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ah, the eternal dilemma.

((idk what I’m talking about 😃))

the voice of the devil

One of the weird things about having multiple types of hallucinogenic disorders (in this case schizophrenia and sleep paralysis) is that I have one single hallucination that crosses between the 2. Like it doesn’t do anything unless its during a sleep paralysis episode but sometimes it’s there even when I’m not “asleep”.

Like when it’s a paralysis thing it like crawls on my ceiling, hangs down every so often, growls/clicks, and just kinda acts like a giant spider with only 4 legs. But when it’s just a schizophrenia thing it just kinda “sits” upside down in the corner of my room staring. It’s not there all the time but sometimes it is.

And there isn’t even like a connection between seeing it paralyzed vs phsycotic. Like if this was a fucking tv show or something it would be like “oh if I see it during the day it means I’m gonna have sleep paralysis tonight” or some shit like that but it’s really just random.

(Picture below the cut that I drew of it during my most recent manic episode)

happy 6/6 to the repeating numbers fandom

underrated form of humor: just making shit up in past tense

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His boys are out of commission…

Your body must be rested and fed if you wish to be a pervert.

Reblogging this specifically due to the fact I legit face planted when I tried to get up and ready for school this morning because my hip was dislocated and my knees locked up