This Is My 169th Post And I Was Fittingly Just Sent What Seemed To Be Some Blurred Out Male Genitalia

a (very rare) math/science post.

hey! so i'm a british student but you'll see me putting things in brackets to help clarify things for my non british readers. so i did my GCSEs (i think the american equivalent is SATs?) back in may and june and one thing about me during my last year of school is i was in some deep shit. so i didn't really do that well. I got a bunch of 6s (B+s) and7 (A) in eng lit. i found i was couple marks off of a grade 7 (A ) in almost all my subjects including math and science. now i can deal with a B in art and a B in sociology because I'm doing them for A levels ( google tells me the americn equivalent is AP examinations) so doing well in them means that my gcse grade will be dismissed since i did better at A level today i asked my math teacher if there was any way i could resit and he cut me the following deal: if i resat my exams in either november or june of next year and got a better grade then he'd cover the fees and same goes for science. now, i just started sixth form/college so i'd have to learn in my own time somehow. i don't have anyone to teach me and i can't afford tutoring but i was offered to sit in the back of lessons during my free period every tuesday and that afterschool i can ask whatever available teacher for help for anything i really really can't teach myself should i go for it? please interact and tell me what you think.

april anxiety (among additional activities)

Thursday 23rd April 2023 - 7:32pm

Alliteration! so stuffs gone down this month lol!!! i'm not doing so well right now but i think collecting my thoughts and letting 52 people read them is a fun way of coping. i'm really behind on school work, like half a year behind due to constantly being ill. if i don't catch up i was told i might have to sit AS-Level Sociology (40% of an A-level) which means in turn that i'd have to stay in school for an extra year sitting another subject not of my choice. they want a meeting aswell which really really really can't happen currently, i don't have school equipment but hopefully i can pull through?!?!?! idk maybe things will get better soon until next time! Amina

ps - this has been sitting in my drafts and its now june... idk how that happened

slight delay in the 7 days 7 movies series, had a trip to go see WICKED! in a huge theatre in London, I'll post about that later! got a huge amount of work to do for tommorow but I'll be sure to post very soon!!!

just realised i don't know any female artists other than frida kahlo, in all my time of studying fine art she was the only woman. if that isn't crazy idk what is

yeah, dreaming that alexander the greats evil twin sister was a dictator and that my lifes purpose is to prepare for her second awakening so i can kill her was in no way shape or form lingering in the back of my mind

recently i've been having those kind of dreams where its just better scenarios of things i regret and mistakes i made but done right- mended friendships and happier times. it's so real and so tangible that when i wake up it takes me a few minutes to realise. maybe i'll even remember text convos and then i'll check and realise it's not there. that's it's not real after all. i have a theory that dreams are just created from thoughts and repressed memories that linger in the back of your mind, which come to the forefront and get muddled together which is why they become so weird (well at least ik some of my dreams are).

this. i can't tell whether its bad or whether i hate myself

I feel like my arts been looking worse than usual

how to live life like a ghibli film

1. go out in nature more. every studio ghibli film has some aspect of nature intertwined with the storyline. sometimes its hard to get the energy to go outside, but just going out on your deck or opening the window in your room or taking a walk around the block is enough. if you feel like it, go for a hike! go into the woods and look at every flower, and every tree. look at the mushrooms and streams and notice the beauty of them. look at nature like you’ve never seen it before. wake up at 4 and watch the sunset. put plants around your room. realize how beautiful the world is around you. appreciate it. 

2. get a hobby! this step is certainly easier said than done, but its so worth it. struggling with mental illness makes it especially hard to get a hobby, but its very important that you don’t spend the majority of your time on social media. Start small. If you want to start drawing get a coloring book and fill in a picture with beautiful markers! If you want to write find a random prompt online, give yourself 30 minutes and see what you can come up with. Want to try baking? Start with an easy recipe, like chocolate chip cookies, and share them with your family or friends, or just yourself! Try out a bunch of hobbies, and see what you like best. Maybe you like making jewelry or writing poems or creating digital collages or making video edits or decorating your room or riding a bike or sewing or reading. The possibilities are endless, and getting a hobby you enjoy is very important, and fun.

3. start appreciating small things and noticing details. I don’t know how to explain this step, but in studio Ghibli films, small things always stick out. There are beautiful tiny details that make the story so much more magnificent. small details make the studio Ghibli films what they are. maybe on your way to school/work the sky was a really pretty color. Or the tea you made in the morning was perfectly steeped. appreciate small details of life that you don’t normally notice.

4. appreciate food. Pay attention to your food. If you can, try and make/bake your own food! But if you can’t, just be mindful of your food. Try not to eat while you’re on your phone. Dedicate times to just eating. Appreciating the food in front of you. Make yourself the ponyo drink with milk and honey, or ponyo ramen! Make yourself your own blend of tea like the Baron!

5. be kind and help others. Being kind doesn’t have to be a grand gesture, it can be smiling and waving at a baby in a café, or helping your mom finish the dishes, or paying for a friend’s coffee. Small gestures not only put good out into the world, but they also make you feel better. When you can, help others. Try volunteering at an animal shelter, or babysit for your aunt without charging her, or just listen to your friend when they’re going through something and be there for them. In every Ghibli film, the main character is always helping others, and being kind. Try to be like kiki, when she returned the pacifier to the mother who forgot it, or like chizuru from the cat returns, who risks her life to save a cat. Kindness comes in all shapes and forms, so just try your best to do what you can!

