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âIf you donât love yourself you will always be chasing after people who donât love you either.â
â Mandy Hale
âNever obsess about chasing love. Chase goals. Chase dreams. Chase the behaviors that are going to make you better. You donât chase love; you allow that to find you by accident, and when it finds you on accident, youâll know that it was supposed to find you purposely.â
â Sylvester McNutt
"Drug use is normal" but not as in "alcohol and nicotine is just as bad as heroin!!!". "Drug use is normal" as in "none of it should be moralized or criminalized because basically everyone does it anyway. It's a normal human tendency to want to alter your experience chemically that we can't just get rid off and criminalization and stigma only makes life even harder on addicts"
I HOPE
I hope
We will cross our paths again.
And bring my fate
To see you once again
I remember,
I can't even look you in the eyes.
Because whenever I do
I feel butterflies in my stomach.
In four corners of the room
And in the midst of the crowd.
There's only you I haven't spoken to.
Because I'm terrified.
Whenever I see you walk in the hallway
My heart melts.
And the way you flip your hair
It gets me overwhelmed.
We never talked to each other.
But somebody noticed it too.
Frightened for them to realize
I've had a crush on you
I made this poem last year January 5, 2024, to be exact. I thought of doing this when I was remembering how a particular person made me feel overwhelmed every time I saw him, he's my classmate when I was in 1st year at San Juan De Dios Educational Foundation, Inc. - College đđ«¶
People canât monitor what they donât have access to. You cannot complain about âmonitoring spiritsâ when others view the content you willingly post online. Likewise, somebody interacting with every post you make doesnât mean they have true, clean appreciation for you either. Maturing is realizing that we have more control over what we allow others to see about us, and to not be easily flattered by low-effort actions in social media.
fortunately i will only ever get prettier, healthier, and happier. and i hope you do too!
My mindset? I never demand to be in anyoneâs life, I instead allow them to miss out on me. Itâs not my job to prove my worth to others when Iâm fully secure on who I am and what I have to offer.
I wish people would understand that not everything is for everyone to get. you will be left out of some conversations, a lot of art will not apply to you, you will not like things that people you like enjoy, and just because you cannot add to the topic of discussion or relate does not mean that it is not valued or worthwhile. the internet has coddled people to such a concerning extent that everyone feels like they need to vocally disagree with something just because they donât get it. Knowing something, and genuinely getting it are not the same. NOT EVERYTHING IS FOR YOUUUUU
Hardest part of writing is accepting that some people will not fucking get it & you just have to like cope with that because over-explaining it just makes it worse
P*rn, dating apps/hook up culture, and 50/50 normalization are the three main culprits as to why the men of this generation seem so different than men from previous ones, and why so many beautiful and accomplished women are unable to secure a relationship without settling. Men always had their issues collectively, but it was never to the degree that we see today, and itâs largely due to the normalization from an early age to those three things.
The brains of men these days have been wired in a completely overly s3xualized manner. They donât view women as people but as objects of strict desire and nothing else. Consumption of p*rn has not only given them unrealistic expectations of intimacy, it has influenced their s3xual orientations (see DL epidemic), and their social behaviour. Nowadays many donât find regular girls attractive, which is why they choose to engage in âtabooâ activities to feel some arousal. This leads them to becoming socially inept and to falling easy prey to manosphere content that only reinforces the objectification and dehumanization of women.
Dating apps then come in as an easy way for these men get the illusion of options, because while they might be generally not attractive, in the apps they get instant access to women they otherwise would never have in real life. And because many women have become desperate, by entertaining these men and giving them easy access to their bodies, the men no longer feel like they have to improve and work on themselves to attract a quality partner. It also gives them the idea that women are disposable because at any point they can ghost them for no reason and then swipe right to get another one. It makes them devalue access to us.
This easy access is then transferred to their expectations of relationships. They abuse the concept of equality to manipulate women into financially abusive arrangements where sheâs expected to provide fiscally while also performing her feminine duties and taking care of a grown, able-bodied man. Naturally this continues to reinforce menâs lack of respect and gratitude for women in their lives, while increasing their own sense of self-importance, narcissism, ineptitude, and ungratefulness.
