ferntasie
trans girl, ~30
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Update after a full workday of using Heexy: The bang search could use some tweaks (it requires the bang to go at the beginning of the query whereas other search engines recognize it anywhere; it is only working for me directly from the website rather than in searches from the address bar; and it triggers captchas a lot on websites like Google Scholar), but as far as the normal search functionality---still excellent. I get plenty of relevant results from a decade ago rather than other search engines' flood of very recent pages, and there is better prioritization of reliable sites like a higher ratio of .edu pages for informational sources.
After my DuckDuckGo results started getting too full of bot-generated crap, I started looking for other privacy-focused search engines and found this hidden gem that's given me lovely results so far
After my DuckDuckGo results started getting too full of bot-generated crap, I started looking for other privacy-focused search engines and found this hidden gem that's given me lovely results so far
margaritaville, the song, and margaritaville, the restaurant and resort empire, fascinate me because the former seems to warn against the lifestyle that the latter perpetuates
Cardinal singing outside my window just fucked up his call and had to start over. Lmao
catgirl doms are always posting about mousegirls as a way of pushing against the idea of cats as submissive but what are the mousegirl doms posting about. seedgirls?
Poisoned Apples 1.0 Release
Well here it is, my first published ttrpg, I plan on making the document prettier and more organized with illustrations but as it'll be in a game jam bundle I wanted it out in a playable state in a timely manner. I hope all of you fucked in the head girlies who dont leave their houses enjoy it, I made it for you, I made it for me, I made it for every magical girl that probably should've gotten more therapy and head. Good luck.
i hate driving. here are the laws! if you break them there will be consequences! except youre also expected to break the law just a little bit. people will get mad at you if you dont. you dont have right of way but the person who does is waving you forward for some reason. here's the speed limit! it's not the speed limit, the actual speed limit is that plus ~5-10. the light is green but you're in the turning lane. can you go? should you have gone just then? the person behind you is honking at you. there's a weird noise coming from your engine; if you try to do the right thing and get it checked out, will you get scammed? you are driving a 1-2 ton metal machine rocketing at speeds unknown to humankind for most of history. around a million people die in car accidents every year; that's about one person every thirty seconds. if you take that seriously and try to drive safely then people get mad at you.
Bridget I forgot to post here.
(Being called slurs on twt for this drawing lol)
Remember when I told ya'll last month to be ready to start looking for a Discord alternative?
Yeah things aren't looking good for discord.
headcanon: this is what Blush is painting in-universe during her battle
match the colors
took me a long time to find out that stanley cups are a brand of drinking vessel and people weren't just lying about their hockey achievements
"you're squeakin' me!"
—me when you're squeakin' me
batman lives by a strict moral code of only killing when he wants to or feels like it
accidentally went into a men's restroom because I glimpsed the letters "M-E-N" and recognized those as the last three letters of "women" and thought I had all the information I needed
This adds an interesting irony to Deltarune with Kris seemingly struggling to "be themself" while the red soul is inside them.
the red soul
(undertale spoilers)
each fallen human has a specifically coloured soul associated with them. these colours can be seen on the coffins in new home, asgore’s soul containers, and the photoshop flowey boss battle. little is known about these souls, but what can be inferred is that each soul colour represents a unique trait. accessing this information requires multiple rounds of “ball game” in the snowdin forest. if the game is completed fast enough and the red flag is obtained, the following message appears.
however, red soul’s trait is never mentioned. or is it?
determination is not a trait
before exploring the red soul’s trait, it’s time to explain why determination is not the red soul’s trait. while it is a popular choice, it ultimately does not work for a few reasons. unlike the other traits, every human soul has determination.
rather than being a trait, determination is more akin to willpower or resolve. it’s a power that gives human souls “the strength to persist after death.” furthermore, this determination is extracted from the six human souls and injected into a golden flower, bringing flowey to life and giving him the power to control the underground’s timeline. this same power is what gives the humans the power to save and load.
unlike all the other traits, determination is inherently inside all humans. furthermore, “determination” is never mentioned in the ball game. it’s also never specifically linked with the red soul nor is it ever written in red text. the word “determination” is only written in white or yellow.
there is nothing that suggests determination is an exclusive trait to the red soul. it is merely a component in all the coloured human souls.