6. be your most authentic self. Stay true to who you are. dress how you’d like. Cut your hair like you’ve always wanted to. Stay confident and true to yourself. We all feel insecure sometimes, but we need to remind ourselves that we are great. Don’t try and force yourself to be someone you aren’t. Kiki felt insecure in her abilities as a witch, but she stayed true to herself, and believed in herself, and it paid off. Love and appreciate yourself, just the way you are.

7. (not really a tip but a fun suggestion) start collecting something! This is just an extra step that I wanted to include because I think its nice. But start a collection of things that interest you. It could be anything! Candles, stamps, teacups, antique figurines, 19th century photos, lip balms, books, key chains, flowers, hats. The choices are endless.

things i've been doing lately ( and things i should do be doing)

- notion, i found just messing around and looking at inspo on pinterest helped me a lot more than looking at videos - watching videos for learning - corbettmaths vids are soooo helpful - trying not to stress (kind of failing but we'll get there) - making a revision timetable for school and sticking by it kind of a lackluster supposedly weekly post but we'll get there eventually until next time! Amimi

july (juvenile jollification)

Sunday 6th August 1:35am writing this a bit late because im in a bit of a slump.

starting off the month with a bang, i went a bit of an adventure during homestudy (not very studyblr of me) and ventured off to birmingham with my bestfriend! it was sooo cool, we didn't explore everything, just bullring and the station, as well as the highstreet? i think its called (im really tired, forgive the lackluster writing). the highlight of the day was definitely trying wingstop, we each picked a flavour, lemon pepper and spicy korean bbq with cajun fries and... oh. my. g o d. i can understand the craze because it's been a month and my cravings have not stopped. lets just say the many many many runs to kfc and other fast food places can no longer satisfy my hunger. i bought a ton of clothes for the upcoming school year too! multiple ruched tops in brown, cream and pink, a long pink midi skirt, a brown mockneck sweater and a beige one too! oh and a cable knit pink cardigan (if you can't tell i like pink lolol) school ended on the 17th? i think it was, which is the wrap up of year 12. as far as the last day of school can go, i think mine was really good! they set up a bouncy castle, sumo wrestling and more in the school gym and it was so fun! i hadn't intended on actually using or trying anything but i ended up being spontaneous. i can gladly say that i crushed my opponent in sumo wrestling 3-0 so fear me. i grabbed oodles with two of my friends, which btw if you haven't tried. you NEED to. its to die for. udon noodles reign supreme. since the holiday started i haven't done much, mainly watching shows and movies like 25 21, and the second season of the summer i turned pretty - yi jin and jeremiah 4 lyfe. i promise the 7 days 7 movies series will be out soon! til next time! Amimi

How to get a 9 in GCSE English literature!

Disclaimer: These tips are specific to AQA GCSE English literature and myself. They might not work for everyone.

Hi! I wanted to provide some advice for Year 11 English literature students on how to revise. I’ve always been quite good at English in general without trying too hard, but it took an extra push at the beginning of the year to bring my grades to a solid grade 9. Here are some tips and ideas on how to revise!

Listen to your teachers! The majority of my analysis came from my teachers. Seriously, they are really helpful. I remember listening to my teacher talking to us about Macbeth quotes and analysis almost a year before we started writing essays, and I could still remember a lot from them much later on.

Reread the books/plays/poetry! You do not have to do this a lot, only about 3-4 times to keep it fresh in your head. When you read it, also read the analysis already annotated there, and try providing your own annotations.

Watch YouTube videos! This probably saved my mocks, since I can’t for the life of me come up with analysis for a christmas carol (I just really hate it and found it too boring to remember later on from classes despite the fact that we worked on it for so long) on my own. It is a good way of finding deeper analysis and new perspectives. My personal favourites are Mr Salles, Mr Bruff and Stacy Reay. You can probably find YouTube videos or lectures online if you look hard enough.

Write practice essays! This post goes into a lot of detail on essay writing, so check that out to figure out how to write a good essay! Start off writing essays for however long you want, and then start writing essays in timed conditions.

Blurt quotes, characters and themes! Write a quote in the middle of a page and write analysis for individual words (here is a quick way of doing that) and how they interact with each other. Scribble down any themes, scenes or other quotes that you can associate with the quote, and remember to ask why and how this links with the wider context of the text.

Talk about the text with people! My friends and I sometimes liked to talk (read: argue) about some of the texts. It can be a really good way of enhancing your understanding of a text and gaining different viewpoints. You don’t have to do this, it is just nice sometimes (though maybe I’m just saying that because I’m a literature nerd).

Make essay plans! Find some past papers online (or just ask your teacher for some essay questions) and create plans. Do this more at the beginning of the study, because at that point, you will probably want to improve your general thought process and analysis before you focus on writing full essays.

Learn your terminology! You can use flashcards for this (like Quizlet or Anki) and try to identify literary techniques (iambic pentameter, modal verbs etc.) in whatever you are reading.

Read and annotate poetry! If you are stuck on how to do that, then just break the task down into smaller bits. Read the poem once and underline any words and phrases that you feel something about, and jot down the connotations of the word. Try to identify the general mood being portrayed and the story being told. Also, think of the connotations of certain motifs (e.g. a train can symbolise the start of a new journey, a path can symbolise a choice etc.). Keep practicing, and eventually it will become easier. You can even try analysing song lyrics if you want (I love analysing Taylor Swift’s lyrics).

Just generally try to read more! It does not have to be anything too fancy (most of what I read was fanfiction), so find something you like and give it a go. You could also listen to podcasts like the magnus archives, that have a very lovely writing style, or an audiobook you found on youtube. It’ll help, trust me!

Thank you for reading this post! I hope it was somewhat helpful.