At The Age Of 24 And 25 A Lot Of Things Had Happened In My Life. One Of The Most Significant Things Was

At the age of 24 and 25 a lot of things had happened in my life. One of the most significant things was that I got to know my sexuality. I realised I was asexual.

Well, I'll explain my experience here and hope that it'll help someone, someday.l

I've always had huge crushes over a number of celebrities (mostly men) and few in real life as well. I have sexual fantasies about them too. But things started to change when I realised that my fellow 25 year olds are much more sexually active and they hold much kore desire for sexual intimacy than me.

Ever since I was a teenager, my body was developing, I always hated to be seen as a woman. I used to wear baggy clothes, boy-clothes, I had stopped wearing earrings, I wore pants much more than skirts, cut my nails short - anything to avoid be seen as desirable.

I grew up and I realised that I do feel romantic feelings towards (mostly) men. So, I started to think that I'm not broken afterall. Then, with time, I realised that I cannot stay in a relationship with someone for more than a few months - when things start to get serious, I look for an escape.

Then one day, with a sudden urge, out of nowhere, I cut my hair short - like a pixie short. In a few days I started to feel the shift, how I feel more confident with this hair. Then one day, while browsing through the internet I found asexuality, greysexuality, demisexuality and all.

It says that we can have sexual thoughts, romantic feelings towards someone and still be asexual. We can have sex and still can be asexual. This orientation is of the people who don't necessarily always feel the urge to be sexually engaged to someone. It doesn't always have to be a childhood trauma result. It's completely normal - YOU are completely NORMAL. 🤗