“People, I Have Discovered, Are Layers And Layers Of Secrets. You Believe You Know Them, That You Understand

I wish people would understand that not everything is for everyone to get. you will be left out of some conversations, a lot of art will not apply to you, you will not like things that people you like enjoy, and just because you cannot add to the topic of discussion or relate does not mean that it is not valued or worthwhile. the internet has coddled people to such a concerning extent that everyone feels like they need to vocally disagree with something just because they don’t get it. Knowing something, and genuinely getting it are not the same. NOT EVERYTHING IS FOR YOUUUUU

Ending that 11 years of friendship is better than continuing it without knowing who you really are and your true colors.

When coronavirus started to spread all over the world, we forced to cancel our plans, stay at home and move our normal interaction into online just to communicate with people we love and care about. Let's hope that we can go back to our normal lives like we used to before. Don't lose hope and keep on praying, trust me, it works. Okay. Fighting! 💪😄

It's hard for me to explain

How humans find the pleasure of causing people pain

My Blood, Westlife

Can we please stop associating being a good person with how much you're willing to suffer in silence for other people? You can be a kind person and still say "no, I don't have the time/energy to help you with that." You can be a kind person and still say "this makes me uncomfortable, please stop." You can be a kind person and still say "I disagree and here's why." You can be kind and still say "I'm not okay with this." Being kind is about treating people with kindness and respect, not about being the human equivalent of a doormat!

““We all must learn to be happy with being alone; that is when things begin to change.”

— Tyler Joseph

March 17, 2024

If only I could bury all the memories I had from the year 2023, I would

I'm fortunate enough to realize that year was a mess. Someone took advantage of your kindness and, worst of all, used you. They perfectly show how much they care for you, but it turns out it was all for a show. They played it all. I should listen to my gut more and follow it. I know there's something wrong with those actions; that's why most of the time I just stare at them blankly, like I didn't know how to react to them. At that time, I just did not know how to express how uncomfortable I am with it, yet I'm still observing them. People I thought I could trust turned out to be secretly harboring feelings of envy toward me. A person I thought was different from the crowd turned out to be one of them. 

Another thing: Am I a joke? Am I really a joke? How could they say those words just because they thought I could easily believe in them? How ironic! It turns out it was all a lie. Little did they know, I gave them my benefit of the doubt. Those half-meant jokes aren't even funny, to be honest, and the not-so-sweet words they utter were really bitter and fake. I guess things could be more different if I could react and respond to them frankly every time they made those things a "joke,"  not just a silent reaction they got from me. Of course, without sounding offensive, don't be like them, lol. Every time those moments crossed my mind, I could laugh it off now and realize they made themselves fools and stupid for doing it. Good thing they didn't get what they wanted from me. I am thinking too that maybe there's really a motive behind to get me to fall for their trap without my knowledge; we don't know. Only God knows all of it. They perfectly played with my emotions and made my mind confused at the same time. I feel betrayed tbh. Now that I am reflecting on all those memories I had from the past, I just let karma do the things for me. As the saying goes, "what goes around, comes around". As Taylor Swift also said, "You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes". Pity them cause I learn that I am not a prize to be won.

Now, I am at a point in my life that you cannot easily trust people around you. It's heartbreaking when someone broke your trust. I must say, "c'est la vie." That's life. Only time heals all wounds. Just learn from those experiences and move on with your own life but never ever ever forget what they did to you. Forgive but never forget.

Yours truly,

Grace 🌻

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