Obviously women are not responsible for the actions of men, but we do have the power to not reinforce and condone their sick ways. By deleting dating apps, standing our ground when we oppose 50/50 dating, and choosing to remain abstinent until marriage, we are taking the power dynamics back to our advantage. No, you are not unreasonable for not wanting to be with a man who consumes p*rn, or who wants to be sexually fluid with other men, or who views red pill content that dehumanizes you, or seems unwilling to provide things for you and cherish you in his life. Itâs on you to stand firm in your decision to only entertain the gentlemen whose mindsets havenât been completely fried by modern societal trends.
The âmale loneliness epidemicâ that we hear so much about is entirely self inflicted (not that anyone cares when itâs women who are lonely), and itâs a direct response to women saying no more to men who exhibit the behaviours outlined above. Hold the line, because they either leave their toxic ways and get better, or they will doom themselves to a life of solitude. Either way, that is their responsibility to fix, not yours.
words for when your characters ______
accede, acceptance, accord, acknowledgment, acquiescence, align, avowal, bear, cohere, compromise, consent, contract, draft, enlist, give in/give up, go along/go along with, grant, negotiate, unanimous, yield
abjure, abuse, affront, attack, backstab, bad-mouth, belie, blacken, blemish, confront, curse, darn, defamation, defile, demur, denigrate, detract, dig, disclaim, discountenance, disgrace, disown, disparagement, downplay, explode, flout, fulminate, gainsay, gird, invective, jeer, lament, lecture, malign, minimize, mouth, needle, oppose, protest, put down, put-down, rebuff, refute, remonstrate, renunciation, run down, satirize, scold, show up, sit-in, slander, smear, snap, snub, squeal, sully, swearing, taunt, tirade, turn, underestimate, vituperation, write off, yammer
account for, admit, apprise, cite, clarify, come clean, concede, confirm, corroborate, defense, demonstrate, dilate, elucidate, enlighten, evidence, expand, explicate, gloss, illustrate, itemize, let on, palliate, plea, prove, recite, simplify, speak out/speak up, spell out, translator, warrant
aspersion, belie, disprove, profane
acknowledge, address, advertise, allow, allusion, apprise, bare, betrayal, blab, breathe, briefing, broadcast, chronicle, clue, come out with, confession, convey, debunk, define, detail, dictate, divulge, expose, feature, furnish, give, gossip, hint, intimate, issue, lecture, newscaster, orate, out of the closet, pass, post, proclaim, promulgate, publication, publish, release, reveal, show up, speak, spill, squeal, talk, tip, uncover, unveil, weatherperson, whisper
bar, educate, prescribe
advance, argument, bend, budge, carry, coerce, convince, discourage, draw, drum up, elicit, entice, forward, goad, hammer away/hammer into, induce, influence, invite, lobby, motivate, negotiation, pitch, prevail upon/prevail on, prompt, reason, spur, sway, urge, win/win over
assurance, avow, commitment, ensure, go back/go back on, oath, portend, vouch, warrant, word
advice, advocate, ask, come up with, connote, drum into, exhort, fish for, get at, guide, imply, insinuate, moralize, move, nomination, pontificate, preach, propose, recommend, urge
accent, acclamation, accredit, adulation, apotheosis, applause, benediction, bless, champion, citation, commend, compliment, congratulations, credit, dedicate, deify, elevate, endorse, eulogize, exalt, extol, flatter, flattery, glorify, homage, laud, lionize, obsequy, plaudits, puff, salute, thanks, tribute, worship
admonish, alert, caution, caveat, defy, enjoin, exhortation, foreboding, foretell, page, remind, warning
NOTE
The above are concepts classified according to subject and usage. It not only helps writers and thinkers to organize their ideas but leads them from those very ideas to the words that can best express them.
It was, in part, created to turn an idea into a specific word. By linking together the main entries that share similar concepts, the index makes possible creative semantic connections between words in our language, stimulating thought and broadening vocabulary.
