As more and more time passes, I feel more and more attached to the few representations in media we have. Being on a-spec is awesome in its own way, but I only wish if I could see more of it in media. Not because I wanna feel seen. But because I wanna see what future might look like for someone on a-spec who doesn't want any sort of partnership. I saw some posts earlier talking about how a "single" life is extremely hard to sustain in current economy and that's extremely true. I also remember my friend saying "you can always adopt kids! You need someone to look after you in old age!" And... she was somewhat right, in a way. I don't want kids, but... what exactly is my future going to be like? Who is going to be there for me in a world where romantic relationships are prioritized before anything else? Its just all very very... in dark. There is no movie or book to look at and say "hey! Thats the kind of life I want!" Because every single media shows a version of life that isn't for me. I talk to my friends about wanting to live as a "single queer cat lady" but... realistically, how sustainable and possible is that?
being a stem major with high love for humanities feels like being in a business marriage with a rich high class wife and having a constant affair with a dark academia mistress
Ok today i WILL finish the book im currently reading cuz i just ordered 3 more books and have another already waiting for me. I am falling behind chat.
seeing my friends get into relationships/situationships around me is so weird like, what do you mean you actually want all that stuff?? werent we talking about cool books a while back and how we will live in a mansion together as besties forever together?? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THERES A MAN IN THE EQUATION??
WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU HAVE A LOVE OF LIFE-
And in a more serious vein, when that happens- you simply stop being the first priority. For allo people, their relationship will always be that. the top priority. And that. that my friends, is the only part about being aromantic I always hate. "Everyones falling in love and im just falling behind."
instead of studying, I made a terribly compressed chart of the secret history characters and their dynamics by the end of the book: [TSH SPOILERS!!!!]
most funny thing about exams is how everyone be wanting multiple holidays, like a week, to prepare and yet, the most efficient studying will always be last 2 nights.
Friendly reminder that gender, sexuality and your fashion sense absolutely do not have to reflect each other and are things IRRESPECTIVE OF EACH OTHER.
You can absolutely be comfortable with your she/her pronouns, with being a woman and still choose to have a masc presenting fashion sense. You can be completely cool with your assigned gender and still cross dress.
Feeling pretty? Floral? Gay? Hella boyish? Like a princess? A drag queen? A white swan or a black crow?
Go for it. Absolutely go for it!!
PS. If you are a minor and stuck in a rather unaccepting environment, please don't let go of yourself or your identity, but keep yourself safe. College will be better. Growing up will make this aspect easier. You will move out. Wait for the financial independence and then go for it!! <3
I looked everywhere, the deepest depths of media, mangas, anime. From novels to games. I dived in the darkest depths of ao3 and I have discovered that Luke Pearce and Rosa are the epitome of the "childhood friends, seperated and reunited, to lovers" trope. Fight me. ITS NEVER DONE WELL, THIS TROPE, BUT TOT DOES IT PERFECTLY. FIGHT ME. THE ANGST, THE FLUFF, THE YEARNIG, THE PINING, THE SUNSHINES AND THE DARKNESS- ITS ALL THERE, WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT??
When the comfort game is comforting;
the secret history is all fun and games and then you reach page 200+ and its like
what. what the fuck is this. sign me up for more, you bastard.
i love how the forward of every hitchhikers book is like, "yeah this book has no fucking plot. it has no fucking coherent characters. but are you really here for the plot or for the shits and giggles?"
And they are fucking correct. damned be the plot, we wing it with the wackiness of universe. Heres to the clever, hilarious, silly and occasionally deep, shits and giggles of h2g2.