Im Laughing So Hard Because No Matter What Song You Listen To 

Sharon Olds, from "Little Things"; Strike Sparks: Selected Poems, 1980-2002

current mantra

I very rarely feel like I'm actually in the moment. like 95 % of time I feel like there's a thin veil between me and reality. I'm never present I'm never there

when it’s really bad again and it’s still way better than it used to be but it’s still really bad. and you do all the right stuff and you try and try and it still really hurts but it’s working but it still hurts and you go see the beautiful majesty of nature and your soul is so close to being at peace but your mind is still in pain. and it’s better but it’s still bad. and the sun is setting.

this is such incredible advice for creating any kind of art i have to put it over here to remind myself

cruelty is so easy. youre not special for choosing it

mmm oh I can't think about that or I'll die

the stoic teenager to being on the verge of tears anytime something slightly inconvenient happens adult pipeline is very real