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firzgerald really sat down and went “hm today I will put an nazi in my novel”

O’ captain,

My captain

Can we just acknowledge that Lottie is the only person we ever see Nat accept comfort from? Throughout the series, in both timelines, Nat suffers alone and in silence. Travis reaches out to touch her after both Javi and Coach Ben’s deaths, but she walks past him in both instances. When she finds Travis’ body, Misty attempts to comfort her but Nat pushes her away. Whenever Nat breaks down, she turns inward, shutting others out instead of seeking connection. Nowhere is this more evident than in the final moments of 3x09, when she begins to sob and everyone around her vanishes, leaving her utterly alone. It’s a visual metaphor for the profound isolation that defines how Nat experiences pain.

Given the nature of Nat’s home environment, I don’t think she ever learned how to accept tenderness and physical intimacy beyond sex. It’s foreign to her. And, on a deeper level, I think she doesn’t believe she deserves this kind of intimacy and unconditional care.

But, in this moment with Lottie, she finally allows herself to be held. For what might be the first time in her life, she feels safe enough to surrender, to lean into someone else’s care without flinching. She even feels safe enough to regress to a younger version of herself, a form of healing her inner child as she lays her head on Lottie’s lap. We see Nat engage in simple hello or goodbye hugs (or moments of sexual intimacy) with other characters, but Lottie is truly the only character Nat physically embraces in this unguarded, emotionally vulnerable way.

I want to empathize as a fellow transfem but I REALLY hate Olympic fencing and that overrides everything else. Olympic fencers deserve discrimination I think.

I feel like calling this “an engineering marvel of our ancestors” is a bit… weird. This wasn’t made by the Romans or something. This was post-industrial. It’s not really any more impressive than something made today.

Safe deposit lockers manufactured during 1840. One of the engineering marvel of our ancestors. Great !

why the FUCK would you have cheese or butter with vegetables that so gross. in a just universe those two foods should never come in contact with each other.

diet talk is so inexpressibly nonsensical the instant you know anything about "the human body" or "nutrition" or if you think about it for three seconds

have I ever mentioned how much I fucking hate meditation/mindfulness/etc

how r u a radical but still defend the us? radically centrist?

I prefer radical liberal. And America is the only liberal-democratic Great Power.

The “I get shown Nat-Lottie stuff, which is amazing!” thing is still frying me. Like, Courtney, baby, you’re the Head Lottinater, clocking in to perceive every edit and give it your blessing like it’s a 9-5 (much appreciated) and we all *know.* Never change

Winning the " narratively haunted by your high school queerplatonic situationship" competition