Source â Writing Basics & Refreshers â On Vocabulary
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One of the sneaky ways people with secret animosity towards you try to sabotage you is by influencing you to make detrimental choices.
Hateful monitoring spirits recognize your value. They know they canât tear you down through direct attacks, so they pretend to be in your corner, hyping you up while encouraging you to make decisions that will ultimately harm you.
If you're trying to lose weight, they might try to get you to break your diet or skip the gym because âyou deserve itâ or âyour body already looks great as it is.â If they see youâre close to getting a promotion, they may try to convince you that your career path is toxic and youâre better off quitting. If you want to change your lifestyle and stop being hedonistic, they will try to make you feel like you only live once and shouldnât ârestrictâ yourself from having fun.
These people know exactly what they are doing. They are envious of you and terrified of your potential. They sometimes understand what you are capable of more than you do. A real friend is someone who holds you accountable and has your best interests at heart. A hater is an enabler who will steer you towards a path of self-destruction. Donât mistake smiles for genuine support and love.
âIf you get that gut feeling that something isnât right about a person or situation, trust it.â
â Unknown
Some sentences to help you set boundaries!
Ending that 11 years of friendship is better than continuing it without knowing who you really are and your true colors.
Bleeding:
Blood is warm. if blood is cold, youâre really fucking feverish or the person is dead. itâs only sticky after it coagulates.
It smells! like iron, obv, but very metallic. heavy blood loss has a really potent smell, someone will notice.
Unless in a state of shock or fight-flight mode, a character will know theyâre bleeding. stop with the âi didnât even feel itâ yeah you did. drowsiness, confusion, pale complexion, nausea, clumsiness, and memory loss are symptoms to include.
blood flow ebbs. sometimes itâs really gushinâ, other times itâs a trickle. could be the same wound at different points.
itâs slow. use this to your advantage! more sad writer times hehehe.
Stab wounds:
I have been mildly impaled with rebar on an occasion, so let me explain from experience. being stabbed is bizarre af. your body is soft. you can squish it, feel it jiggle when you move. whatever just stabbed you? not jiggly. it feels stiff and numb after the pain fades. often, stab wounds lead to nerve damage. hands, arms, feet, neck, all have more motor nerve clusters than the torso. fingers may go numb or useless if a tendon is nicked.
also, bleeding takes FOREVER to stop, as mentioned above.
if the wound has an exit wound, like a bullet clean through or a spear through the whole limb, DONT REMOVE THE OBJECT. character will die. leave it, bandage around it. could be a good opportunity for some touchy touchy :)
whump writers - good opportunity for caretaker angst and fluff w/ trying to manhandle whumpee into a good position to access both sites
Concussion:
despite the amnesia and confusion, people ainât that articulate. even if theyâre mumbling about how much they love (person) - if thatâs ur trope - or a secret, itâs gonna make no sense. garbled nonsense, no full sentences, just a coupla words here and there.
if the concussion is mild, theyâre gonna feel fine. untilâŠ.bam! out like a light. kinda funny to witness, but also a good time for some caretaking fluff.
Fever:
you die at 110F. no 'oh no his fever is 120F!! ahhh!â no his fever is 0F because heâs fucking dead. you lose consciousness around 103, sometimes less if itâs a child. brain damage occurs at over 104.
ACTUAL SYMPTOMS:
sluggishness
seizures (severe)
inability to speak clearly
feeling chilly/shivering
nausea
pain
delirium
symptoms increase as fever rises. slow build that secret sickness! feverish people can be irritable, maybe a bit of sass followed by some hurt/comfort. never hurt anybody.
ALSO about fevers - they absolutely can cause hallucinations. Sometimes these alter memory and future memory processing. they're scary shit guys.
fevers are a big deal! bad shit can happen! milk that till its dry (chill out) and get some good hurt/comfort whumpee shit.
keep writing u sadistic nerds xox love you
ALSO I FORGOT LEMME ADD ON:
YOU DIE AT 85F
sorry I forgot. at that point for a sustained period of time you're too cold to survive.
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