I Js Laughed A Lot Tysm

I should be happy. I’m performing theatre for people after yearning to do so and even though I thought yet again it would be different and I would feel actually close to people, seemingly I’ll always be that extra girl in a “friendship” and always be embarrassing myself. But I can’t cry to someone and tell them how I feel because I would feel bad cause it’s really not something they should have to deal with. But god, I never thought that I’d feel more alone surrounded by a whole bunch of people than I do in the silence of my room.

It’s TIMEEEEEEE

the first chapter of a certain au (within another au) has been released by @wannabe-goth-babe and I. maybe stop by every so often :D

they are chaotic so there is gonna be fire with them in every universe.

cross our fingers that darry won't find out...and not just ab the fire ;)

y-yay it’s tech week! 🙂🔪

Chat I had auditions today and I'm literally shaking in anticipation for the cast list it's not even funny 😭😭

I feel that I’ll always be shaking in my boots frfr. I bet you ate your auditions tho pooks…and NOW we wait. ✨in anticipation✨ teehee

I got my account to work but I have to go eat dinner so you gotta fend for yourself for a little while 😭😭

ok bro 😭

Good luck with ur maths homework I BELIEVE IN U!! <33

ty cause like I totally don’t. I’m cooked. I’m small brained fr we can only hope for the best mwah mwah

I hope you’re happy. I hope you’re fucking happy. I hope you’re happy that you burned out my passion. I hope youre happy that you made the last few months of my life hell. I hope you’re happy that you let me be alone. I hope you’re happy that you made me feel so bad about myself. I hope you’re happy that you led me to the edge and convinced me to jump. You better be happy.

I went through with it, not that you care. I bet you wanted me gone. Even after all these years I’ve known you, you still know nothing about me. I’ll never be talented. I’ll never be someone you rely on. We will never be close. You will never believe in me. You will never care. I’ll always be that extra wheel. You don’t care what happens. You won’t miss me. And I wish that didn’t fucking hurt. I hope you know that I cared, I wanted to be close, I wanted to be reliable, I wanted to be known. I wanted to be someone.

I had such bigger plans. I had goals. And now because of you I’ll never get to check them off of my bucket list. Maybe I’ll find people that care like that someday but I’ll always think about how it could’ve been you. I’ll always think of what could’ve been. I hope I made the right decision but it’s not like you’ll try to persuade me to stay. You couldn’t even see anything in me that was worth anything. And you were so so mean for no reason. When all I wanted was to not be left out. Sticking out like a sore thumb all the time.

How crazy it is for something to make you wish for the bare minimum of happiness. And I hope you’re fucking happy. Cause then, at least one of us is.

Sincerely,

the girl you’ve hurt time and time again

hey bestie how are youuu

do you want me to tell you im ok or do you want the truth