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a (very rare) math/science post.

hey! so i'm a british student but you'll see me putting things in brackets to help clarify things for my non british readers. so i did my GCSEs (i think the american equivalent is SATs?) back in may and june and one thing about me during my last year of school is i was in some deep shit. so i didn't really do that well. I got a bunch of 6s (B+s) and7 (A) in eng lit. i found i was couple marks off of a grade 7 (A ) in almost all my subjects including math and science. now i can deal with a B in art and a B in sociology because I'm doing them for A levels ( google tells me the americn equivalent is AP examinations) so doing well in them means that my gcse grade will be dismissed since i did better at A level today i asked my math teacher if there was any way i could resit and he cut me the following deal: if i resat my exams in either november or june of next year and got a better grade then he'd cover the fees and same goes for science. now, i just started sixth form/college so i'd have to learn in my own time somehow. i don't have anyone to teach me and i can't afford tutoring but i was offered to sit in the back of lessons during my free period every tuesday and that afterschool i can ask whatever available teacher for help for anything i really really can't teach myself should i go for it? please interact and tell me what you think.

september struggles

Sat 30th Sep - 22:06 what's up! it's the start of a new (and for me, final) academic year.

this month has been so much and so little at the same time? if that even makes sense. i'm slowly learning to use an actual camera. so far i've borrowed two different models from my youth foundation, the canon eos m50 and the canon 200d with a 50mm kit lense. I found the m50 really fun to use and i picked up on how to use it really quickly! i had more difficulty with the 200D, or more specifically the ability to zoom in and out? i looked up tutorials on youtube but i couldn't find anything. anyways it was really zoomed in which i didn't really like seeing as i'm learning to use cameras for the sake of making a film portfolio, so i found i liked the other camera more as it felt more flexible. on the more school-focused side of things, i had a ton of trouble on my media coursework, which i found incredibly hard to start on - the aim was to make a film magazine which i haven't done a lot for yet - my teacher said my initial drafts feel more like a fashion or editorial magazine than anything else i had aimed to catch up for sociology entirely, but i only managed to do one of 4 sections.

i think the first month back to school is always the hardest, it weirds me out thinking this is my last first month back ever. growing up feels weird. until next time! Amina p.s - times flown by so fast, its weird looking back and editing this in my drafts, i'm somehow posting on new years eve but its better late than never!

cute notes! (on a budget)

so i’ve just started putting in effort to make all my notes in all subjects neat and have figured out the following things: - writing scrawled across notebook pages are aesthetic too - its not just for the aesthetic it actually really helps in studying too and most importantly  you don’t need expensive stationary honestly anything will do. for the dark academics and studyblrs who aren’t able to afford muji pens and stabilo highlighters here are a few tips   - a pen and a ruler (and maybe a single colored pen and/or highlighter) will be       more than enough   - be creative with what you already have ( writing your title and subheadings differently with a lil effort or a cloud bubble round a key fact can make all the  difference believe it or not)   if you really really want pastels and such here’s some dupes highlighters: https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/wilko-chunky-pastel-highlighter-4-pack/p/0481344

https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/wilko-slim-highlighters-pastel-4-pack/p/0481346 https://www.therange.co.uk/stationery/pens-and-pencils/pens/highlighters/pack-of-six-pastel-highlighters/?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIjtfZ3IC25gIVx7HtCh1uoQOUEAQYCSABEgJAOfD_BwE#203958 pens: i honestly think any good pen will do (when i say good i mean a pen that doesn’t smudge and runs relatively smooth ) so basically any ballpoint pen but if ya really wanna know then these are the ones i’ve been using lately    https://www.wilko.com/en-uk/paper-mate-inkjoy-black-ballpoint-pens-8-pack/p/0432408 not the exact ones but as close as i could find  i hope you found this post helpful! ~til next time Amimi

I post for the bitches who stutter, misspeak, mumble, and speak with an incoherent flow that only makes sense if you are in my brain

christmas eve, wanting to leave

i will never understand people who create drama and then act like nothing happened? like??? working on my notion set up in an attempt to try and organise myself so i can be prepared to work nonstop for the next week and catch up on all my work. i will post screenshots of my set up once it's finished!! i got my own library card and bank account yesterday!!! i'm so excited, it'll be so fun and like i'm a real adult and useful :DD being able to take out books for myself!! the bank thing is okay aswell i guess. i'm trying out adult fiction woah. the book i chose being ninth house by leigh bardugo. i'm stoked!! the sequel of ninth house and the second book in the trilogy is coming out this january and i can't wait! hopefully i'll be able to purchase both books from my local bookstore which will be super cute. i already know i'm gonna devour it in two days and then have to wait an agonising three years for the third and final book to be released D: BUT there is apparently a TV series depicting the Alex Stern series in development?? and with the second book coming out as well as the success of Shadow and Bone and it's second season i think that we'll hear more about it in 2023. so far i'm halfway through and i really love the characters of darlington and alex, when i first started reading i imagined darlington as a lot older until i heard his real name and MINI SPOILER caught the romantic implications between them. i really like how detailed and descriptive it is, however the first two chapters are quite confusing but i have discovered the amazing hack of reading the glossary and explanations at the back first. i'm gonna continue reading sooo that's all for now! Amimi

another list of romantic things i devastatingly yearn for

- painting together (or having a paint fight with one another) - sitting on the back while riding a motorcycle together  - sitting in the back of a pickup truck together while enjoying the breeze - shy little glimpses and smiles, talks after school/work in the empty office/classroom or getting engrossed in one another even though everyone is around - texting til you fall asleep - saying goodnight its been a long time since the last proper post, haven’t been that well mentally ig, but i hope you liked it :)! for all the new people seeing this post, check out the other list which you can find on my tumblr :) *shameless promotion* until next time Amimi

my mom says she’s not a hugger. but when i put my arms around her on a gloomy day or after bad news she’s the last to let go. my dad says he doesn’t want gifts on his birthday, but i see the way his face lights up when i get him a card with a nice message and a box full of chocolate anyway. he’s just a kid inside, still. it makes him giddy. my brother never says i love you. but when i tell him “i just need to finish the dishes before i vacuum!” he wordlessly goes to vacuum the entire house before i can, and if he sees me struggle with a wrapper or a jar or a bottle he mutters ‘c’mere’ and opens it for me without even sparing me a glance. the thing is, people love you quietly, and you love them quietly, and the air is buzzing with tiny but grand gestures & once you look for them, you find them everywhere. i think that’s really beautiful.

this is my 169th post and i was fittingly just sent what seemed to be some blurred out male genitalia ( i didn't click to reveal dw ) from some crypto account with no posts, i mean you're on theme? but fuck you dude. fuck you.

isn’t it weird how it’s already february but it’s also only february

recently i've been having those kind of dreams where its just better scenarios of things i regret and mistakes i made but done right- mended friendships and happier times. it's so real and so tangible that when i wake up it takes me a few minutes to realise. maybe i'll even remember text convos and then i'll check and realise it's not there. that's it's not real after all. i have a theory that dreams are just created from thoughts and repressed memories that linger in the back of your mind, which come to the forefront and get muddled together which is why they become so weird (well at least ik some of my dreams are).