Born to be held in the Marquis de Sade's dungeon, forced to have a life and make decisions
It does feel bad sometimes. But tbh I don't even know my own eye color, they look like they have all the colors but with low saturation. And other people sometimes too have it kind of hard to decipher
My entire childhood I didn't understand why do people put eye color in the description of other people, or as one of the main attributes of a missing person. Because I thought "Who even notices this? Eyes are too tiny to be paid that much attention to." Fast forward some years later I find out people DO just casually look into everybody's eyes long enough to notice and remember this detail and I'm the autistic odd one who is distracted by the moving mouth. Still funny to think about.
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Haha I lowkey am only capable of feeling emotional empathy towards people in which I see a significant portion of myself in and it's profoundly impacting my ability to connect with people around me and I feel like a monster hahaha what is wrong with me (like I genuinely feel more empathy towards plushies than towards people).
Couple times when someone asked me why I don't eat meat I responded with "I have empathy" but I only recently realized that it's all just cognitive empathy. When I think about cows being raped to produce milk I don't feel anything, I just know it's wrong.
There's only a handful of people I ever genuinely cared about (two of which are not even irl but from here which feels pathetic) and it's blowing my mind that normal people just feel that all the time. Most of the time if I'm afraid of upsetting someone or accidentally hurting someone it's only because I am afraid of the consequences it would have for ME. Seriously what is wrong with me? This can't be just autism.
Pond, alders and breeze, Klamath, California, 1994 - by Nicholas Pavloff, American
The way Chateau de Lacoste is basically Čachtice castle
I'm in a library and I kid you not they have Leopold von Sacher-Masoch by Gilles Deleuze under S, not D. Should I tell them...?
what do you mean i can’t read every book, study every academic subject, taste every food, live in every city in every country, visit every museum, listen to every single song ever produced, learn every language, meet every interesting person, memorize every particle of knowledge to ever exist ???