciting. So, if anyone would like to have it please tell me in an ask! :)

edit: It found a new home :D Yay!