This Is The Realist Thing I’ve Hear In My 20+ Rotations Around The Sun.

🎄← the only x-mas tree im putting out this year

hand practice (and some headcanons)

Okay- going off of what Anon said. that would be absolutely soul crushing, and I need to see it in fic form. imagine Grisha reminding Zeke that hes a failure, and Zeke realizing that a new baby would mean a constant reminder that he wasn’t good enough for his father.

this might be messy but bare with me here 🙂‍↕️

zeke, you bring nothing but shame and disappointment. everytime i watched you out there. . .i couldn't see how—what i had done wrong to steer you into such direction. i can't say these thoughts to your face, as you would be shattered. rightfully so.

zeke, you will save everyone. you have to.

"he's trying his best, isn't he?!" dina's screams ring all too familiar. she was never one to shout, always so calm and quiet. yet, here she is, my wife. the woman i greeted with open arms into my home, my family, the cause.

what am i doing wrong? as a father, as a husband.

as a son, a brother.

faye, are you watching? all of this. . .is for you, for eldia. for our people. i'm molding my son. . .for us.

my nerves calm, my face no longer twisted and contorted in a nasty expression of anger and fear; not for myself but for the future. i wonder if this is the right thing.

"a new baby,"

". . .what?"

"we'll have a new baby, to replace zeke; if he can't pull his weight." his weight, i question myself for a moment but realize that this has to be done. my sister died at the hands of marleyan's, her memory washed away like she was nothing.

yet i stand here, still alive and breathing. my own father. . .looks at me with contempt. he's disappointed, i know. when i close my eyes i can hear zeke's weeping, it's so silent. he hiccups and sobs, i can't bring myself to go into his room after my argument with dina.

morning rolls around and i find myself staring at my plate, my gaze traveling up until my eyes meet zeke's. they're still filled with childish innocence and hopefulness. he picks at his food, fork scraping against the glass.

"dad—"

"your mother and i are having a new baby, or. . .we're planning to." i mumble, i find myself becoming slightly annoyed.

"oh," zeke stares at his plate, his reflection looking back at him despite the food in front of him. "why?" kids are always so curious, there's always a "why".

zeke, you bring nothing but shame and disappointment. everytime i watched you out there. . .i couldn't see how—what i had done wrong to steer you into such direction. my words ring again in my head.

so when you ask; "why?"

i'll say that it was because of you.

Chapters: 3/? Fandom: Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Major Character Death Relationships: Pieck Finger/Porco Galliard, Armin Arlert/Annie Leonhart, Sasha Blouse/Niccolo Characters: Eren Yeager, Mikasa Ackerman, Armin Arlert, Jean Kirstein, Zeke Yeager, Grisha Yeager, Carla Yeager, Marco Bott, Sasha Blouse, Connie Springer, Ymir of the 104th (Shingeki no Kyojin), Krista Lenz | Historia Reiss, Reiner Braun, Reiner Braun's Mother, Bertolt Hoover, Annie Leonhart, Pieck Finger, Porco Galliard, Gabi Braun, Colt Grice, Falco Grice, Zofia (Shingeki no Kyojin), Udo (Shingeki no Kyojin), Erwin Smith, Nile Dok, Mike Zacharias, Nanaba (Shingeki no Kyojin), Hange Zoë, Levi Ackerman, Moblit Berner, Keith Shadis, Theo Magath Additional Tags: Livestock show, Livestock, Alternate Universe - Farm/Ranch, all the veterans are Agriculture teachers or 4H advisors, I modeled all of them after my own Agri teachers, Mr Kelley and Mrs Taylor if you see this I’m sorry, Based on True Events, show pig, show cow, show lamb, show goat, I don’t count small livestock, you chicken and rabbit people can go kick rocks, showmanship, Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan Anime Spoilers, Shingeki no Kyojin | Attack on Titan References, Minor Pieck Finger/Porco Galliard, Implied Relationships, Armin Arlert & Eren Yeager Are Best Friends, Minor Armin Arlert/Annie Leonhart, Badass Armin Arlert, Jean Kirstein Being An Asshole, Dead Marco Bott, Sasha Blouse Being Sasha Blouse, Sasha Blouse & Jean Kirstein & Connie Springer Friendship, Minor Sasha Blouse/Niccolo, Connie Springer Being an Idiot, Minor Krista Lenz | Historia Reiss/Ymir of the 104th, Reiner Braun Needs a Hug, Depressed Reiner Braun, Gabi Braun & Reiner Braun Are Siblings, Annie Leonhart is Bad at Feelings, Mentioned Hitch Dreyse, Mentioned Porco Galliard, Gabi Braun is a Little Shit, Falco Grice is in Love with Gabi Braun, Drunk Colt Grice Summary:

Through late nights at the barn, moments of self-doubt, and the thrill of the ring. With each ribbon earned and each lesson learned, you realize that the real victory isn’t in the buckles or banners, but in the relationships that have been forged along the way. This is the life of the 104th graduating class of showmen of the towns of Maria and Marley. The two schools constantly fight for first place, no matter where they go to show. And this year, it’s a little different …

I just posted chapter 3!! We’re not even through the first night of fair week and the tensions are already driving!! 

I love Chester whites

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in middle school i knew a guy named alexander hamilton because his parents just thought it would be nice to name their son after a historical figure but then this poor guy went through hell because he was 13 years old in 2015 and his name was alexander hamilton

Gothkasa, Eren and Armin trying to buy alcohol at a convenience store

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every year after you turn 17 you get further away from being the age of the dancing queen and that’s my least favorite thing about growing up