Desperately In Love With Dior Lachance. But Also Gabriel. And Aaron.

story of my life

"are you okay?" no I got way too attached to a fictional character and now they're dead

350 pages worth of soul destroying jean content and the fandom is instead choosing to focus on andrew's cheese drawer. love it

Fictional man obsession of this month:

✨️Lestat de Lioncourt✨️

(1994 movie version, currently reading the vampire chronicles as well)

forget "wyd" I need a man to tell me he yearns for my presence from afar

i am an open book

it's just that nobody bothers to read it

a question that hasn't let me go since finishing AFTG:

in a timeline where the perfect court worked out, would neil be a striker or a backliner?

while he was at the nest, riko made him play as a backliner but he performed rather poorly, and yet riko marked him #4 for his perfect court.

even though his special potential only showed when he played as a striker for the foxes.

but the perfect court was supposed to be riko (1) and kevin (2) for strikers, and jean called neil his partner that got away or something so we can assume that the planned backliners were jean (3) and neil (4)

did riko really gamble on neil's ability to adjust to being defense, or would he have been a striker sub??

it's my birthday and my dad surprised me with a GORGEOUS book nook that he spent 20 hours building in secret.. so touched and I wish I was tiny so that I could abandon society and go live in the book nook (it's an antique cozy library)

ew what is this new app icon I want the old one back

TW: self-harm

it just came to mind that andrew minyard likely vividly remembers inflicting every single scar upon himself, plus the pain that caused him to do so, and the armbands are a constant reminder and he'll never fully heal from that and now my day is ruined

as a person who formerly struggled with sh and carries scars very similar to his (3 years clean and going strong!) i'm genuinely so glad i barely remember the worst of my pain even if i'll always be marked by it. but having his memory seems more like a curse than a "gift" in this case

my love for you is stronger than my hatred for myself.