» read more: determination is yellow
the ball game
the different soul colours each represent their own positive traits according to “ball game.” the first time the red flag is achieved, the following message appears.
these are the positive traits of all the souls besides the red soul. when the ball game is won a second time in the conditions for the red flag, a new message appears.
it’s important to note that the ball game can only be played as long as snowdin is not cleared of monsters. if genocide is successful in snowdin, then the snowball will be gone, rendering the ball game useless. this is the only time the ball game cannot be played. in the neutral and pacifist routes, the game can be played even after reaching snowdin or after defeating papyrus.
the mirrors
from the red flag, the phrase “be yourself” is important. the idea of “being yourself” is seen repeatedly throughout the game, so long as the genocide route is not in motion. if frisk is still on the neutral route, frisk can look into the mirror in toriel’s home, and the following is said:
in new home, frisk can look into a second mirror and see the following:
this text appears in every route, except the genocide route. whether this is a reflection of frisk is up to interpretation.
in a pacifist route, after defeating asriel, frisk can look into the mirror in home once more to see this:
one of the most important elements of the pacifist route is the reveal of the protagonist’s true name, frisk. it highlights how frisk’s identity, or even their true self, is only revealed at the end of a pacifist route.
in contrast, the genocide route makes it clear that frisk is not themself from the start.
the red soul’s trait: being yourself
ultimately, the ball game holds the most important clue. the statement seems rather vague, until the one-word limitation is removed and the trait is seen as a phrase.
“being yourself” is seen in two ways in the context of undertale. the first is more obvious, with the phrase referring to how frisk is only themself in the neutral route and pacifist route. once the genocide route is in motion, frisk is no longer in predominant control – chara is. interestingly enough, when chara is in control during the genocide route and the snowdin forest is cleared, the ball game is unavailable, perhaps highlighting the fact that frisk is no longer truly themself.
the second way the virtue of “being yourself” is used in game is by its definition. “being oneself” means to be genuine, honest, or true to one’s character. along with determination, it is what allows frisk to keep going, especially in the pacifist route. sans alludes to this when he judges frisk in the last corridor.
“so as long as you do what’s in your heart” can be seen as another way to say “be true to yourself.” there is another reference to this trait in sans’ judgment should frisk have killed any monster.
while subtle, sans stresses the importance of being true to "yourself,” even in the face of committing a terrible crime.
“being yourself” may seem synonymous with integrity, but there is a difference. integrity is defined as “the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles.” while both are a quality of being honest, there is a difference to what that honesty is towards. those with integrity are righteous, fair, and of good character. however, integrity is not needed to be yourself. being yourself is to stay true to who you are, regardless of what that may be. perhaps a word for this could be “individuality,” “nonconformity,” or “sincerity.”
conclusion
while the other soul virtues are clearly defined by their colour coded trait, the red soul remains much more ambiguous. perhaps this is because frisk, chara, and the player persist as such different individuals despite being intrinsically linked, therefore the common trait between them can only be just that: their individual “true” self.
Auntie Macassar disappeared only for Loonette to suddenly start getting letters from another globe-trotting yellow-wearing relative
I'm glad his transition went so well
I find it kind of funny that human babies are so fragile and helpless and useless that natural selection went like HARD-hard on humans finding babies cute. This thing is a wailing messy resource sinkhole so please find other reason to enjoy it. And the humans that did find baby cute and invest time in them, the crazy bastards?? Lived!!
And now there’s so much spill-over from “baby cute” gene that humans see literally any “baby” creature that even slightly resembles us, like
and we’re like 😍🥰🤩🥺🥺🥺 I wanna love you so bad. I wanna make so many images of you, you are so small, just baby. I’m inventing new emotions as we speak bc I love you so much.
Like, I’m almost convinced humans didn’t even domesticate dogs bc we thought they’d be useful, we saw some puppies and it activated our Big Boi Primate Baby buttons, it wasn’t even logic time baby, it was 🥺 time.
i miss when AI was shit and it would generate cards like this
these are only 2 years old but already from a lost timeperiod
Receiving Messages
still sometimes think about how when my apartment got raided by cops back in 2021 i had a massive neon sign on the wall of my living room that just said "crime"
