Ode To The Trans Experience
ode to the trans experience
you're in your town, in your room, completely alone
maybe the house is empty and maybe you're still quiet anyway, terrified of someone seeing you
they think this came from nowhere and you know better
as you undo packages and slip the thing over you
you feel something in you start to sing
no sooner is it on then you have to take it off
but that soaring feeling is worth the four and a half hours worth of work it cost
you're in a street
bag in hand and headphones on trying to ignore the glares
when you hear the jarring tones of a child
high pitched, asking "mammy is that a boy or a girl"
and she doesn't know, and you don't really know either
all you know is you want out, out of this line, out of this body
out of this tiny town and it's tiny mindset
the mind boggles with wonder at how people could be this ignorant
you're in class
you're trying to focus
you're trying to be objective
but come on, how could you ever read
these two men who spent every waking moment together, who talked about each others bodies
as just good friends
and never wonder more
instead you lie sobbing as they have always been here
we have always been here
you're in a shop
and your mother calls
and you've just had sex with a man who likes men
yet still she calls you daughter
and as you try to protest that you're still normal you stay there half an hour trying to convince her
only to be utterly useless and walk out
broke and broken
you're on a path
walking back to your flat after yet another fight
you see your soul smoking on the ground and you break down
your friends lift you out and up that flight of stairs
it will be okay, you swear as you sob into the same old sheets
the ones who used to ask don't even want to know
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there are people who will arrive in your life at the right time to rock your world and set your expectations ablaze
there will be people who will arrive in your life at the worst time to shatter your hope and lower your self worth
there will be those who have never left your life who you wish would. there will be those who have left your life so long ago it feels like yesterday and five years.
noone knows anything ever
you're gonna be okay.
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FUCKING GETCH OU
silent
as I sit deadly still
I hear the voices in the hall get louder
and louder as they go down it
until suddenly there's a shouting match in the kitchen
I could go, could try to stop the verbal carnage of the usual saturday squabble
be present for the slamming door and shattering glass
but I stay here, silent
It’s been so long since i said it but if you live with homophobic/transphobic parents no matter if you’re a minor or a young adult don’t come out <3
rambles
sometimes I think about how I used to hate the trans flag
it's an odd one, that hate. at the time it was mainly because I wanted to pass, be seen as cis, and not have anyone ask anything
I swore to myself college would be different, and that there noone would know I was trans.
thank fuck I didn't. thank hell I went to that pride event, met this and that person, was honest about what was going on, mentioned binding to this person, laughed about queer complexity with friends I would never have met otherwise, was open about my identity at every goddamn hands turn.
if you see this and you hate the flag, I get it. I really really do. I hope someday you love it too. It's gaudy and different and beautiful and hopeful.
also, we are everywhere. we are everywhere and people know about us and support us. the most unlikely places and most unassuming people will turn around and say they know someone who is trans too
this world is so geared against us. I know I am lucky. but if you know that you can, it's beautiful and mortifying and terrible and freeing to be seen and loved.
it never changes here
it never changes here, does it
these old piles just gather dust
those new podcasts reaffirm those old beliefs
unthinking cruelty voiced on purpose
you know I'm no fool yet you fall for it all
it never changes here, does it
the irony is almost laughable
you think that didn't happen to me too
you think you're infallible
you pretend you don't for validation
you think you're no fool, yet you fall for it all
it never changes here, does it
I always regret coming back
go home and feel bad calling there home
it wasn't that bad, I'm exaggerating
pretend its okay to try and escape
I know I'm a fool, and forget every time.
(cackles in transgender) her profits went down 74%
tumblr poets
i am everyone's lover these ragged tatters dancing lightly from poem to poem witnessing scars like ivy curling over cool stone hallways with thick dark doors i am everyone's lover this brittle cage ajar conjuring your essences to feast on your beauty the misunderstood a delicacy your loneliness is my pain i am everyone's lover open mouths and call to me let me in your skins, that i may decorate your souls and dwell in your warmth a shadow seeking light in your darkness
funky lil man, he/him, i go by jaye! I write poems sometimes ❤️
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